What I wouldn't give to be a 10ft tall monster, whose lover is half my size.
Being held down and fucked until I can't see; being nothing but a slut for them.
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What I wouldn't give to be a 10ft tall monster, whose lover is half my size.
Being held down and fucked until I can't see; being nothing but a slut for them.

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I'm always down to write mlm monster love and I hope to write more in the future. At this moment in time, I have written:
Kalannar Yandere Drider
Albericus Cruel Fae Prince
Ardul Drow Sorcerer
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Pegasus Boyfriend: Marlivaur Part One
Remember Blumiere and Clotaire? This is their guard! Heâs back and heâs finding a romance of his own on Clotaireâs farm.
Male reader x Male monster
For the next few weeks, I am traveling with Queen Giovannia and King Romulus to witness the birth of their new grandchild. Clotaire has continued to stay in his home with his wife, where they will be giving birth to their first child. In order to keep things simple, I have gone alone to guard them, so that there are not too many knights around.
It has been a long time since Iâve been in this realm, not since Prince Clotaire was kidnapped and I lead the search for him. It is a strange feeling; being in a place you once associated with chaos and fear but is now calm and beauty.
Clotaire and his wife own a farm together where they rescue and rehabilitate centaurs who have been mistreated, people much like Clotaire. It is a sprawling estate and I am impressed by how beautiful everything is. In the morning when the air is crisp and the light radiates purple and pink, I love to go out through the fields for a run. I get coated in the dew so that by the time I come back for breakfast, I am chilled to the bone and I feel so very alive.
Back when I was searching for Clotaire, I didnât get to enjoy this realm much. I was far too panicked and healing from an injury that I refused to acknowledge. Now, with a sense of peace around us, I find myself thinking a life here wouldnât be so bad. I still am a young man, I wouldnât retire from the guard for years, and yet I keep thinking how nice it would be to leave that life behind. I could settle here, help Clotaire like I wasnât able to back then. Perhaps I owed him for not saving him before. A one-armed pegasus like me belongs in a place like this.
There is also something else thatâs here that has caught my eye, someone really. Heâs  a centaur who works on the ranch, he teaches classes as well as running therapy sessions. Brieanna, Clotaireâs wife, had hired him to run things while she was on bed rest, but he had worked here long before that. I noticed him when we first arrived, he is all black and white with hints of pink that looked sweet. He was so handsome and he moved so gracefully, yet I found myself afraid to talk to him.
His name is Shae, and the longer I stayed on the ranch, The more I see him the more I like him. He is popular, of course, always helping and willing to offer his hand to anybody. His bright smile is what continues to draw me in, along with his eyes which are a heavenly green. He often wears a blanket or wrap around his back; either to protect from the straps of bags he wears, or because he said he was cold.
Weâve talked a few times, although, I admit Iâve been standoffish. I have had many romances before, but Shae feels different to me. He seems almost too powerful with his charm and brilliance. He seems to understand this too, as when we talk, heâs all smiles, stands close, and likes to touch. Iâm afraid that Iâm out of my element.
Coming back from my morning run, I see Shae standing on the porch with two mugs in his hands. I approach cautiously and he meets me in the grass, extending one of the mugs to me.
âI saw you prefer tea,â he says. The pink of his lips and nose is so cute, while the pink of his fingertips seem almost sensual.
âThank you.â I take the mug and our fingers touch.
âIâve noticed you always run in the morning. I donât have the energy for that,â Shae admits. âI am far from a morning person.â
âCould have fooled me,â I reply. âYou seem chipper enough for it right now.â
Shae smirks and nods. âYeah well, I couldnât sleep last night,â he sighs. âRough nights, you know?â
I look up from my mug. âHow so?â
Shae lets out a breath and his shoulders sag. âItâs a long story, Marlivaur,â he says. âAnd not one I tend to share too readily.â
âOh,â I whisper. âI understand.â
Shae touches the stub of my arm and I flinch. âYou lost it trying to save Clotaire, correct?â
âYes.â I step aside so his fingers canât linger. âIt was a long time ago.â I set my mug aside on the railing.
