#mocks anon

Cool Name Anon

I'm new to Tumblr as a whole so hi. I'm 14, male and have attended this amazing high school for about 8 or 9 months. My girl best friend recommended Tumblr as a community. She gave me a list of blogs to look at and this was on here. Hello.

The anon advice stuff you do is amazing. I wonder if my girl best friend wrote any. (I'm too lazy too look, there's a lot). So I guess I do need help with one thing.

I kinda promised my girl best friend that my mum would tutor her but I live in a house with my 3 siblings, parents and grandparents. That's a lot of people. She also gets overwhelmed a lot and hates having people watch her fail. I've already run it through with her and she said she'll try but I'm praying it goes okay. I'd love to invite her over again if the tutoring works. I did promise we'd watch my favourite show together too so there's that.

I know she's had issues in the past and more recently having nightmares about future events that could happen one in a million and I want her to feel safe somewhere.

Can I have a cool sounding anon name?

Hi! I hope you like your name lol. Honestly, I think you're doing exactly what you should be doing for your friend. Be reassuring, be there for her, and remind her that he's safe and you care. That's all you can do, but sometimes it means a lot more than you would think, you know? You're being an amazing friend and I'm sure she appreciates it.

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Mocks Anon

hey it's mocks anon

I don't actually have much to say, I just wanted to tell you I've decided to talk the counsellors at school

Also I've tried researching a little about methods to help me study and i haven't found much (unsurprisingly) but hopefully I will soon

I'll update you soon (if you don't mind?)

Hi! I'm so glad you decided to talk to them! Yes, please keep me updated if you think of it! <3 I hope they're helpful!!

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Therapist anon

Hi cas! Therapist anon here (again I'm sorry)

Basically my school is shit, yeah? I live in the UK so that means gcse which kinda are the same as sats just a bit idk more? Or less? Whatever

I was really hoping to do biology as an a level in sixth form (essentially the same as college just most schools have high school AND sixth form which makes life so much easier) and I got a low b which was good hello! Higher than average! But not good enough.

They wanted a low a and I said in lessons I was at an a, a* but fumbled in the exam because MATH IS A COMPLETE BITCH OKAY

Teacher wouldn't hear of it (also didn't help she had been away on mat leave for the past two years so she didn't even know me!) We tried to get a trail but, again, she wouldn't hear of it.

Got my old teacher to email who was beyond suprised at my grade cos I was doing really well but last year's gsces were beyond mathsy and disgusting and when he emailed, the email he got back essentially said I'm not good enough for the school image and my grades were good

Let me reiterate, my grades were FANTASTIC HIGHER THAN THE NATIONAL AVERAGE I JUST GO TO ONE OF THE HIGHEST ACHEIVING SCHOOLS IN THE FREAKING CITY so it made me look atupid

I'm not stupid math is disgusting and deserves to die :)

But yeah the teacher said the highest i would get was a d and there's no point in taking me BUT PEOPLE OF THE SAME GRADE WITH SLIGHTLY HIGHER MARKS WERE ABLE TO DO IT SO WHY NOT ME

They took people from other schools and this school fucking knew mw ans my abilities but this stupid teacher wouldn't budge cos "omg the image of the school, we're all gonna die if we take on a student with a low b😱😱😱😱😱" also I genuinely think I could have done well I freaking loved biology and what they're doing now is stuff I know from gsces!!!!

Now! I'm beyond stuck cos i was really hoping to take biology and psychology (which I am taking and loving) but the only stupid careers I can get into is into freaking mental health and I genuinely cannot bring myself to do that (I went to therapy and couldn't imagine being a therapist/psycholigist)

So what I'm basically venting about is:

School wouldn't take me cos of THEIR IMAGE

I cannot go into my dream career

I hate this stupid ass school WHY WOULDNT YOU JUST TAKE ME IF I WAS DOING BADLY YOU COULD HAVE DROPPED ME AFTER THE TRIAL

I'm more mad that they wouldn't even consider a trial like? It actually does nothing to them whether I take the trail and pass or fail, it's literally all on me

