From the glass I shattered the night before

Ive been hanging out on rootops lately

Cause I dont want to deal with myself anymore

Ive never been good at subtle

I dig in my own rubble

Tryna pin down cracks in my foundation

Ive run out of excuses

Did I really choose this?

I self-sabatoge

Get cut up on the shards I left behind

Dont know the cause

Or What was running through my mind

I get caught up

On a flawed design

I never think to pause

I self-sabatoge

I wanna get down with you on all nights

Pull you up close to me, real tight

I wanna suck on your savory delight

On my neck I want your sick bite

We’re gonna scream and laugh and get in fights

Gonna drive to the coast to see the highest sights

Lets soak up in it, marinate, then take flight

So when we come to a close

Don’t get trapped in your head there’s a whole rest of the world out there. 

Don’t get held back by what you think they think because you’ll never know what’s actually on their mind and its probably not even you. 

Don’t attempt a facade, it’ll never hold and be exhausting to keep up with. 

Don’t be anything but raw and unfiltered 

Don’t be afraid to be coarse and misunderstood 

Don’t collapse when it doesn’t go right the first time - there’s much more behind the push than perfection. 

Don’t clutter up thoughts with concerns that nobody’s probably even concerned with anyways. 

There’s freedom in the fact that everybody else is probably only concerned with their bubble of existence and you’re probably not on their mind anyways. So that now what once seemed so impossibly unbearable, is just a blimp in somebody else’s day - there’s freedom in the fact that no one cares. 

You’re giving me goosebumps like a chilled breeze just brushed the small of my back leaving me leaning into the wind for more. every. single. time. 

but I can be as soft as a pastel sunset

Im a viper, when im on the up and hyper

but I can be a shadow that you dont know yet

I come with an expiration date

And a full bite

If you tend to hesitate

Know that I never think twice

Hooking up in cars, throwing up in between bars, theres nothing thatll go too far

Im running barefoot

I could care less if I step on glass

Im chasing a rush

I could care less if it doesnt last

Ive got an apetite

Staring down endless taillights

Sucking up chaotic delights

I go after

Shimmering violent laughter

Pretending that nothing else matters

Fueled by impulses

Indulging in temporary thrills

Wondering where my heart is

Consequences fire at will

Im a chaotic delight