it feels surreal being here again after a couple of years. so much happened to be honest.
it's like, college was the time i had to learn how to fly blind because i was kinda a loner. plus, losing d10 was just the first of many losses i had to endure.
nothing is great about losses to be honest. if anything, the world just goes on and won't wait for you to pick yourself up. you just kind of, have to do it yourself.
pros: yay reality check
cons: for a cancer, i've become emotionally constipated until smth is triggered and bam emotional wreck
so far, i'm doing kinda hot. all of my college friends will be graduating earlier than me tbh it's not that bad after all. i've accepted that maybe i'm really a loner by nature.
to be honest i refused to touch anything related ro figure skating for the fear it would open up a lot of pent up emotions. last week, i just watched yuka nagai's final(?) program and felt so relieved. maybe there is a light at the end of the tunnel.
maybe i'm doing better than before. i still have so much to learn and unlearn.
let's hope for brighter days ahead!
p.s.
i'm roaming freely on stan twt now. just shoot me a message :∆