Oh! I was also forced to take sociology instead (either that or physical Ed. Or IT) which is actually so beyond boring because the answer to absolutely everything is sexism or racism. Differential ethnic achievement? Teacher racism. Differential gender achievement? Tescher sexism

So basically with my a levels that I'm doing now I actually csnt really go into my dream career, my only choice is law and you cannot force me to become a lawyer I WANT TO GO INTO FREAKING MEDECINE OR PSYCHOLOGY BUT NOT THE MENTAL HEALTH SIDE AGAGAGAGAGGAGA

have an absolutely wonderful day :)

(ps also if anyone knows any careers that go into psychology that don't need a doctorate degree and don't go into the mental health aspect that would be much appreciated xoxoxo)

(Ps.s also the uni I want to go to doesn't care that much about gsces bur you need a 3.0-4.0 or higher to get in cos it's in the top 100 in the world but I'm actually praying they'll still take me. Worst case scenario I do a year or two of biology and then they'll take me but I don't really wanna be going into uni two years late all cos my stupid schools image is more important than me :/ )

Hi <3

I'm SO sorry this happened and it's so frustrating. I feel like education has become so political and like...customer service-y, and it's no longer about the individual student, and that's not fair. I'm glad to know you have other avenues to your dream career if you need it, but its annoying to know that will take more time.

Honestly, I'm not sure what else you could do with psych, mostly because I don't live in your country. Maybe something in research? Does your school have guidance counselors that might be able to help you think of some options?

Either way, that's so infuriating and I completely get why you're mad. I wish there was something I could do.

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Alabama Anon

hello again, Alabama anon here. I suppose I didn’t really say hello last time, but whatever. There’s nothing quite like being stuck in a house with people who make queer phobic comments so easily. By this I mean my parents. Sometimes I wonder what they’d think if they knew their daughter liked women too. Luckily, I’ve only got three more years. 

I appreciate the advice from my last ask. I will definitely try that idea out with my friends. Most likely not with my parents though. I do not feel like something happening to me because of who I like, I don’t think they’d, like, lay hands on me, but still. I may run it by my brother too. I’ve thought about anonymously coming out to my science teacher. She’s got this, like, box thing you can put things you want to tell her in (not sure about this one yet tbh).

one of the guys in my grade is so outwardly homophobic and supportive of trump. I actually want to punch him so bad. If this country keeps going like this I’m actually going to move to England. Especially since the thing about the people in Idaho wanting to get rid of same sex marriage. I’m not sure when this happened, but I just heard about it.

if I can’t marry my future partner because they may potentially be a girl, I’m actually going to crash out. I honestly can’t wait till I turn eighteen. I’m going to try to hint to my friends that I like girls too if the running it by them thing goes well. 

side note, I just found out about this woman, she was in the Olympics for some sort of climbing. She is so beautiful I actually can’t. I just can’t.

again, sorry for the rant and I apologize for the length. Thank you for reading this. I really do appreciate you taking your time to do so

Hi <3

I definitely feel like you're being smart by being more cautious. As awful as it is, prioritizing your safety is important right now.

I do want to say, as far as your teacher, I would look up the laws in your state as far as what teachers are and are not allowed to say and do. Many southern states are passing laws that make it so teachers can get fired if they talk about queer issues. So your teacher may react a certain way just to keep you and herself safe, you know?

I'm really sorry that I don't have better advice or that I can't do more, but you're always welcome to vent in my inbox <3

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Uni Anon

Hi <3

Okay so a couple things. First of all, I completely understand how you're feeling. It's a horrible feeling and you DO NOT deserve to feel like that. You deserve help.

Please, please, sign up for the waiting list for therapy. You have a right to be on there just as much as anyone else, and yes it's a long list, but you certainly aren't going to move up the list if you don't sign up.

Also, I need you to pick one club to join. Even if you don't make friends, doing an activity that makes you happy is something that can make a HUGE difference in your mood.

@stardippeddreams

Hi! Nice to 'meet' you!

I'm so glad things are better better for you overall! It sounds like you're taking a lot better care of yourself.

