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basil :   does your muse have a love - hate relationship with anyone or anything ?

He has a love - hate relationship with technology. He’s aware of its benefits, but he hates it, and he’s sure it hates him. He’s forever losing his temper with technology whether it be his phone, laptop, the till at the bar. The bar has a scoreboard of ‘Patrick vs Technology’ and Patrick is losing...by a lot.

bluebell :   does your muse learn from their past ,   or are they prone to repeating the same mistakes ? 

He learns but he’s also human. Sometimes when humans learn their lesson they sometimes forget to put it into practice.

hydrangea :   how much does your muse value communication in their relationships with others ?  are they prone to being misunderstood ?

He values it, but he’s also terrible at it. He can be misunderstood because he struggles to find the words to express how he feels at times.

lotus :   has your muse ever felt as though they’ve been reborn ?  have they ever desired the feeling of a fresh start ,   or a better understanding of themself and/or the world around them ? 

He’s never felt the feeling of being reborn, but he has had the desire to have a fresh start, now more than ever thanks to Ella. External factors like Hayden will make that difficult if not impossible.

🍌  :    is my muse inclined to help others,  or will they only do it when it benefits them,  if at all?  what makes them this way?  has it ever gotten them into trouble,  or inconvenienced them?

angelica :   where does your muse draw inspiration in life ?   what motivates them ?

Usually, the main things that have kept Berlioz motivated throughout his piano-playing career were the pursuit of the mastery of his instrument, the success and respect of his peers, and the admiration and love of his mother. Recently, however, he’s been having quite some problems finding that inspiration...

belladonna :   how does your muse respond to silence ?   do they take comfort in soundlessness ,   or seek to fill the void with noise ?  

It truly depends: if Berlioz is accompanied by people he trusts, like his family and his few friends, silence is usually very much welcome. The world generally seems too noisy and chaotic for him, and he much prefers the neat, rhythmic logic of music. Soundlessness, in that sense, is a break from both, a moment to catch his breath. However, if he’s surrounded by strangers or in an already awkward situation, the silence can quickly turn unsettling and even ill-intentioned: when strangers look at him in silence, either on the street, on a meeting or in a theater, Berlioz feels he’s being judged and analyzed, and the lack of knowledge on what others think of him in that moment can feel almost painful to him.

gladiolus :   describe a moment from your muse’s life that they will never forget .

Berlioz will never forget the best performance he ever had: he was eight years old, his mother had bought him a new dark grey suit and a red tie, and she had told him he looked like a little gentleman. Even his siblings had complimented him, and wished him luck... And he played four pieces: Beethoven’s  “Pathétique”, Bizet’s “Serenade”, Schubert’s “Piano Sonata No. 13″, and Debussy’s “Suite Bergamasque”. He received a round of applause that lasted almost five whole minutes. Berlioz had been practising for that recital for two months, since he wouldn’t have a break between each piece, and he put it upon himself to play each piece back to back, straining his little fingers to the limit. When he stood up after playing, there were tears of joy in his eyes.

🥝  :    does my muse have any  ‘  unusual  ’  habits, interests,  and  /  or talents?  do they hide it,  or are they proud of it?

bachelor’s button : does your muse actively seek romantic companionship , or cherish the liberties of being single ?

recently remy has realized he’s gay, but has only shared this information with his confidante and closest brother emile. remy says he thinks this is meaningless, as he never really considered looking for a partner –choosing instead to dedicate his life to cooking; and yet, his status as an outsider in his own community doesn’t help to his growing sense of loneliness. he would say that he enjoys being single, and just generally doesn’t give it a lot of thought; but sometimes, very rarely, remy does wish he had a partner that could love him and support him. still, he doesn’t really know what being in a romantic relationship would entail, and truly, the mere idea gets him more than a bit flustered.

carnation :   what is your muse’s relationship with their gender ?   how do they express or not express this relationship ?  

