#mysarang

Happy Birthday Ma. Its already 2022 Ma. You would be Sweet 16 with an Uno reverse card. 🎂😻 Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.. Ya Allah Ya Tuhan ku, May you grant Ma Jannahtul Firdaus, place her with pious people and her love ones. InshaAllah. Amin.🤲🏻 Love you more than 3000 Nekyah and missing you always #mysarang 🙆🏻‍♀️ Al-fateha Sathiah Binte Salleh https://www.instagram.com/p/CYZTHpJBU3n/?utm_medium=tumblr

I had a dream last night. and I clearly saw both of them together. Smiling to me. 🧸🧸 19-12 is never the same after i lost Mama in 2018. And this year, i lost Kakak a month before my birthday too. Honestly, It took me quite a while to let everything sink in. I've learnt to redha of their passing but I'm still trying to fight the empty feeling. I just can't.. 😔 but still life has to go on right? I have to move forward. But this year really.. What a year Aye? Today, i feel blessed that Allah s.w.t had spared me another year to live this Temporary Life. Another number added, another responsibility and another chance to correct what you have done wrongly the previous years Elly. Every year my wish or prayer is the same, i pray for Abah, my family and friends around me to be happy and healthy so we could still see each other for many more years to come. 🙆🏻‍♀️ But If one day Allah s.w.t decides to take my life away. I pray that He will allow me to meet Mama and Kakak in the afterlife because I really miss them so dearly. I wish they were still here especially on my birthday. But Till then, Salam Sayang Mama and Kakak. Thank you for being part of my life. Al-fateha Sathiah Binte Salleh. Noraini Binte Sulaiman. 🙆🏻‍♀️ #mysarang #nekyah #kakak (at Temporary world) https://www.instagram.com/p/CI9IgBPB08A/?igshid=1xku8gmlompvl

They say money can't buy you happiness. They are lying.. Hahah No lah.. Case to case basis lah okay. This week has been pretty rough for me. Multiple Breakdowns and shutdowns in a span of a week. Very Unhealthy. So Ababah brought me out of my cave for an Advanced Birthday celebration. Thank you Bah @_tokmimi for the gift from @vans.sg and lunch. Also biggest shoutout to Ababah again for being the wings behind my back. He told me, he isnt going anywhere and I can lean on him whenever and wherever. 😭 Love you Ababah more than 3000. 🙆🏻‍♀️ #mysarang https://www.instagram.com/p/CIsTKnEhx09/?igshid=111c8w5tqw0c

Its been two years and i'm still fighting the internal pain and loss. Whatever i've been doing was just a distraction to my reality. I worry about alot of things everyday. The uncertainity of what tomorrow brings gives me anxiety and it fears me. Due to that, it had also led me to many sleepless nights. Not helping with what i had been through since early this year. I dont like sharing my life and my hustle story on social media because i really dont like to show people my bad and sad phase of life. Only those Very close to me know what i've been through for the past year. Despite the challenges i had faced this year, I have Abah who has been extremely supportive to whatever decisions i've made. Shoutouts to @_tokmimi But him being okay with most stuff also worries me. Aigoo. Its a never ending worry cycle. I'm not an overthinker but nowadays im starting to be one. 😞 This year has taught me that no matter how meticulously I had planned my life, the Almighty has the last say & way for me. That’s why it’s so important to live every moment & not take things for granted. Here today, gone tomorrow. Just like how i lost Arwah Mama. 😢 But hey those we love don't go away. They walk beside us everyday. And in my case, i have Abah physically and Mama emotionally. Although Unseen and unheard but she has always been near. In fact, never once have she left my heart. Still loved, still missed and held so dear. I miss hugging you every day before work Ma because right now i really needed it. Please continue to look over me from Jannah. I love you and i miss you Nekyah Al-fateha Sathiah Binte Salleh. 🤲🏻 #181118 #mysarang (at Singapore) https://www.instagram.com/p/CHtbRquBVG4/?igshid=zbl3lt4772tr

Happiest Birthday #Nekyah . May Allah s.w.t continue to look over you and grant you Jannahtul Firdaus. I miss you ma, a lot...everyday. 🙆🏻‍♀️ #mysarang https://www.instagram.com/p/B7ARZHYhFJU/?igshid=c879kxwmqhdr

Secuteeeeeeeeee. I ship this! #Nekyah and #Tok Mimi so young anddddd sooo in love. #mysarang https://www.instagram.com/p/B2qCxzxBdF3lJVx70XxelkiFg0D8GkojGKWmCk0/?igshid=gtnwi8tk62ah

MashaAllah. 10 months had passed. and i still miss you every single day. Before i go to sleep i will always gaze at a portrait of you at the side of my bed and thought did i do enough for you Ma? Are you okay over there? Is your knee okay? Do you have your tongkat with you? All sort of thoughts comes into my head. I feel like i have so much to tell you over this past months. Ma, i dont think i have done enough for you and I'm sorry i wasnt able to but InsyaAllah... I will try my best to look after Abah for you. Alhamdulillah we are doing okay here. I pray for that you are placed with pious people, your loved ones and well protected by our Rasullah s.a.w and Allah s.w.t. I miss you Ma. Al-Fateha. 🙆🏻‍♀️ #mysarang https://www.instagram.com/p/B2h0mdahVbCy0KmC6aURVn3EMuQ6fpqxdbbEBs0/?igshid=1r63aq14fb7qd

Alhamdulillah. Thanks Ma for visiting and for the laughter. Never felt happier seeing you. Loving this Holy Month of Ramadhan even more than ever now. 😊 Pardon #Nekyah tudung senget in this picture. Time nie kita tengah food coma lepas makan seoul garden. 😹 #mysarang https://www.instagram.com/p/BxLX2hGhpWd/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=19oeqirk48iwj