#mt muses

It's a practice. I'm still finding my steps but I'm trying to find time for it everyday.

When starting something new, it's difficult not to hone in on its imperfections. Ideas are fragile things in the stark light of reality. They shrivel on the vine of scrutiny.

Starting new journals feel the same. Perhaps even more profane. I behold a clean, empty space with all its crisp lines, and think of all the ways I will dirty it all with my thoughts and feelings and half ideas: crooked lines and smudges and oil stains from clumsy, imprecise fingers.

Like, following a national trauma (like a war and/or a pandemic) the people crave normalcy and lash out against anything perceived to threaten it.

A new idea is at the door.

I apply some finishing touches to the table and check my teeth in the silver spoons. It's been a long time since I let someone in and I'm a little nervous.

I take a breath, pat down stray hairs, and walk towards the door. Putting on my best smile, I open the door and invite them in.

Oh no.

Here's the sinking time.

The floor is sinking in the pit of my stomach. The fear centers in my brain are corroding my gut.

I need to write. I must write.

But my brain and body fear the exercise.

I've been reading a book called Written to learn strategies of vaulting over the obstacles of writer's block and lack of motivation. Bec Evans and Chris Smith do a good job explaining the psychology of writing and the strategies of getting things on the page. The latest chapter I've read talks about starting small and scaling up your efforts depending on what you ultimately want/hope to accomplish. If writing a blog post is too much of a project to wrap my mind around, start with a sentence, a word, a simple name for the document. The key is to start and scaffold each task done until you have a finished product. What you want to accomplish and how soon will be determined by your own time table.

The important thing though is the practice. The habit.

I started this journal entry because I was afraid. I thought to myself, if I write something down, no matter how inane, I'd feel better.

"Writing for me" is hard to do since the client (to borrow business speak) is woefully fickle and hard to please. I want to do something, but I'm unsure what that means at this stage.

My classes are winding down and I'll have a good two months to get my house in order before the next semester starts. It'll by no means end then. It's an ongoing process.

The MT model

CyberLife’s MT model line is a line of androids made to help those going  into medical professions by offering fully realistic models to train on, that also offer accurate and clinical feedback. These models are some of the most realistic androids ever created and the most human and life like. They feature replicas of various human organs, whole systems of the body. Students can practice various injections, and insertions. Shots, drawing blood, starting IVs, catheters, etc.

These androids have heartbeats identical to humans instead of the rate other android pumps beat. They have lungs, and soft palpable abdomen with stomachs, bladders, intestines, livers, ect and they have fully anatomically correct genitals.There are two similar model lines that have the same function, the PT and GT. PT models are pediatric models, GT are elderly models. They are just as fully functional and anatomically correct as the MT line.

All the model numbers within the MT series and lines:

Female infant PT100 and Male infant PT200

Female toddler PT300 and Male Toddler PT400

Female young child PT500 and Male young child PT600

Female older child MT100 and Male older child MT200

Female teen MT300 and Male teen MT400

Female adult MT500 and Male adult MT600

Female elder GT700 and Male elder GT800

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The MT series (and related lines) come in all ages, genders, sizes (height, and weight), and ethnicity.

They were not all that common by the time of the revolution. They were a newer and more expensive model as such only a few schools and hospitals purchased MTs. Those who did bought at least one of each age. Most did the ‘full line’ with at least one from each age and gender. Some had two or three.

MT models ‘human’ parts were made to ‘break’ for the purpose of training medical students in finding and diagnosing various ailments, injuries, etc without anyone knowing beforehand what is wrong with the ‘patient’. And then the trainer is to treat what was wrong. Improper and proper actions are logged and given to students and instructors. The ‘broken’ parts resume normal function if properly treated.

They can also be programmed with various ailments or injuries for students to practice with specific situations. They can also simulate emergency situations.