#myfirst

He wanted to tell him all that and more …

Only to know what happened from a depressed Lan Zhan it was apparently 2 years ago so basically he was a couple of hundred days late huh

And now no one knows where he is .

He wonders if he was fine,he was never good at taking care of himself if his state at burial mounds was anything to go by.

He wonders what does he think about while wondering aimlessly does he miss Lan Zhan or .. him -yeah right-

He remembers the scared, guilty ,hoping? looks Wei Ying gave him every time they met after his “Return” and feels like throwing up

So now he calls him Wei Ying in his internal monologue .Really Jiang Wanyin really? !

He politely refuses Lan Xichen’s offer to stay the night afraid of all the happy memories haunting him at every corner of that place.

He wonders how Lan Zhan can do it ,he pities him. .

5 Years later a knock on his door .

A man in a black robe

Red ribbons muffled in long silky hair

Tired Grey eyes

And 2 Jars of “Emperor’s Smile”

The only thing he knows he hugged him with all the strength he could muster given the fact that his knees failed him for a second there.

He was sobbing and shaking in his embrace saying everything and nothing in the same time

I’m sorry

I’m sorry

Please Stay

Is this even real ?

He knew it was for the man in front of him looked older than the one in his dreams.

He clutches harder into him while the other man kept mumbling sweet nothings reassuring him and holding him almost as tight.

When he finally calmed down he took a step back eyeing him with red teary eyes.

“Welcome Home Wei Wuxian” his voice was shaking but he didn’t care.

The other man just smiled.