#muse:lamar

Lamar took a deep breath, still sitting in his car. He was a bit newer to this. Having a daddy, possibly being a little. Ethan, his best friend seemed so happy in his relationship with Chris and their daddy, but he was nervous. Tonight’s dinner was about making things official. Being intersex and being hurt by boys in the past, Lamar stayed cautious and guarded. But he was dealing with a man now that seemingly respected his boundaries and who he was. They hadn’t slept together yet, but maybe that would change because he felt safe when he was around him. It was the anticipation of making this official and his own self doubt that got to him.

I can do this...

Lamar took one more calming breath and got out of the car, walking into the restaurant right on time for his date. He was dressed in semi-casual wear; dark blue slacks, a black button down shirt tucked in and dark blue suspenders with gold accents along with his favorite winter coat. He was immediately led to a table to meet his most recent lover. The man looked so handsome, his nerves immediately calmed as he saw that smile that made him weak. “Hi, I hope I didn’t keep you waiting too long,” he said shyly, playing with his fingers before taking his seat.

Lamar looked over at him, closing the comic Ethan got him for his birthday. “H-how’d you know I’d need to bathe sir?” It had been a very trying morning for him. Too many people tested his patience and he wanted to relax and vent to Ethan about it, but his friend was working at the library right now.

“You think so?” He grinned at his boyfriend. “Yes sir!” He chirped and sauntered over. “Wait, how do you want me to sit?” He asked once he was in front of him.

It was the first day of school and Jack, Ethan, and Chris were waiting for the other half of their friends to show up so they could eat. It was different going to college. Jack and Ethan already pledged to a frat but Chris didn’t in fear of getting distracted. Lamar, Adam, and Ben weren’t even enrolled yet. Lamar wasn’t sure what he wanted to do for a living, Adam couldn’t decide if he wanted to bake or write more so he didn’t enroll so he wouldn’t waste money on classes, and Ben just wasn’t that interested in school. Plus the boy was fairly wealthy and running with the wrong crowd on the side. Five more minutes passed before all the boys were together in the quad.

“I’m sorry, but you shouldn’t have been lurking around my apartment in the dark. It was only with a fork in your shoulder, but I guess we should get you checked out by a doctor. You’re lucky it was me and not one of my crazier neighbors though,” Lamar told the stranger

@unreliable-hero

☼ : A memory my character has with yours that they’ll never forget

“Definitely the first time we stayed in for the night. You had a long day and wanted to drink the night away whereas I just wanted to cuddle and eat ice cream. We ended up combining both our wants. You vented and eventually we had gone through one and a half bottles of wine and two quarts of ice cream, ending with a hot makeout session.”