Shae then touches my hand, slipping his fingers under my palm. âToo bad, you have really spectacular hands.â He then chuckles as his palm touches mine. âOr well, hand, sorry.â
I frown a bit, not used to so much touching for someone. Let alone someone I want to touch so much. âYou think so?â
Shae places his cup aside and he uses both hands to touch my arm and wrist. His fingers knead and massage me. My fingers twitch slightly as he works out a pain I didnât realize was there.
âGood arms too.â Shaeâs palms slide up to my bicep and shoulder. âI suppose that comes from being such a devoted knight, isnât it?â He gives me a smile that seems dangerous and sweet all at the same time. âSo strong and built.â
âAre you always this handsy?â I try to smile to dissuade my anxiousness.
Shae smirks at me. âOnly when I want to touch something.â He steps a bit closer to me. âIf you want me to stop, just say so.â
I turn my head aside and Shae chuckles. âSurely the head of the guard isnât so shy?â
I sigh and look at him and his damn smile. âIf I didnât know any better, I would say youâre trying to tease me.â
âPerhaps.â He takes his hands off my arm. âIâve been trying to talk to you for a long time, yet you seem so standoffish. The way Clotaire spoke about you, I was sure youâd be quite the charmer.â
My cheeks and the tips of my ears burn. âYouâre the one here who is charming. You have more talent for it than I do.â
Shaeâs smile went cute again. âYou think so? Good. Because I am trying my hardest to charm the hooves off of you.â
My tail flicks and I go stiff all over.
âNot every day that someone tall, dark and handsome wanders into your life.â Shaeâs smile is brilliant but his eyes have danger in them. His hand pets down my side where my arm is missing. âLet alone one as alluring as you.â
I gasp softly and look aside, only to look back into those green eyes. Something feels strange about Shae, despite his sweet appearance, there seems to be a darkness around him. I put my hand on his waist and his pink tongue licks at his lips.
âIs my charm working?â Shae asks.
I smirk and laugh as I look at him. âItâs working.â I brush the hair from his face to see his eyes clearer. I then notice there is a scar on his temple by his hairline. âIâve been nervous to talk to you. Iâve wanted to, trust me, I just feel nervous around you.â
âNo reason to. I donât bite unless you ask me to.â Shae chuckles. I clear my throat. âYes, well-â I drop my hand. âI donât think that will come up so soon,â I grumble.
Shae looks quite pleased with the reaction heâs elicited from me. âThereâs a reason Iâm here this morning,â he says. âI have the day off, and Iâd love to spend it with you.â
I frown for a moment and Shaeâs smile melts away. âI canât leave my guard post,â I tell him. âI need to stay here, near the queen and king.â
âI didnât say we had to leave, did I?â Shae takes hold of my hand. âI just want to spend some time with you is all. Get to know you, maybe steal a kiss or two when the time is right.â
I chuckle and shake my head. âYou look so cute and innocent, but Iâm starting to think you are nothing of the sort.â
âDonât let this baby face fool you,â he laughs. âBehind it lies something quite unexpected.â
âWell then.â I crook my brow up and my ears flick. âIs this something Iâm going to want to find out?â
Shaeâs expression changes ever so slightly. His eyes look distant and his lips pout just a bit. âNot many people do.â His sharp smile returns. âBut youâre stronger than most, arenât you?â
Shae follows me around for the day. I stay close to the royal family, which is mostly near the main house. Brieanna is on bedrest, so Giovannia has stayed with her to keep her company. Romulus and Clotaire have both been working on the ranch while also preparing a small play area for the new baby.
At one point in the day, as the family takes a rest, Shae and I go under the shade of a willow tree by the pond. The long tendrils of the willow cover us like a curtain, and gentle light filters in around us. Shae sits down in the cool grass and picks at clover blossoms, collecting them and fashioning them together into a chain.
âYou take your job very seriously,â Shae suddenly says.
âI have to be,â I sit down in the grass beside him. âMy job is a very serious matter.â
Shae looks up at me. âI think itâs attractive.â
I scoff and shake my head. âHow so? It is simply my duty, and I perform it to the best of my ability.â
âExactly,â Shae continues to weave clovers and their blossoms together. âI used to love hearing fairy tales about knights who protected and adored the royals in their care.â He stops his fingers for a moment and his gaze goes distant. âFighting off dangers, vowing their lives, stalwart and daring to the very end.â His eyes cast up towards the pond. âThat loyalty and love,â his voice is quiet and strange. âIâve admired that in people.â He then connects the two ends of his creation into a loop and sets it upon my head.
