oh sam winchester you were born just a normal kid like everyone else, you could have lived a normal life and have been happy and loved and cared for others, except at a very young age before you could even start to imagine your life you were chosen by a higher power to be part of a bigger plan and the fundamental element to one day bring back a very terrible being, so they forcefully put something inside of you as a kid that was irrelevant for the first part of your life but then became very apparent when you got older and caused you headaches and you could do nothing to get it out. your independence was stripped from you. you never got to be your own person because you’re the perfect vessel/puppet of an evil entity. because you were always meant to be a tool. welcome back koschei oakdown