#mostly there

So since no one else has any bandwidth to do it and I’m “in charge” of the project - we are converting these online courses to spanish, the company that was used did a shitty job of translating english to spanish...so for the last 2 weeks I’ve been copying and pasting shit into PDFs...FUCCKKK MIND NUMBING BULLSHIT

I remember when this place used to be my sounding board, now its just a place to do memes I think...

I was in my 30′s when I started this blog...hahaha..dear lord

blah blah blah blah blah - soccer...all weekend..and then add in basketball now

I kinda blew up at the parents (well specifically one of them) passively aggressively on the daughters soccer team on Sunday, but whatever...water under a ducks back or some shit..plus no one gives a fuccckkkk

Tuesday’s election depressed me

I have enough saved back this year for a decent Xmas for the kiddos...my daughter wants a new iPhone...yeah..NOT getting newest one, just like a decent used one that is refurbed

the kids have the entire week of Thanksgiving off, I might be taking most of it off because I have so many hours to burn - I can only carry 160 and I have way more than that

this weekend at night, unless my old ass falls asleep will be a lot of Red Dead Redemption 2...but who am I kidding, I’m falling asleep

ever feel completely numb? Like all the time? haha

not in the heart attack sense, I just mean emotionally

I ate peanuts from the shell today...man I fucking love peanuts from the fucking shell man....good shit

Gem fusion as polyamory, take one.

Dating a pre-established couple takes guts (or bravado at least, and also some level of stone-cold ignorance.)

Fusing with a pre-established fusion probably takes the same things. 

I think it’s a pretty decent metaphor, in any case. We discuss, in my triad, the individual relationships--he with me, she with him, me with her--but also the relationship that is the triad. Our three-part fusion. But the thing I find myself emotionally defeated by time and again is their Garnet nature. There’s a history and a future there that doesn’t include me. I can date Ruby til the cows come home, and Sapphire too... and our... Oh, our Sardonyx (sure, let’s go with that) is unbeatable, but I’m never going to be part of Garnet.