Some gold-handed editor on tt (shalmi) made a Hollanov edit to Monetochka - Sеlfharm song and it's. it's perfect. it broke me and healed me at the same time.

I NEED YOU, global fans, to read the translation of Russian lyrics and how damn deeply it fits Ilya Rozanov character and his love for Shane - and then watch the edit for extra emotional damage 💔 (Spoilers for The Long Game book though!!)

[Ilya part] I smell like sеlfharm, I smell like a really bad plan I smell like childhood trauma and tantrums till the morning Like an awkward pause, an unventilated room I smell like distrust towards psychotherapists, and My smell is 100% cortisol I hide my feelings behind a clown mask. Lol. I smell of jealousy and hatred, but Don't be afraid, I'll punish myself later [Mixed part] I smell like being afraid to look you in the eyes Like years of searching for words but never saying them I smell like exposed wire, panic for no reason (loon lol) Like a depressed city [Shane part] And you smell like calmness, like silence in the head You are like ten hours of uninterrupted sleep You are Thursday, you are 16:00 You are chamomile tea and peacefulness

English translation from here

P.S. it's not in the edit, but the rest of the song chorus is:

I always cry, but you smell like that No Tears shampoo Like care, like home, like an ability to love seriously and for a long time, To love endlessly

Это было в России, значит было давно/ It was in Russia, so it was a long time ago.

song: monetochka - the last disco

ive been working on this for a week straight, and so happy with the result. for the new people that might see this, im writing a hermitcraft fanfic that has this oc as a main character. you can read a small bit of the first chapter here. i have some plans for the story, and wont be posting it until ill be fully finished with the plot. but if any of this seems cool to you, you can interact with either of the posts so i can gauge the interest of the fandom.

But you disappeared, neither in the void nor in the dark to be found

You've merged with the air, you've turned into smoke

There are letters left in the documents, on the accounts

And those letters were your name

Монеточка-Твоё имя/Monetochka-Your Name