#mod devyn

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The reason I didn’t specify what the roadbumps are is because they’re not exactly “me specific”.

This is a heads up for those triggered by sexual content to skip this blurb. The roadblock was that searching “trauma recovery writing prompts” on tumblr fed me into a community that fetishizes trauma. I don’t have the spoons to get into it other than that it was extremely upsetting.

If anyone has recs, they’re welcome to ask/submit/dm me on this blog, my primary.

Details that may help narrow prompts: I have long term trauma from caregivers and intimate partners. It’s a variety of types as well. I am indeed plural, but I feel as though we’re decently functional in that aspect.

Thank you for your help.

Thank you, and no worries! Publishing so others might assist.

@recoverywithanasterisk has a Sexual Assault Awareness Month prompt masterlist from 2021 that can be found here, but other than that I don't have any trauma-specific recommendations.

i'm a trauma holding alter, but i have my own memories as well. my memories are more... icky... than the body's memories. i'm afraid of talking about my memories with anyone, but... i want to get help. the memories are traumatic to me, even if the body didn't experience them. it's scary asking for help because i don't want to be invalidated, and no one that can really help me knows that i, and all our other alters, exist. we have our first counselling appointment this tuesday, and our host and a few other alters are planning on making it known that we're a system to them. maybe not on our first meeting, but eventually. it's so scary to me.

i think i mainly need some advice about this? but anything else the mods think would be helpful would be nice, too...

Hey anon. I'm sory this went unanswered for so long. You said you had a therapy appointment scheduled for two days after you sent this. How did it go? Please feel free to send an update!

I put off answering this ask because I couldn't really think of any DID-specific  advice and I was having an anxiety attack about flying to Colorado. (It went fine, by the way, I'm waiting at the airport for my plane back right now!)

What we did at our first appointment with our current therapist was write up a list of questions to which the answers were non-negotiable. If she had answered any of them in a way we didn't approve of, we wouldn't have seen her again. Some of them were about specific stigmatized disorders that we have, including our DID. I very much recommend doing something similar if you haven't already or if you decide to try a different therapist. I will post the list under a read more in case it might be helpful for any of our followers.

Please note that I did not put any questions about insurance on our list, but if you have those questions, you should make sure to ask them. The reason it wasn't on our list is because we already had the answer.

I also want to recommend to any DID systems that if there are certain areas of DID syscourse (for lack of better word) like integration or the language you use to refer to yourself that is important to you, to bring it up to your therapist at one of your first appointments. If your therapist won't respect whatever you say, that is a huge red flag.

I hope this list of question helps some of our followers!

Mod Devyn

That's not weird at all! It's very common. It has to do with how traumatic memories are stored in the brain.

Alright. We either usually delete passive-aggressive anons or answer them with text posts, but I'm going to answer this one because it's been a consistent issue.

I understand that people are frustrated with our wait times right now. But I'm going to remind you all that we are all human. Usually if nobody has thoughts on how to answer something within a week, we publish it in case our followers have input. However, September has been a really hard month for all the mods, with lots of unexpected real-life situations coming up for everyone at the same time. Getting passive-aggressive, entitled anons doesn't make us feel any more motivated to answer something we haven't answered yet.

When an ask comes in, if someone wants to answer it but can't answer it at that exact moment, they claim it by putting their name in the answer field and saving it to drafts. Right now, our oldest draft is from the day we restarted this blog at the end of August - which was actually a fairly old ask on the old blog that we had a screenshot of. Someone is planning to answer it, but like I said, everyone has been extremely busy lately.

Yes, I made one post that I reblogged one time about missing asks, because I do. At the time I made that post, if I remember correctly, all of the asks that were not claimed had been answered, and we do not take other people's claimed asks without explicit permission from the person who originally claimed it, so there were none I could answer.

Like I said, we've all been burnt out and busy lately. Sometimes, too, an ask is triggering, and forcing ourselves to answer asks when we're in any combination of those states of mind is detrimental and we aren't going to do it. If you're upset or worried because your ask hasn't been answered yet, feel free to send something in asking about it, but you need to communicate in that ask without being passive aggressive and you need to specify which ask is yours. Just saying, "I guess my ask isn't getting answered," is the least helpful way you can communicate with us.

That said, which ask is yours? We will let you know where it is in the process of being replied to.

Thanks,

I found this blog and was just scrolling through, never intending to send anything in. But i saw an ask that just triggered me to send something.

I was molested by a priest as a child (like 4?). It was very brief but i remember it and he was very involved in our lives because my mom was super religious and involved in the church. I grew up always fantasizing about being molested by older men (which is super disturbing to me now). But..i feel like i was never emotionally bothered by it and therefore dont consider myself a victim etc. like obviously it impacted me subconsciously but idk. I feel like an imposter if i were to associate myself with victims of csa or whatever. Like what happened to me wasnt “that bad”. Not looking for a solution here. Just some validation maybe? Thanks :)

Hey anon.

You don't have to call yourself a victim if you don't want to. That's totally valid. I personally prefer to call myself a survivor instead of a victim, but it's all up to the individual.

Something that helps me when I feel like my trauma wasn't that bad is to remind myself that playing the trauma Olympics doesn't help anybody. Oftentimes, what causes an experience to be traumatic is a lack of support following disclosure. I know that was the case for me.

I hope that helps!