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just something deep, again. some food for thought. (roughly quoted from a conversation i had a week or so ago)

is life truly the reality? life is only constructed through what we perceive it as, isn’t it? so how do we know that what we are experiencing right now is reality? 

life could only be a fragment of what is reality. death is reality. everything is certain with death, no questions asked. death is the end. death is it.

- incredibly morbid, i know .. but an interesting thought, no?

anyways, here’s a little story from today ...

i had a group meeting today for a presentation on thursday. our group planned to meet in the building our classroom was in (which is isolated from the rest of the campus and i absolutely dislike that building) on the second floor, where there are couches. when i got there, another girl was already there and i got an email from one of my group members that he was on the first floor. after packing up my stuff again and heading to where he was, we decided to find a spot where we could meet our other group member in the building so we did a little bit of exploring. just for your information, that building is super creepy and basically deserted most of the time. there isn’t really a point to this story except that i enjoyed that little bonding time i had with my group member. we went through the basement and searched around for a spot but bumped into our other group member then decided to go into this conference room. 

don’t think too much about it though. i just like meeting and getting to know people more. 

yep. thanks for reading this somewhat long entry :)

- lonely? isolated? or would you even feel anything?

I wonder what thoughts would come to mind, what feelings and emotions would be felt? would these experiences still exist?

what if you lived the rest of your days confusing the past for the present, not knowing who you're talking to or where you are, and why you're there. just simply staring into blank space, not looking forward to anything - time is no longer a factor in your life. eventually losing everything important to you: your loved ones, your memories, your identity. entering the realm of uncertainty.

it's saddening, it's painful but it's inevitable. 

rip.

Note to self:

Don't let other people's experiences or thoughts influence your expectations. Live your own life, believe in yourself. You got this. If you don't want to create expectations for yourself, then don't. Set the boat down and let it sail. Just keep hoping for the best but be ready for the worst. It's reality.

Stay strong - for yourself. 

enjoy ~

Fly me to the moon Let me play among the stars Let me see what spring is like On Jupiter and Mars

In other words, hold my hand In other words, baby, kiss me

Fill my heart with song and let me sing forever more You are all I long for All I worship and adore

In other words, please be true In other words, I love you

Fill my heart with song Let me sing forever more You are all I long for All I worship and adore