âWhat is this?â I touch the flower crown on my head.
âI knew it would suit you.â Shaeâs innocent smirk returns.
I lick my lips and lower my hand. âDoes it?â
âI love seeing a touch of feminine on a very masculine man.â Shaeâs palm pets up my chest. âMakes him look all the stronger to me.â
I capture his hand on my chest. âCareful, Shae,â I whisper warningly.
Shae inches close to me and sits right beside me. He lays his head on my shoulder and closes his eyes. âI feel so safe with you.â He wraps his arms around mine. âI like this feeling.â
I glance down at him, wondering just what is hidden behind that smile. âWhat do you need protecting from?â
Shae turns his head and his hair hides his expression, although it seems bitter. He remains silent and his fingers lace with mine. âJust stay like this for a little while longer,â he pleads. âPlease.â
âThatâs fine,â I whisper back.
That evening, as I make my way back towards my cabin, Shae follows along beside me. Weâve just had dinner and I am feeling sluggish and sleepy from all the good food. I am ready to lay down and let myself drift into a deep slumber.
âThank you for letting me tag along all day,â Shae says as we come to the front door.
âI hate that you wasted your day off doing that.â A clover falls from my head. I had forgotten I was still wearing his flower crown.
Shae reaches up, taking the clover from my hair. âI enjoyed it, so donât worry about that. Spending time with you is all Iâve wanted.â
I look aside as my cheeks burn. âYes, well. All you need to do in the future is just ask. I wonât be so nervous from now on.â
Shae brushes his fingers along my cheek. âIâm glad to hear that.â He tucks the clover back into place.
âYou must be tired,â I then say. âAfter having not slept last night.â
âMm,â he sighs dismissively.
I take hold of his hand. âShae,â his eyes meet mine, âare you tired?â
Shae squeezes my hand extra tight. âI donât want to go to sleep,â he murmurs. âNot when-â he shuts his mouth tight. He then lets go of my hand and takes a step back. âNever mind me,â he chuckles. âI just-â
I place my hand on his cheek. âWhatâs wrong?â
His hands slip around my wrist. âI feel safe with you and when Iâm alone, I-â he hesitates and takes a few deep breaths. âI just donât!â
I rub my thumb against his cheek, squishing it a bit. I chuckle and press a kiss to his forehead. âI donât mean to sound forward, but if you want, you can stay with me tonight. Nothing salacious, just a good night of sleep.â
Shaeâs smile returns and my heart flutters. âI tend to be a bed hog.â
âSo do I.â I open the door and lead him inside.
That night, Shae and I sleep side by side. Shae lays down flat on his side, his body long and exposed. I sleep sitting up, always have. In the night, I wake when I feel something moving. Looking down, I see Shae kicking and trembling in his sleep. His expression is panicked and his hind legs kick as if running.
âNo, please,â he moans in his sleep.
I wake up a bit more and watch him.
âLet me go, please-â his hands tremble as he stretches out. âI donât want to. No. No. No.â He thrashes and sits up screaming. âNo!â
I stand still and watch him as he breathes heavy. He turns and looks at me, panic and tears in his eyes. âOh no,â he touches his face. âIâm so sorry. Did I...Did I wake you?â
I put my arm around him and hug him close to me. He lays his cheek on my chest and sighs with relief. âYou didnât wake me.â I rub my arm up and down his back. âItâs ok. It was just a nightmare.â
âJust-â he whimpers. He wraps his arms around me and hides his face. We soon fall asleep like that. He relaxes in my arms and doesnât wake again until morning. I stay put, even as I wake early and wait for him to rise so I donât disturb him.
âWhat time is it?â He rubs his eyes.
âStill early,â I tell him. âAre you ok?â
Shaeâs smile is sleepy and adorable. âYes. Iâm fine.â He yawns and stretches. âWhy do you ask?â
I eye him curiously, but I do not want to press the matter if he doesnât want to talk about it. I give him a smile back and watch as his expression goes soft.
âGood morning.â I kiss his cheek and Shae leans in to it. âYouâre very cute in the morning.â I rub my hand against the nape of his neck.
âMm, careful,â he moans. âThatâs my turn on combo.â
I look at him and he grins at me.