remy began his transition when he was fifteen, though he can attest that it was more for the sake of the other’s perception of him (to avoid constantly having to correcting others’ pronouns) and to alleviate his growing body dysmorphia. while he was pressured to stick to traditional feminine gender roles in his earlier childhood, he never felt comfortable in them, and mostly did whatever he felt like doing. he always found himself more comfortable among his male “cousins”, which while at first thought it weird, quickly accepted him as one of them. his female “cousins”, on the other hand, did use to mock him quite a lot back then, which only pushed him further to seek the company of other boys. still, remy isn’t particularly bothered by his presentation: as far as others respect his pronouns and don’t annoy him with personal questions, he’s quite happy with who he is and with the gender he currently has. it has to be said, however, that he knows very well that one of the reasons his nana was so encouraging for him to learn how to cook and provide for his family was because of who she thought he would grow into; the fact that she died before remy could put into words and tell her who he really was, and the question of whether or not she would have loved him enough to accept it, does nag at him from time to time.

oak :   who would your muse consider the strongest person they know ?  

without a doubt, it would have to be his father. as much as they argue, remy believes django to be the strongest person in the world, able to go through the hardest things a man can go through and still manage to be kind. that is saying something, really, since he does know a lot of people in his extended family: a lot of them went through separations, sickness, crisis and difficulties, but for remy, as much sympathy as he has for them, django is special specifically because, even though he had his own problems to take care of, he managed to find time to raise his sons and take good care of them, no matter how much they misbehaved. sometimes, when remy regrets the things he said to his father during their discussions, he thinks he doesn’t really deserve his father’s patience at all, especially in comparison to emile, who has always seemed more like the perfect son their father had always wanted: strong, reliable, confident, but also loyal, obedient, and easy-going.

sage :   what is your muse’s legacy ?   what do they want to be remembered for   &   what might they actually be remembered for ?

everything remy wants is to have a legacy, a name for himself, the reputation that comes from doing that which he loves: cooking. he’s desperate to be recognized and admired for his talent, to create cooking schools, encourage others to find the time to dedicate themselves to cooking a tasty meal, to pass their own knowledge and family recipes to their children; in short, to share his passion and enthusiasm for food with others, and be remembered for it.

he doesn’t know it yet, but the fact that he transitioned quite publicly in his family, and at a young age, showing others in his community just what the whole process entailed, and just how supportive, even despite the initial confusion, the whole family was, has other kids from the family questioning their own relationships with their gender; in a few generations, he’s more than likely to be the reason a lot of other people in the clan feel confident enough to come out to their family, and fondly remembered for it.

🍋  :    what kind of diet does my muse have?  do they eat regularly,  or the standard 2-3 meals a day?  do they have to be reminded to eat,  or are they likely to remind others?  do they cook,  or have others cook for them?  do they eat healthily,  or not so much?  

basil: does your muse have a love - hate relationship with anyone or anything?

Rachel has a bit of a love-hate relationship with TV. She wasn’t allowed to watch much of it growing up, but if she was very careful she could sneak a glance through the ajar living room door if Mother had fallen asleep. Now that she can watch TV whenever she likes, she finds that she isn’t all the interested in it after all - she would rather be outside doing something than stuck inside watching the screen, trying to figure out if she’s missing a reference or not. (She really does not understand anything that happens in the show F.R.I.E.N.D.S)

chrysanthemum: how does your muse express romantic love? how do they feel about love as a concept? 

Rachel doesn’t have much (see: any) experience in that department, though I don’t think it would be too dissimilar to how she expresses platonic love. She is aaaalll about spending quality time with the people she loves, taking care of them and experiencing new things with them. I suppose the only exception would be that there would be a few more kisses and cuddles thrown in there for funsies, ‘cause they seem kind of nice.

Love, as a concept, is so broad, and she hasn’t totally narrowed it all the way down to its parts yet. It sounds lovely though!

holly: how strong is your muse’s sense of intuition?  are they aware of it? do they ever fear that it is only paranoia?   

