#movingone

I walked past where you were

And could not see me

Would not see me.

Some bullshit distance

Premeditated excuses

Brown and red brick

That matched my fury

And the inflamed veins of my eyes

The wind was blowing me cold

And my hand hovered and mingled

With our city-swift wind

Remembering the weight

Of your hesitant limb

But your soft, masculine hands I will never imagine

The bears, the brain, the bravado

That amazed me

The hums. Humming. Mmmmmmm

Mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

That sweet, satisfactory sigh

Sweet. Sweet. Sweet.

This was I told my self when my ex and I were still together. Yung tipong I was really focused on my studies and friends lang then having fun. Pero nung dumating soya parang come what may na lang ngay. Parang we have plans for each other that alam mo yun parang yun na ang ikakabuhay NAMIN sa future. I didn’t really care about other things except us. The us which very sweet very unpredictable etc us. Yung tipong I depend on him a lot which I don’t really  usually do. Now thae he is gone parang I’m no where to dind. Kasi nung kami siya lang talaga focus ko. Parang pag kasama ko friends ko mentally and emotionally minsan even physically nasakanya ako alam mo yun. Its kindda deep pero true. Tapos ngayong wala parang I don’t know who iam now don’t know how to do these things do that and almost everything. Haay<- I tend not to write this word ngay kanina pa. Pero this time I wont. HAAY tlga ang buhay :3 its like you fell to hard ang landed at the wrong place. Yung tipong makakbangon ka namn pero lumpo na. Well time heals pero ang tagal namn nang saakin. Saknya parang 3 months lang tapos ako mag iisang taon na ayun NGANGA parin ako. Yung feeling na ang saya saya niya tpos ikaw nagmumukmuk TAE gago ya. Ang hirap lang. Deyum.