âCompliments and neck touches.â He rubs his hands up my stomach and to my chest. âYou keep doing that and Iâll have you for breakfast.â
I kiss his cheek again. âSo youâre horny in the morning?â
Shae laughs. âA little. Depends on who I wake up next to.â he turns his head, placing a soft, warm kiss to my lips. He slips his hands around my face, holding me so I canât escape his powerful influence.
I rub my fingers along his neck and his kiss grows deeper before he pulls away. Shae giggles as he looks at me. âThank you,â he coos.
âFor what?â I trail my fingertips down his spine.
Shae kisses me again, remaining silent. After that, we both get up and make our way to the dining hall for breakfast. I forget for a moment Shaeâs nightmares that woke him. Instead, I am lingering on his kiss and his touch. My mind is vapid with only thoughts of him.
As I am about to eat, Romulus comes into the barn. I stand up as he races towards me. âItâs time!â He says.
My eyes go wide. âThe baby? Theyâre coming now?â
Romulus tugs at my hand. âCome now.â
Shae watches me and gasps. âIâm coming too.â He races ahead of us, going into the house where I can hear Brieanna screaming. I guard the door and watch as Giovannia and Shae tend to the birth. Shae barks out orders and commands the room just as well as Giovannia does. He helps Brieanna and soon, or well, hours later, the new princess is in the world.
Clotaire takes her to the window, showing her off to the sky that starts to color her new coat a soft coral pink and blue. Her hair is pure white and her hooves are golden. Brieanna then holds her, crying as she squeezes the new baby tight.
Shae helps clean up and receives a gracious hug from Giovannia. âYou did wonders! How did you do that?â
âIâve seen many births,â he says cryptically. âIâve been able to help with dozens.â He looks at Giovannia like sheâs a goddess. âYou werenât so bad yourself, your majesty.â
âI helped all my sisters. But this was my first human birth, I was quite worried.â Giovannia squeezes his hand tight. âThank you again. You are a blessing to us.â
Shaeâs cheeks redden and the pink of his lips and nose seems darker. âI am just glad I could help. I promised Brieanna I would.â
Shae and I leave so the family can be alone and get some rest. We go back under the willow tree and Shae lays against me. He wraps his arm around mine and kisses my shoulder before he rests his cheek there.
âYou have many hidden talents, donât you?â I ask.
Shae sighs. âI do.â
I kiss the top of his head. âYou seem so bright and open, yet youâre closed and a mystery to me.â
âI know,â Shae sits up and looks at me. âTouch my neck,â he murmurs the command. âAnd call me cute again.â
I run my fingers up his spine to the back of his neck. His eyes close as he waits for the words to come from my mouth.
I place my lips against his ear. âThe way you worked in there, it impressed me. The same way you feel about knights, I feel about doctors and healers.â
Shae gasps softly and places his hands on my side.
I drag my lips along his cheek. âI would love for you to take care of me if I were ever hurt.â
Shae whimpers and tugs me down, kissing me hungrily. His tongue slips between my lips and I can taste him. I put my arm around his back, pulling him closer to me as the kiss goes on. As we part to catch a breath, saliva bridges between us.
âDonât stop,â Shae whines.
I press my finger to his lips. âShh,â I whisper. âItâs ok.â
Shae moans softly and kisses my fingertip. âI want more.â
I brush his hair from his face. âWhy so desperate?â
âAm I-â His laugh is sad. âAm I being greedy?â He looks up at me. âForgive me, sometimes I want things so badly.â
I kiss his forehead. âNo need to rush things.â
âBut the baby is born,â he whimpers. âYouâll leave soon if I donât-â his voice chokes off and he buries his face against my chest again.
I run my fingers through his hair. âIf you donât what?â
Shae grumbles under his breath before looking up at me. He sits erect and there is a pouty scowl on his face. âOnce the king and queen go back, so will you.â He looks away from me. âIf I make you love me, then maybe youâll stay.â
I press my forehead to Shaeâs. âIs there something wrong?â I ask him.
âBehind the mask,â he whispers. âWhat Iâm hiding-â he wraps his arms around me. âThere is a possessive need inside me.â
âShae,â I whisper warningly.
âIâm afraid of that need inside me. It comes from something so painful.â He frowns and scrunches his eyes shut tight.
âSomething to do with your nightmares?â I keep my voice gentle to soothe him.