Rachel likes to think that she has a pretty strong sense of intuition, though that could be disputed. She can be incredibly naive at times, far too trusting and gives everyone the benefit of the doubt even when, by all other evidence, she really shouldn’t. She has only met a small handful of genuinely horrid people in her life, and has now convinced herself that her worries and fears about other people are ‘Mother’s’ paranoia and not her own. Rachel tends to miss social cues that might help her otherwise but so far she hasn’t been sorely disappointed, convincing her that her intuition (that everyone she meets is inherently good) is correct.

iris: if your muse could convey one last message to someone they have lost or left behind, what would it be? 

For all the anguish that it caused her when Rachel finally realised that her Mother wasn’t her real Mother, and that her whole life had been a lie, Rachel sometimes misses her, despite knowing in her heart that she really shouldn’t. Everything happened so quickly, and with so little time to process anything, that Rachel felt like she never got to say goodbye to the woman that raised her. From the moment she stepped foot in the police station she was questioned a million times over, and thrust into a home and family that she never knew. From there, she had to testify against Mother in court, despite (at the time) not realising that she had done anything wrong. She may have ill feelings toward her now, but there was never closer. The last time she saw her she was being whisked away after sentencing, never to be heard from again.

So, Rachel would like to say goodbye. That’s it. Just goodbye.

🥝  does my muse have any ‘unusual’ habits, interests, and / or talents? do they hide it, or are they proud of it?  

abatina :   is there anything in life your muse has changed their mind about over time   (   due to becoming more educated on the topic ,   certain experiences  ,   etc .   ) ,   or that they   would   change their mind about under certain circumstances ? 

Not really. Paxton is an open-minded person, despite him always looking like he’s pissed off. He knows that the other line of work that he’s involved in is illegal and morally wrong, but he hasn’t made any moves to remove himself from that side of things, nor is he likely to.

angelica :   where does your muse draw inspiration in life ?   what motivates them ?

He’s not inspired by much, or anything tbh. Paxton’s motivations to doing this is money, survival, his brother and loyalty to Hayden. It’s the basics.

chamomile :   what is your muse likely to take away from a painful experience ?   are they one to be haunted by adversity ,   or to use what they’ve gone through to become stronger ? 

Other than the trauma -which he’s got in spades full- he’d take away anger. That fuels him to be stronger, to be better. Paxton bottles up any emotion he’s ever felt and moves on.

peony :   what would a   ‘  happy life  ’   look like in your muse’s eyes ?

Not living a double life and being able to actually have people in his life. He’d be fine with getting to live the rest of his days and chilling as an old man. Paxton doesn’t ask for much in life.

🍎  :    how stable is my muse’s mental health?  have they been diagnosed with any mental illnesses and  /  or conditions?  do they have any undiagnosed mental illnesses and  /  or conditions?  do they or should they attend therapy? 

amaryllis: what is something or someone that your muse takes pride in? how do they express that pride?  

Tina is quite proud of her ever-growing teapot collection, though she doesn’t show it off very often. Aunt Mary raised her around the pottery studio, so she was always tinkering with such things, and when she became particularly stressed (and broke said teapots) Mary made her sit down and mend them. Now Tina has a collection mixed with teapots she has made, acquired, broken, and fixed, and when she needs to chill out she fixes up the collection and gives them all a polish. She brings out the special ones when her friends are over for tea and a gossip and she’s proud to say she has only broken one this month.

bluebell: does your muse learn from their past, or are they prone to repeating the same mistakes?

The answer is... sometimes. It seems the only thing Tina really learns from her past is the most quick and effective ways to piss someone off, and rarely changes her actions despite the consequences of such. She speaks before she thinks, reacts before she assesses a situation and acts before anyone has time to stop her.

Frustratingly for most, her biggest mistake, the one she repeats over and over again, is Peter. No matter how many times he hurts her, she keeps coming back. She can’t stay away and is blind to just how bad he really is for her.

