REALITY ⬆️ when it’s time of the month for me, Nadie hangs around quite a bit more! 😒 The last few days my level of fatigue has been extreme as well as the sleep attacks being much more consistent and extreme 😰 ———— I haven’t felt like this for a while, exhausted, anxious and frustrated. I’ve snacked galore 🍿🍫 Being like this throughout the day doesn’t lead me to make the best decisions as I don’t even know what I’m doing... I burned my hand on the frying pan, ate a spoon full of cocoa nibs 🤢 and put Chubba Chubba’s in the fridge. 🍭🍭 I have been reluctant to take my medication because I’ve been stubborn towards admitting that I actually NEED it. Maikel suggested I take a nap before we went for dinner the other night but you know, I’m not a baby, I don’t need a nap!! 😡 I have felt like the real me has turned into a stimulant addict who is constantly running on drugs to be any sort of company and I don’t want that to be the ‘real me’. 🔜 ————— However, I don’t have a choice, it’s either this ^ 15 times a day or I take my medication and stop being so silly! I DO need to nap before dinner, not because I’m a baby but because I have Narcolepsy and to not let Narcolepsy take away quality time with Maikel at dinner, yes I do need to shut my eyes quickly before we leave. 😴 The real me ISN’T a drug addict at all. I medicate my self to have a life, to feel alive and to HELP the REAL ME towards a better quality of life. I’m not Ritilin or Modafinil, I’m still Belle but in order for me now to feel happy, strong, determined and awake I do need a little help, it doesn’t mean I’m giving up or hiding behind medication. So I’m ready to get back on track, stop being so stubborn towards this condition, accepting it, dealing with it and realising that this is me, I have it but it doesn’t have me! 💪🏼 #energeticnarcoleptic #narcolepsy #inspiration #motivation #sleep #fitnessmotivation #inspire #reality