âWill you ever visit me?â He whimpers. âWhen you go back, will you ever be able to leave?â
I kiss his cheek and cup my hand around the back of his head. âOf course,â I coax him. âThereâs more than one of me back home. Iâll be able to spend more time with you down here. As long as my fellow knights are willing to help me.â
Shae blinks tears from his eyes. âI donât want you to remember me as some needy child,â he sniffles. âI swear, Iâm not that.â
I chuckle. âI donât know what youâre hiding, but I know itâs something I have to earn your trust for.â I wipe the tears from his cheeks. âIâm willing to be patient and earn that.â
âYou arenât angry?â Shae sniffles.
âNot at all. I know what deep, invisible scars can do to a person.â I brush his hair from his face. âI canât get angry at that.â
Shae hugs me again and kisses my neck. âSo youâll come visit me?â
âAs much as possible. I promise.â
Shae clings to me before letting me go. âOk then,â he nods. âIf not, Iâll make Clotaire come chase you down.â
I smile. âIâm sure you would.â
Shae leans against me again. âIâm tired,â he whispers.
I kiss his hair. âThen letâs rest here. You can sleep if you want.â
Shae drifts away, but his hands remain clutched to mine. Itâs a few weeks before Giovannia and Romulus decide to return home, so I at least get all that time with Shae. Between his own work and my guard duties, weâre able to steal some moments for ourselves.
We decide itâs best to wait to become intimate until Shae can tell me about his nightmares. As much as we want to cement ourselves together before we leave, we agree the best thing to do is wait.
Barbarus, Male, 203 years old 2 miles away
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Hello lads! Iâm here for a good time and a long time. Are you? Iâm the man for you if you like big men with great horns and tusks, hiking in the woods, and spending time outdoors.Â
I work as a teacher, I love cooking, and drawing. My life goals include: hiking in all the national parks, watching every season of Red Dwarf, falling in love with you, and becoming the best teacher I can be.Â
If youâre the right man for me, youâll enjoy kids, cats, and tasty food. You wonât be afraid to go on adventures, and youâll have a healthy respect for nature.Â
My ideal date would involve star gazing in the mountains with a solid man by my side. While weâre there Iâd admire your soft thighs and feel like the luckiest man on the planet.Â
Remember to call me pretty as you grab the fur on my hips and fuck me until I can't see.

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August the Infected Boyfriend
Hello, everyone! This is a piece commissioned by @severedreamerbeard, a wonderful person who was so patient and understanding about waiting that I bumped him up to the forefront when The Mad Prince began looking like it was going to take just a bit longer than expected. I hope you all enjoy this little break from the longer story!Â
Tags: Male Infected, Male Reader, Citrus Rating.
You donât have an alarm clock, not anymore, not with the rickety old generator that once collected sunlight damaged beyond what you can repair. Without it, though, you manage to rise as the dayâs first light begins to peak through the treeline. You arenât certain how exactly you manage this feat time and time again, but it must have something to do with stress. Or, perhaps, just the adaptability of human nature; you need to be up at this exact time to take care of chores, and so your body listens and complies.Â
This morning is the exact same as many before. You get up, placing your feet on the rickety wood floor, and internally groan as you stand. God, youâre exhausted, despite the reasonable hour you went to sleep. After a moment, you come to the conclusion that the apocalypse just sucks the life right out of your body, suffocating it slowly if it canât snuff it out like a candle within its first wave. Grinding your teeth as though it will take the edge off the soreness, you get dressed in the worn work clothes that you are certain wonât last the eternity you plan on staying put in your little haven.Â
As you creep through the house, doing your best to stay silent as to not disturb your sister, you run through your usual list of chores that needs accomplishing in a kind of morning ritual. The dawnâs air outside is crisp, lively, but there is an underlying panic inside of you as you take a deep, cool breath, the slowness of winter gently clawing its roots into the earth in a mockery of what you and Ruby have survived thus far. You know just from watching tv shows and listening to your history teacher drone on in school that winter always has the highest mortality rate than all wars waged, with exposure doing far more damage than guns and men. The fact that you have to sludge through it without central heating or a nearby grocery store? Itâs been done, but not within the last couple of decades.Â
The binoculars around your neck must have been for bird watching, because there is a surplus of bird related books in the cabin, complete with a little sketch journal of animals native to the area. You donât use them for that, though, and instead stand at the very edge of the water surrounding the little man-made island, lifting them up to your eyes. Out on the opposite side of the coast, there isnât any concerning activity. A doe bends over the lakeâs surface, drinking its fill of water, and a hawk sits up on the top of the tree, staring down at the ground in search of prey. The doe suddenly startles, dashing back into the safety of the trees, and thatâs when you see one of them.Â
A few months ago, your stomach would have dropped clean to the floor, but you donât have the nerves left to actually care anymore. None of them have dared to enter the water, and there have been some instances where theyâve looked you directly in the eye, so you know they know youâre out here. The only guess as to why you and Ruby are still alive and uninfected would be that those things have some kind of aversion to water. There isnât anything else you can think of, unless they have some sort of deep, terrifying fear of the tomatoes that surround the house. Still, you do your patrol as always, perhaps because the habit of doing so has become a comfort in the chaos the world has turned to.