But she’s getting better in some aspects. James is a shining example. Okay, yeah, sure she still absolutely winds him up every chance she gets, but he seems to be the only person that can kick her conscience into gear. Tina has hurt James quite terribly in the past and she feels immensely guilty for it, and now, by some miracle, she is trying to do better and not repeat those same mistakes.

fern: does your muse believe in magic or cosmic forces, or are they more likely to think their life is ultimately a matter of their own control?

Tina totally believes in magic, in some weird childhood, Lost Boy story sort of way. She doesn’t necessarily believe in some higher power or cosmic force controlling things (she would have a stern word with someone if there was) but she definitely believes in something. You can’t live in Redwood Hollow and grow up playing in the woods without at least believing in fairies. Tina is somewhat superstitious, and won’t leave somewhere with a magpie if she hasn’t found its companion first. She wouldn’t let her worst enemy (exception being Wendy) step inside a ring of mushrooms.

magnolia: describe your muse’s relationship with nature & the natural world.

Tina was raised amongst the trees and the wildflowers, bathing in sunlight and smelling distinctly of grass-stains and earth. Peter, Tina and the Lost Boys spent more time playing in the woods, building treehouses and going on sprawling adventures through the surrounding woodland of Redwood Hollow than they did going to school or brushing their teeth. Even now, Tina smells vaguely of fresh lavender and summers long gone; ask James, whose house is quickly being overrun by pretty green houseplants and outdoorsy-scented candles, and he’ll tell you the same thing. Outdoors in nature is a safe place for Tina. It was a place free of constraints and responsibility, a place of freedom, and a place where she and the Lost Boys didn’t have to answer to anybody but themselves.

🍎 how stable is my muse’s mental health?  have they been diagnosed with any mental illnesses and  /  or conditions?  do they have any undiagnosed mental illnesses and  /  or conditions?  do they or should they attend therapy?

Let’s start with the last and most obvious question: Tina needs serious therapy. No one can even deny it at this point. (I mean, hello, she was crying about Smiley Faces in the grocery store. Are we surprised?) Unfortunately, she’s incredibly stubborn, and says “I’m Fine” more than any other sentence, so trying to convince her to attend therapy would only make her dig her heels in deeper.

anemone :   how does your muse view the world ;   as a cruel   &   unforgiving place ,   a land full of wonders ,   or something in - between ? where does that world view come from   (   what experiences ,   life lessons ,   etc .   ) ?  

Certainly, somewhere in between, which changes wildly depending on Sally’s mood or recent experiences. She has a sense of wonder and a strong appreciation to the beauty of the world; but she’s also extremely cautious and since she was very young her father has given her a marked distrust of anything that may be too good to be true. Living quite the sheltered life, Sally doesn’t have a lot of evidence that the world is truly the awful place her father makes it out to be, especially since, from the moment she began to socialize a bit more and get out of her comfort zone, Sally has known nothing but support and love. Still, her fears reign her desires to continue exploring and finding out more about the world; it is still something Sally’s working on.

chrysanthemum :   how does your muse express romantic love ?  how do they feel about love as a concept ?  

Sally tries to be as practical as possible, and mentally, she knows that love is a bond developed by animals to protect each other and ensure their survival; and still, emotionally, she does see love as a romantic, beautifully poetic thing. This doesn’t exactly change the fact that Sally has a lot of difficulties expressing love, especially the romantic kind: she wants to love and be loved, and since she was a little girl she has dreamed of a romantic partner; but she’s far too shy to act on her feelings, and as such her expressions of love towards her crush are almost indistinguishable from those she gives to a friend.

lavender :   how easy is it to gain your muse’s trust ?  once their trust is broken ,   how might one go about mending it ?  

Despite her caution and anxieties, Sally does believe most people are good at heart, and as such she’s not particularly suspicious of others’ intentions. She is, nonetheless, wary of sharing too much information about herself -since you never know if someone may turn out to be an ax murderer -or exposing her vulnerabilities too much. She tries to maintain the attitude she presents at work, mostly: approachable, helpful, kind and respectful. If that helps people trust her, then she will repay that trust with trust.

