#myexaggeratedshenanigans

I'm so tired. I'm more tired than I can ever properly express. I just want someone, anyone, to listen. To hear me. I don't want to be here anymore. I don't know where I want to be but it's not here. I want friends. I want a family. I want to be able to feel something. I want a hug. I want to sleep. And if its selfish of me to want those things....

The adoption

*I love the names you chose for them. They are very fitting. I’m glad the boys are settling in well. Of course it’s super easy for Papython and Krait to settle in well… they just want to be where you are. It is definitely a little more difficult for a full-sized King. I’m not surprised he doesn’t fit into the kitchen at your work. He’s just a bit too much lamia for a compact space.

So, not many of you people on here know it, but fellow tumblr user Kaslytherine and I were irl childhood friends. We grew up together and even when I moved away we stayed in contact. Unfortunately, the night of Friday June 10, 2016 she was in a severe car accident, and passed away Sunday June 12, 2016 shortly after midnight. If any of her followers would like more information about the events or funeral arrangements they are more than welcome to message me and I will provide it. I am still working on coming to terms with the fact that she is gone. I sat there at the hospital with her and her family all day yesterday, and it still doesn’t seem real. I can’t imagine a world without Kat because she’s been there for almost as long as I can remember. I am actually heartbroken over this, and I’m doing my best right now but I think I’m just on autopilot, trying to make sure that everyone she knew knows that she’s gone. I’m crying at all sorts of stuff right now because so many things remind me of her. I just… I can’t believe it. Goodness knows Kat was probably a better friend to me than I was to her. I can’t tell you how much I regret that. We had our ups and downs, as any and every relationship does. But we tried our best to be understanding of each other as we grew up and changed. We tried our best to support each other, and to hang out with each other whenever we could. We dragged each other into so many fandoms I’ve lost count. We had plans, she and I. We were gonna be those crazy old ladies with rainbow hair, jousting with our scooters. We were going to go to Harry Potter World one year. We were going to be bridesmaids at each other’s weddings, whenever those ended up happening. We had so much we still had to do. And now we’ll never get the chance to do any of it. I’m angry, and I’m sad, and I’m confused. I’m hurt. How could this have happened to her? It was all so fast. I know I’ve said it before but… It just doesn’t seem real. I’m gonna miss her so much. I can’t even put everything into words right now. Tell people how you feel about them. Enjoy every moment you have with them. Because you never know when they’ll be gone.

Today, has been a day of both good and bad things. Good news, I finally got my own apartment for the first time! It will be just me, myself and I, and that means a lot to me, actually... I’ve always had a room-mate, or two, or stayed with family, so doing this on my own is a big step, and while i’m really nervous I’m also very excited because this is a big step. 

But now, the bad news. Back in June(?Late May?) I lost my cat Tigger, that had been with me for 19 years. He was old, and it was best for him to go, despite that I wished otherwise. And today, I lose another. My baby Gabby, at 15 years old, is saying goodbye. He hasn’t eaten properly in weeks, and stopped eating completely yesterday. He’s skin and bones, and once again, its best for him to go. He will be so very missed, I’m already crying as I write this before going to the vet.