You blink rapidly, your eyes stinging against the breeze as you turn around, heading straight over to where Morticia steadily chews on whatever old food you threw into the yard the night before. The miracle-goat, you wanted to call her, after finding the animal wandering around by herself, muzzle and neck buried inside a bush as she ate. Morticia, Ruby insisted her name be, has been your sisterâs lifeline as whatever food you had managed to collect began to dwindle. Again, you are reminded of the harsh reality of winter, because you briefly imagine a world in which Morticia never managed to escape from her farm, and you and Ruby were left without her milk and company. Maybe death wouldnât be the exact outcome, but you would wager that the prospects would look pretty grim.Â
Morticia barely reacts to your hands getting all up in her business, which is a definite change to when you first were trying to figure out the finesse of milking goats. At one point, you were almost certain she fractured your jaw with a hard kick to the face, but there are no x-rays and doctors to look over any injuries you sustain anymore. All you could do was hold your breath and hope the swelling would go down, which it did, thankfully, though now your jaw clicks every time you open your mouth. Better than having no jaw at all, you muse, picking up the tin bucket of milk and carrying it back inside to the kitchen.Â
You begin pondering what magic you can work for an acceptable breakfast. The pantry is sparse. It wasnât always this terrifying to look over, when you and Ruby had just arrived, it was stocked with different kind of canned goods, dried pasta, and half a bottle of vodka you might have used a fair bit of when your jaw was threatening to fall off your face. Sure, it wasnât like accidentally stumbling into an untouched superstore with the shelves still full with merchandise, but at the time it certainly felt like it. Even with your careful attempts to make it last as long as possible, it looks like this is where âpossibleâ ends. You shut the door, taking a step back, glancing over to the fresh pile of vegetables in the hopes it might soothe your worries for the oncoming winter.Â
But fresh vegetables rot.
Still, whatever you have today can be considered a blessing from whatever spirit or deity has decided to grant you their luck. Ruby has taken a liking to the tomatoes, the big, red, juicy fruit growing in droves over the last bit of summer. You pick up one from the bunch left on the counter last night and set it on the cutting board. Paired with basil, at least, and some vinaigrette found in the pantry, itâs almost like a full meal. And every single calorie counts.Â
A thunking noise sounds from upstairs, meaning that Ruby is awake. Your immediate instinct is to go investigate, to see if she needs any help, but you stop yourself. If thereâs one thing thatâs an integral part of her personality for the whole nine years sheâs been alive, itâs the fact that she hates being babies. Hates it. So you continue trying to put together a decent looking breakfast, ears wide open to listen for any signs of struggling. She does, at least, call for you if she needs help, though youâre always afraid you might miss her cries if you are too engrossed in whatever youâre doing. Then, out of the corner of your eye, you spot her on the top of the stairs, her arm braced around a cane.Â
âAre you feeling better today?â You ask, going up the stairs to meet her.Â
âA lot,â she responds, letting you wrap your arms around her waist, taking most of the weight off her feet. âSo Iâm going to be gardening today.âÂ
After a moment of pondering over the morning patrol, you offer a quick nod. âItâs a beautiful morning, the fresh air will do you good.â
You help her down the stairs, watching your step just as carefully as you watch hers. As soon as both of you reach the ground floor, you slowly allow your grip to cease, making sure her legs donât show any signs of weakness against her weight. Nothing today, you observe, which is another small miracle. True to her word, Ruby seems to be able to walk just fine with the cane today, settling herself in the chair with only the slightest bit of difficulty. Her eyes light up when she sees the tomato mess, as though it's a whole chocolate cake for her to eat, and she digs in with an appetite that you haven't seen her use in awhile.
