#natuto

.・。.・゜✭・.・✫・゜・。.

Maybe it was wrong to do this to you, Kakashi thought, to use you to ease his own aches and pains while you yourself were suffering from things unbeknownst to him. Maybe it was sick, knowing the feelings you had for him, and using it to get what he wanted.

What did he want…?

His dark eye stared down at you, his silver brow furrowed as sweat dripped down his temple. His face was still hidden behind the mask despite his clothing being scattered across the room, only his gloves and mask remained.

You said it was better that way.

Said it was better you couldn’t feel the skin of his hand gripping your head, forcing you further down his cock.

He didn’t mind. His hands were stained anyways. Stained with death and blood and so much more it almost hurt to touch you, since you seemed so much purer than him. He knew you weren’t. No ninja could never be pure.

But when you looked up at him, hands resting on his thighs while you suctioned your lips around his pink tip with such soft eyes, he stuttered. Your eyes were lidded, heavy with arousal and love, an emotion that made him want to both throw up and cry. With a sharp breath and a harsh twitch, he closed his eyes and shoved you down his length, ignoring the startled gag you let out as he held you against his pelvis.

He could feel your nose twitch and rub against his pelvis, buried in the silver patch of hair that fluffed the base of his cock. He could feel each deep inhale you took, and he couldn’t tell if it was to catch your breath from the sudden movement, or to memorize the scent of his body. And when your soft moans vibrated around his cock, and he hoped it was the latter.

He couldn’t help but wonder if you could feel the thump of his heart though the vein running under his shaft. He hoped you couldn’t.

Because as he resumed his ruthless pace, hips slamming into your face and causing your throat to constrict and gag around his cock, he couldn’t stop the way he wished it wasn’t just for release. How he wanted this to be something more.

But he knew better. You knew better. And neither of you would ever bring up the lingering gazes, the soft whispers of each other's names in the night, or the way Kakashi came with a hushed moan, choking the three words you wanted to hear most.

No. Neither of you would ever put yourselves through that pain. Because love kills. Love is what puts everyone you care about in danger, and rips away the only thing keeping you going.

And Kakashi couldn’t risk losing you.

.・。.・゜✭・.・✫・゜・。.

A/N: Sorry for the random angst hehe. It actually wasn’t supposed to be angst but then i was like… ‘this works’ and kept writing! Once again, i’m working on my inbox so don’t worry !! enjoy this meanwhile!

also sorry if it’s weird, there’s no proofreading and i’m posting this on my phone…oops

(They immediately become contraband, we are NOT giving the leaf out money for their sexy print outs and body pillows of our enemies you guys!!! No matter how tempting it is!!!!!!)