#mosha posts

Drew this whilst listening to this song 🫶🏾

Hey everyone : ) Hope that you are all well!

I went to go and see Ateez a couple weeks back in the AO Arena and I swear after every concert I just have this new drive in life. Their performance was amazing, their routines energy, bloody everything. My friends and I had GA standing tickets and we managed to get surprisingly close to the front, I was so surprised. Especially since we just strolled in super casually too lmao. The doors opened at 6 and I think we started queuing like just over an hour prior and I thought we would be all the way at the back but we were still pretty close. ate, I love Ateez but not that much.

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And this was the fittt:

(Regretting not taking pics with my friends *sad face* )

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A clip from the concert (wish I could upload more 🥲):

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I thought after concert I would have a better idea of who my bias would be I think I'm even more confused now. Its between Jongho and Mingi at the moment, leaning more towards Jongho I feel. Both of their stage presences' was amazing, Jongho's solo was so beautiful, I felt like he was speaking directly to my soul. My aura may have 1000x by just being in their presence for those 2 hours.

Next, the fan chants! I surprised I didn't lose my voice from all the screaming and shouting tbh. But I think somewhere deep down I needed to belt out those chants. I feel like in general our entire section was really good with the fan chants.

The only bad thing to come of the concert was this damn flu that I've been tackling for like a week now. Like damn, I usually recover from sickness quite quickly but this damn DISEASE just doesn’t seem to want to let me go!! Fingers crossed by next week I will be free of whatever this is because enough is enough dammit.

Besides that, what an amazing way to end a very stressful January month. I had the best of times and I'm so glad that I went. Thank you to Ateez for the amazing performance and Atiny's for all the amazing energy!

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Thanks for reading if you got to this point :).

Mosha xoxo

↓ Scroll down for my sketching process + more details on Meeka ↓

Character details (WIP)

Name: Meeka [surname TBD]

Age: 27

Role: Clan princess (which clan might this be? i'm not sure either)

Likes:

pretty flowers

getting her way / obedient people

watching the sunset & sunrise

dancing

kpop ??? whatever this looks like in her world

Dislikes:

bad odours

dirty places

being alone / the feeling of isolation

This was really fun to draw (it is 3am and I'm running on sweets, fanta and energy drinks). I took inspiration from Na'vi from Avatar and another character who I can picture in my mind but can't quite put my finger on...

My unrelated inner thoughts... Spending Christmas with my family has felt particularly warm this year. I am not too sure what changed or what happened differently to previous years but there was this unspoken sense of peace that I really appreciated and marinated in. From the cooking to the eating to the point in the day when we all got sick of each other and wanted to chill out by ourselves (in a good way). I feel really grateful for the time I had.

P.S Shoutout to my sister (if you read this) for fuelling my new obsession with Love and Deepspace too and making fun of Xavier w me :'- ). And my friend J for supporting me on my blog!

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Thanks for reading!

Love,

A sparkly night sky and a crescent moon above me. Closing my eyes, taking in the atmosphere - I fall deeper and deeper into my sense of self. The ringing symphonies hum between my ears. I relax my face and begin to dream.

There is a snake, myself and a glowing figure (is it a representation of me?). We are in an ocean of greenery, and the trees grow monstrously tall. Another instrument rings, possibly a Triangle Idiophone. It guides me forward in this impossible world. My body in real world twitches, maybe it’s the cold room I'm in.

I continue to dream, now I’m in space. Being carried by a sea of stars. And there is something hugging me, a man with dark hair  envelops me. Who is this man? He makes me feel safe. And warm. He releases me and I continue to float. Other imagery rotates through my mind, visually. Each one more deeper and intimate than the past one.

The Sound Bath comes to an end. I thank the hosts and take my leave. There are cocktails available, but I’m loving the high that I feel right now.

I walk towards the bus station to make my way home, not entirely sure of where I am or where I’m going. But I’m exactly where I need to be, I look up and see those same stars again. And deep feeling of purpose washes over me. I often question myself, my choices, my being. But in that moment I realised that everything that I have done, has aligned me more and more with where I want to be. There are no right or wrong decisions (well, technically there is but for now we will pretend that there isn't) I can only make an educated decisions on what will put me in the correct direction. Based on my lived experiences and that’s all that I need I think.

This year I have made a conscious decision to put myself out there, and try different things. That includes trying things like: pole dancing, interrailing, meeting new people, spontaneous concert trips, paragliding and other things of that nature. Part of me does feel that I am still chasing a certain euphoria that I once felt, but with every decision I make, I'm one step closer to reaching that same feeling. And I hope that when I do - I can make it last forever.

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Thank you for reading!

Love,