At That Moment I Should Have Left
The arguing has been happening for months now. They start out as something small. I want more attention, you are constantly on the game. Can you help me with the chores around the house. But I will either get no reply or a half assed response about getting up after that round. But nothing changes. I have given him so many chances, staring at him right now makes me feel numb. He was not the man I feel for, this was a shell of that person. All I see is a scrawny, pale, greasy haired man. “Why are you always nagging me about this?” He yells at me taking his eyes off the game for the first time in what feels like months. His eyes are bloodshot making the red irises stand out even more. His hair is falling around his face in shiny greasy strands. His skin looks waxy. He looked disgusting. I just want the man I loved back because this person looked like some kind of monster out of a wax museum. His mouth is twisted into a snarl lips chapped from dehydration and the constant chewing. His hands are balled up into fists, the veins prominent. His clothes are wrinkled and I could almost smell them from where I was standing. “I need help with things around the house, you dropped everything when your buddies fucking call you on discord but god forbid your girlfriend of 5 fucking years asks for a little bit of help with things. I want my old boyfriend back. I want to go on dates. I want to be in love again.” The last statement came out of my mouth before I could stop it. “I hate what this has become. I hate the constant fighting. I hate the stupid gaming because it took you away from me. I want you to look at me the way you used to. I want to go back to the night we went bowling and I completely sucked but you still cheered me on. I want to go back to our late night talks about the future and what we were wanting out of life. I want to be able to come home and at least kiss you and have a conversation with me and not just wave me off. I want to be acknowledged by you.” My chest is heaving from the flow of words coming out my mouth. The tears of frustration and hurt roll down my cheeks in waves. Small sobs work their way up my throat. He stands there staring at me, fists shaking his own breathing labored. “Nnmmmmk,” he groans, “You are an ungrateful brat. You are needy and constantly want something. You can’t seem to function without needing my opinion on something. I want to be able to game in peace with my friends. What's so wrong with that?” “You aren’t fucking listening to me!” I scream at him, “When was the last time we ate together?” No response back from him. “When was the last time we went on a date?” Still nothing.
“Or when was the last time we slept together. I’m not even talking about sex I mean actually sleeping in the same bed together?” “Oh right you wouldn’t know. When was the last time you kissed me? Hmmmm? Stop with the fucking silence I want answers. WHen was the last time we had sex or had an intimacy?” I get no response, just silence. He is still standing there now not looking as tense, looking more drawn in. Like he's trying to block out my words. I looked at him waiting for a response, trying to slow my breathing. I close my eyes. I hear him shift around and when I open them again he is sitting back in his gaming chair facing his screens. I notice nothing is moving on his screens meaning he wasn’t actually playing the game just staring at it. “Really? You aren’t going to say anything? Shiggy I need something, anything! Please baby I’m begging you. I feel neglected.” The anger flares up again at his lack of attention and response. “Is there another girl? Is that why you are always on discord?” He spins around so quickly in his chair that it would have been comical if this situation wasn’t so terrible. His eyes were now wide and frantic. “What no. there is no one else. The only girl on there is Toga. You know she's dating those two kids with one green haired boy and the chick with brown hair.” He frantically tries to explain, but his body language screams something very different. He is hiding something. I’ve known him for over 10 years, dating for the last 5. He is blocking my view of the chat window. I glare at him. “Don’t lie to me. I know you. I know when you lie. I know when you are..” I trail off when a call notification pops on the screen, his whole body locks up and his eyes fill with guilt. Bunnygirl is calling stays on the screen for what feels like hours. Staring at it till it disappears, my feet feel like they are cemented to the ground. Nausea rolls in my stomach. It’s all true he is cheating, but why. I should have walked out the room, packed my shit and left but I needed to know why. I needed answers but my mouth didn’t seem to want to work. I continued to stand there staring at the computer