When that trust is broken, however, Sally can go either way: be completely heartbroken and desperate, locking herself up and retreating into herself for weeks; or become apparently numb while being quietly, seethingly resentful. Mending that breach of trust depends on the gravity of the situation; if it has been light enough, it may be fixed with a good apology or a kind actions; if it has been severe enough, however, it could have no way to be mended.

parsley :   describe a holiday your muse enjoys ,   and why they enjoy it .

Halloween, Halloween, Halloween. As much of a scaredy cat as Sally may appear, she adores all things spooky and creepy: she believes it’s the one time when the scary things are all fake, all a game, and this encourages her to participate and have a good time. It helps that she loves costumes, storytelling and baking sweets: since she was young, it was the one event in Redwood Hollow that she always wanted to be present for, to be out and about; and, surprisingly for her, as long as she promised to get home before ten o’clock, her father allowed her to go trick-or-treatin’ with the rest of the kids. For Sally, Halloween is the best holiday there is, and she looks forward to it every year.

peony :   what would a   ‘  happy life  ’   look like in your muse’s eyes ?

🍅  :    how does my muse feel about plastic  /  cosmetic surgeries   &   procedures?  is it something they have done or would do?  do they mind if others do it?  

Sally isn’t very concerned what others do with their bodies as long as they don’t hurt themselves. Where it concerns her, however, Sally has often wished she was prettier, or at least, “beautiful” in the way she conceives it. She never had much self-esteem, and that also goes to her physical attraction. While she never gave much thought to it since Sally would rather spend money on something else, it given the chance, she might consider a cosmetic surgery to at least feel a bit more confident about herself; though, exactly what, she’s not sure.

🍎  :    how stable is my muse’s mental health?  have they been diagnosed with any mental illnesses and  /  or conditions?  do they have any undiagnosed mental illnesses and  /  or conditions?  do they or should they attend therapy?  

Without any doubt, Sally does have social anxiety and while she has learnt through time to manage herself and find ways to soothe herself, it does rear its head from time to time, and usually leads to her getting angry at herself. While Sally acknowledges that she has anxiety in spades, she still hasn’t truly accepted that she might also have depression, mostly as a result of a childhood with a lack of emotional connection and neglect. She has never been diagnosed, however.

🍐  :    how intelligent is my muse overall?  are they smarter than the average person,  or less than?  are they primarily self-taught,  or did they acquire most of their knowledge in school?  are they more street smart or book smart?  

Having an esteemed professor and academic as her father, Sally was always encouraged to study and learn. She has some pride in her smarts, though, as she has never been to a school and doesn’t know what other people know compared to herself, Sally can’t tell whether she’s smarter than the rest or not. She has been homeschooled by her father, yet he also insisted she educated herself on several topics, and one of the few places she was allowed to leave the house for was the local library, where Sally spent a good amount of her afternoons. She’s definitely booksmart rather than street smart, though. Her anxiety and caution do help her avoid danger, and has been serving her more or less well as a replacement so far.

🍊  :    does my muse desire romance?  is it something they would actively seek out,  or prefer to happen more  ‘  naturally?  ’  what is their love life like?  do they have any exes or past flings,  or crushes? 

Sally greatly desires romance, to the point that it is one of her most frequent daydreams. As shy as she is, she would never actively seek out, and truly, would always expect the other to make the first move. She has and has never had any sort of love life, and everything Sally knows about love and romance has been through books and movies; so, it stands to reason, both her expectations and concepts about what partners do is a bit idealized. Her crush on Jack, the first and only one she recognizes as such, is, as far as she’s aware, the greatest love she’ll ever know, even if it will never be returned.

🥝  :    does my muse have any  ‘  unusual  ’  habits, interests,  and  /  or talents?  do they hide it,  or are they proud of it?