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Would You Stand for Something or Would Stand for Nothing?

“Sooner or later, everyone sits down to a banquet of consequences.”

~Robert Louis Stevenson

To Whom It May Concern, 

In today's society we as women have a voice! We don't need to cower or stand in the background! We've come a long way thanks to the women of history & the women of today. They laid the path out for all of us, for that I am truly thankful! I want my daughter to look up to me and know I used my voice! That I stood for something instead of nothing, even if I stand alone! My hope and belief is that one day my baby girl will be proud of me.  That she too will have the confidence and courage to use her voice & not be afraid to stand up for herself regardless of circumstances or who stands beside her!

There are days I feel like I'm a pretender, just going through the motions. There are moments of clarity an undeniable desire to see past this pain.  The gut wrenching motivation to see the light at the end of the tunnel with insurmountable pure strength to stay focused and positive. Then something happens that destroys all the hard work I put in. It’s almost like someone giving me a left and a right hook then uppercut trying to knock me out but I keep on fighting back like the warrior I am!

I feel like this journey the last 4 years was just an illusion, that I don’t even exist; how could this happen. Is it just dream?  I want to wake up so badly! Almost 9 years I’ve invested in your company.  15+ years of experience you had the privilege of making money off me!!  Not only me, but other employees who have invested their career in your company to have you only take advantage and disrespect them. How tasteless & classless you can be! 9 years of Dedication, Loyalty, Passion & Hard Work. No excuses ever made. I made shit happen. I didn't just talk the talk, I walked it too!!! Even more so after my maternity leave. 

My ambition & determination pushed me to the core. l never used my daughter's premature birth or my mental health status as an excuse for anything, let alone I never put the single mom card on the table either. I used it to fuel my drive to success.  I wasn't only a dreamer. I was a doer. Unfortunately, qualities you don't get much of these days. I was determined to rebuild myself back up after my mat leave.  So desperate to conquer this illness that unwillingly consumed me. I wanted move past our NICU days and that inner torment of failure that this disorder took away from me. PPD (Postpartum Depression), PTSD Post (Traumatic Stress Disorder) is very real!!  Mental Health is no joke!!!  You saw our journey documented on social media but still you had no compassion nor empathy.

I don't want to feel sorry for myself. Nor be the victim, I want to channel this & rise above this to empower myself & others around me! I want to be an advocate for others when they are afraid to speak, to guide them, inspire them, motivate and encourage them to stand up for themselves, most importantly to know what our rights are. It’s not just our Human Rights, it’s Our Fundamental Human Right.  Stand for something don’t stand for Nothing!