#morbid obsessions

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The histories of the trans and sex worker rights movements are closely intertwined and, particularly in the UK, it’s rare to find a carceral feminist who isn’t also a rabid transphobe. What does it mean to write as part of a community that is under attack? Where, in fiction, is the line between exploring harmful ideology and humanising it? In Morbid Obsessions, Alison Rumfitt and Frankie Miren explore these questions and talk about the crossover in the ways they chose to approach them in their novels Tell Me I’m Worthless (Cipher Press) and The Service (Influx Press), covering the pornographic interest in sex workers and trans women, online violence, moral panic, creative representation, and paying tribute to sex worker and trans activism through fiction. Frank, funny, and hopeful, and featuring two new stories and an introduction by writer and historian Morgan M. Page, Morbid Obsessions is an urgent and vital conversation about making art as collective struggle.

Now in come the drugs

In come the drugs and the booze

Razors wrists and self-abuse

Trapped like a rat got nothing left to lose

She wanted a dress

Like all the other girls, a head full of curls

They said son you can't always get

What you want in this world

Let go of these morbid obsessions

Every thought feels like a confession

She said, she said, she said

If I get one life, gonna do what I want

i keep thinking about it just slice into the skin just under the jaw

wrench and tear  my cheek right off

sinews tendons fuscle fibers blood  fat

slippery

juices running through my fingers down my hand and forearms

pooling and dripping off my elbows puddle up on the floor

leverage would be a challenge let alone the best place to get a grip

i feel like  my flesh is made of  pretty tough stuff

when uncooked at least

without proper leverage how could i properly wrench  my cheek off my face

my face off my face

i think reaching  my arm  over  my head

the fingers can dig in under my skin and then pull up

i think  i would prefer that direction that way  i could  even potentially pull skin away 

from my eyes from my nose

maybe even forehead