Honestly, it sounds like maybe when you're ready, it might be good to find a (good) therapist someday to help with the dissociation. But focusing on taking care of yourself right now is completely valid, and I'm so proud of you for doing so!

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@teasiswriter

He didn’t try and talk to me after the show! But I have a feeling that something’s going to happen with that friend group… I feel like I have a sense? Like… after I cut them off a few months later, I got a sense that they’d text me or try and talk to me again… and they did

And I got that sense again a couple months after… and they texted me again

and I got that sense again a couple months later (which is now)… and now I’m just… waiting I guess?

Anywayssssss! I’m pretty sure my name is my deadname. I always cringe and feel sick when I hear it (from friends, parents, teachers, etc.) and so I think I’m gonna try and tell everyone about the other name I have (it’s my other first name. I’m not sure if I really like it but it’s better than using my deadname) and… yeah! Wish me luck!

Also I have you have such a lovely day! Goodbyeeeeee

Hi!

I really hope your feeling is wrong, but if it is, I'm here to talk! And as far as names, I wish you all the luck! I'm so glad you feel comfortable asking people to use your other first name, and I hope it goes well! <3

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Mocks Anon

hiiiiiiiiii

I'm tired

and I kinda wanna cry but I'm not sure why

and I have like mocks in less than a month and I'm scared I'm gonna fuck them up, especially maths and physics

and I have so many things I need to do, and others that I want to do, and I don't have the energy or the effort to do anything but my parents wouldn't get it so I have to do stuff like chores and studying but they don't get done well because I genuinely can't

so then I feel even worse and I can't even do things I enjoy to relax since I don't have the energy for that either

and I generally feel like shit and there's so much going on and it won't stop for one goddamn second and I don't know how to deal with it

I want to get tested for mental illness too, but if my parents found out they'd kill me (I'm not kidding, that's a genuine concern.)

so I just have to wait another 3 years before finding out just how fucked up I am and everything's just gonna be getting worse in that time so i don't fucking know

Hi <3

I am so sorry, it sounds like like is super overwhelming right now, and I can understand why. And it also sounds like you're really struggling. I'm so sorry that your parents aren't supportive, that's not fair at all. Do you think you could possibly talk to a guidance counselor at school? That way your parents won't hear about any sort of diagnosis, but maybe they can still work on some strategies with you?

I'm sending you so much love <3

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@thestarsshineevenwhenhidden

You know the worst part?

I'm not even a victim of mental illness.

I haven't gone through enough, had enough trauma to count as one.

just goes to show how weak and dumb I gotta be to get fucked by normal life when so many other people have abusive parents, school stress, other shit and they don't get depressed.

Hi <3

Please don't compare yourself to others. Your feelings are so real and your depression is so real. You don't need to feel guilty about it. Everyone deals with life differently and there aren't 'requirements' or something to show you've gone through enough to deserve depression. Please be nicer to yourself <3

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6 anon

Hey Cas!! It's 6 anon, so here's an update. When I pass out, I might actually be seizing, so I have a referral to a neurologist, cardiologist, and a GI. I'm going back to school tomorrow, so that means I have to explain all of this to teachers, but I get to see my girlfriend!!! I also changed my name again, and I told my friends, and they started correcting my youth leader when he deadnames me, and that made me really happy. I also got put on 2 more meds, so now im on 8 meds. My dad keeps trying to tell me i have to make up the time with him, but he told me I am old enough to choose if I want to go back and I have an hour long recording of him telling me I'm not allowed to talk to him once I turn 18. MIFA REGIONALS ARE THIS SATURDAY!! And I got the ring master which is also the lead role!!! I have to arrive at the school at 4:30am which sucks but it's ok because I have my friends and my spouses (platonic) so im excited, and when we had our first performance for corrections I got 2 awards and my freshie made me cry because she crocheted me a rose with a note in it. Anyways, love and hugs from 6 anon (only if you're comfortable with it)!

Hi! Im glad that you're going to some more doctors- hopefully they can help figure out how to help you! And I'm so glad to hear about how amazing your friends and girlfriend are.

Honestly, your dad confuses me. I just....yeah.

Ahhh I hope regionals went well! Let me know!!!