#mudafuka

-writing is always good. Wow I am seriously good at this whole 'figuring shit out' thing. Even if it took a long time, it does actually, slowly applies to my  life.

And I believe every single word I wrote back then.

Because I remember typing out these words while this voice kept screaming in my head, "what does these even mean?!" and my heart was all, "I'm numb dude, sorry don't ask me now" shit going on, you know, at the time

Ok to cut the story short, you know about this whole "what you believe you are you become" or those The Power and The Secret stuff? Yeah, this, it definitely feels like it now.

But I think the main lesson here is that

No matter how much you might hate yourself at the moment, how much you don't believe in yourself,

that inner voice in your soul, the one telling you this and that, just write it out and type it out.

You'll feel wrong in all sorts of ways like "Why can't I fucking believe in myseheelff this is shiiiiihiit" but that's just that other voice telling you "you dunt evin know wut yur doing u fag"

Ok so long story short again Belle, just fucking do it cause you're gonna read that shit later in the future and go

"whhaaaaaa? i felt that way? daym" and naturally, you gon' assess every single little thing bout your life and it's gonna feel good cause you realize that you are still alive, and you survived.