screen. Another call starts to come through, Bunnygirl is calling. “You should answer that it seems like it could be important.” The words come out of my mouth, they sound hollow with a hint of venom. “What don't you want to talk to your ‘bunnygirl’?” the hurt now coming through. “Fucking answer it Shigaraki! I want to hear how you talk to her? Do you talk to her about what you are doing? Do you tell her that she is your whole world? That you would crumble the whole world if that would make her happy? Answer the fucking call because it seems like she can’t take a hint.” I say this as the notification pops up again. With shaking hands he reaches for the mouse clicking the accept button. Taking a deep breath he goes to answer it. I walk over to his set up and yank the headphones out from where they are plugged into the computer. He flinches with the amount of force that I use. A female’s voice immediately floods the room. “Hiya baby I missed you. Why weren’t you answering me earlier?” Her voice is high pitched slightly nasally, extremely annoying like the girl who always wants the attention on her. I stare down at him while he keeps quiet. “Shiggy baby where’d you go?” “You better answer her.” Standing over his shoulder I wait. “Wait, who was that? Is your girlfriend home?” She asks
“Yeah I am home. So you know about me and still have a relationship with him?” I question since he has suddenly seemed to lose his ability to speak. “Of course I know of you. You are constantly nagging him about playing video games and not doing anything else. You drove him away, he was more than willing to talk to me about all of it.” I could hear the smug tone in her voice. Staring down at him I feel more tears well up. His head is hanging down so he is not making eye contact with me. My whole world is crumbling down around me. My boyfriend not only practically abandoned me but he is also cheating on me. A sob escapes my chest ringing out in the silent room. Clasping my hand over my mouth I turn and leave the room, running across the hall to the bathroom. Slamming the door shut I fall to my knees, the sobs coming out uncontrolled and painful. A minute later the door flies open and Shiggy falls to his knees in front of me. Tears of his own falling down his face. “Baby please I am so sorry. She means nothing to me. It was nothing important, just some flirting. I don’t want her, I only want you. I’ll stop gaming, I'll delete discord. Please let me make this right. Give me one more chance. I promise I will change ok? Just another chance.” He sobs to me. His hands grasping on mine. I stare down at them, just the feeling of his skin on mine is comforting but makes my skin crawl. At this moment I knew I should leave but I can’t throw away a 5 year relationship. Leaning back from him I take a deep breath. “Fine. You get one chance more chance if you fuck up then I’m gone got it?” My voice was shaky but my eyes held onto his. He nods quickly leaning in to kiss me but I move away from him. “No kissing, you need to make this up to me. Plus you need to shower you smell.” He agrees with me standing and offers his hand to me helping me off the floor. “I’ll shower then do you want to watch Howl’s Moving Castle when I get out?” His voice is small and timid. Nodding my head I walk out the bathroom and into the kitchen grabbing the bottle of wine I was saving for an important day. But fuck it today is ruined why not numb it. Walking over the couch I curl up in the corner waiting for him to come out. When he does he gives me space sitting on the other end of the couch, turning on the movie. I crack open my bottle taking a swig before cradling it to my chest. Months passed by and he had worked really hard on paying more attention to me. He stopped gaming so much and when I would ask for help he wouldn’t argue with me on it. Things started going back to normal. Tonight he told me he had a movie night planned out and to wait for him in the living room. Sitting on the couch I wait for him to bring in the snacks and the wine, when his phone dings from the coffee table. Looking over at the sound I see that he has a text notification. Muriko: ‘Hey I know you said you were busy tonight but I really miss talking to you. Can you make some time after you are done? I love you. Let me know when the next time you are free is.’ I stare down at this message. I should have left. Why did I think he would change? Placing the phone back on the table I lean back against the couch and just wait for him to come back.
-This is posted on AO3 I am the writer please do not post anywhere else. Thank you I hope y’all enjoy this. Let me know if you want the next part.
A/N: This directly follows ending to part 1. The next parts will be if you stay with Shigaraki,I have also have an alternative version where
