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β have always been π°π²π°ππ¦π°π π¦π¬π²π° of people who claim... they remember the exact moment a relationship began. It is almost never true. People remember the moment retrospect makes important. The first kiss becomes destiny. ππ·π΄ π΅πΈπππ π΅πΈπΆπ·π π±π΄π²πΎπΌπ΄π πΏππΎπΏπ·π΄π²π. The first time someone says β πα΅vβ ΙΓΈα΅Ύ becomes the point where the trap snaps shut. But real beginnings are smaller than that. A glance. A sentence. A shared joke. π π΄πΆπΏπΉ, and a plate of fries.
πhere is a ππππππππ kind of tame to our house, itβs what people imagine when they spend ββ-years climbing toward it. The quiet sold in real-estate brochures; THE QUIET BOUGHT BY MY TRUST FUND. Our backyard stretches beyond the kitchen windows in curated agricultural perfection, that can bring πartha πtewart to tears. Hydrangeas. Rose bushes. A little stone pathway Nick promised he'd finish himself and never did. Just like Nick to.... Somewhere beyond the manicured hedges, fireflies drift lazily over the lawn, ΖΕΙ¨nκΙ¨nΗ₯ in the darkness like tiny surveillance cameras. Inside, the grandfather clock ticks. nick is asleep upstairs. One arm thrown over my side of the bed, probably. He always sleeps like he expects me to return. The thought makes me smile, or perhaps it makes me sad. The distinction grows blurrier every year. This year, it's cotton. I sit curled in an armchair with a πermΓ¨s throw draped across my knees, and a glass of Puligny-Montrachet balanced on the armrest. ACROSS THE ROOM IS NIKKI FREEMAN. Cocooned on my couch like an alley cat. The one that curls around your leg, & purrs beneath your touch. Blankets are swallowed around her shoulders. π΄ππ·π°ππππΈπΎπ½ ππΎπ π΄π½ ππ·ππΎππΆπ· π΄π π΄ππ π»πΈπ½π΄ πΎπ΅ π·π΄π π±πΎπ³π.
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πhen I opened the door to her πππππππππ outlined in the darkness, glossing over the grime under her fingernails, and the questionable stain decorating the front of her πherry-red top, There is something strange about Nikki Freeman. βββπΈ saw a girl with sharp eyes in a bar in Manhattan in the summer. I saw a group of teenagers α΅½ΙΙΕ§ΙnΔΙ¨nΗ₯ adulthood fit them better than it did. I saw sweat tearing through lined eyes & glossed lips. How fleeting to be young in New York. I remember buying her a plate of fries because she hadn't eaten enough. I remember her sitting across from me in a cracked vinyl booth. Elbows on the table. WATCHING ME. Studying me like she expected an answer to a question she hadn't asked.
πΈ find my eyes return to her now, the blanket cocoon. Her, nestled in my home like a curator; π²πΎπ»π»π΄π²ππΈπ½πΆ πΏπ΄πΎπΏπ»π΄ π»πΈπΊπ΄ πΏπ΄πΎπΏπ»π΄ π²πΎπ»π»π΄π²π ππΎππ π΄π½πΈππ. And then she speaks, melodious. I laugh softly into my wine. Can you stay? I'd miss you if you don't, I think. πor a moment.. [something strange] passes through me. A feeling I can't quite name. How odd. Amazing Amy would make sense of this, always one step ahead of me. And as she pats the empty space beside her, I set my wine down. Rise from my chair, & lower myself onto the couch. Close enough that shoulders almost touch. I tip my head back against the ivory cushions, and feel my hair spill across the upholstery like a sheet of π€π¬π©π‘ π°π¦π©Ζ. a smile curls at the corner of my mouth. What game are we playing Nikki? β Hmm... πα΅α΅€ seem awfully disappointed by the possibility that β'πͺ just a π²oman sitting on a couch. β I turn to look at her, & regard the faint smell of something floral. πlowers left too long in a vase, sweetness on the verge of decay. Interesting. β π²hat have you been up to since New York? β