âHowâs you sleep, Rhubarb?â You ask, using the nickname you know she hates for just to watch her eyes roll to the back of her head in exasperation.
âFiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiine,â she says, dragging the syllable out for all its worth, quickly shoveling another spoonful of breakfast into her mouth.
You hold your hands up in mock surrender, picking up another tomato from the pile and taking a good bite of it. While you try to hold up the facade of magical nature of food for Ruby, putting together her meals to resemble the decent cuisine from before, you donât do yourself the same favor. Food is fuel, and you treat it no differently than adding a log to a fire.Â
Ruby stares you down as you finish the tomato, and you know sheâs daring you to eat just a little bit more, so you pick up a cucumber, breaking it in half and taking a bite out of the smaller piece just to satisfy her.Â
âProtein,â she says, tilting the bowl to get the last bit of food without diggin her fingers into the mess, âWeâre both starving for protein.âÂ
You run your fingers through your scalp, mouth pursed in thought. Itâs not the first time sheâs brought it up, but itâs certainly not something you can fix in the short term. Instead of saying anything in response, you just offer up a nod to show that youâve heard her but donât give her a solid answer. The jar of peanut butter that had served as your protein has been scraped clean, though you keep it in the pantry still, as though it might miraculously fill up and save the both of you.Â
âIâve been doing some reading,â Ruby adds, picking up her mug and taking a swig of milk, âthere has to be some kind of gardening store on the mainland, something we can grow for the protein itselfâ
You almost snap, but catch yourself, adding some flavor of logic into the situation to try stifling her hopefulness. âAnd where would this store be?â
âI donât know, somewhere,â Ruby frowns, lacing her fingers together, âbut winter is coming, and weâd be able to hold off the frost by making a greenhouse. That would at least keep the food coming in a little while longer, you know, people in Alaska do it all the time.âÂ
Again frustration fills you up to the brim. âAnd what materials do we have to make one?â
âWe would need some kind of clear plastic or glass- oh! And a wooden frame, we have some boards out in the shed, though weâd need more, and tools⌠I could use some new fertilizer, and I bet-â
You let her talk, turning around to place her empty bowl in the sink, barely paying any attention to the various things Ruby checks off on her imaginary list. Letting the water run, you try to think of a scenario in which you humor Rubyâs whim. Swim the exhausting length of water that you had only managed prior because of the copious amounts of adrenaline in your system. Maybe youâd somehow manage to hide from the creatures, you think they sleep, so you probably can go in the middle of the night. What then? You donât know the area. Itâs not like you can pull out your phone and search up garden department stores, and there are no maps in the entire house to speak of.Â
â... and you arenât even listening to me, are you?â
âI am,â you lie, âI was just thinking about how impossible this plan is.â
âI was figuring it out!â Ruby whines, âYou werenât listening!âÂ
You shake your head. âAny big store that could have those things is probably at least five miles away, Ruby.â God, five miles just a couple of months ago was barely a significant distance. Maybe a twenty minute bus ride, at worst, but now? Most of the cars are gone, and even if you manage to find one with enough gas to make it⌠thatâs basically like lighting a signal flare to any of those things within a ridiculously large radius. A big, shiny object that makes noise? It probably looks like a tantalizing package of candy.
âBikes exist,â she says, which is actually a decent point, but you donât want to give it to her.
âHow am I supposed to haul everything back?â
âBike trailers also exist.â
âItâs too risky,â you say, as you always do when youâve decided that the conversation is over. âItâs not worth it.â
âOh,â Ruby flips her hair over her shoulder, âand dying of starvation during the winter isnât at all risky. I understand now.â
âLetâs focus on gardening,â you say, trying to deflect her anger, though you know itâs futile. Sheâs fuming, you can tell even without turning around, and part of you is afraid that sheâs going to try something drastic when you least expect it. If thereâs someone you know with enough grit and courage to do something stupid like this, itâs certainly your baby sister. So you make an attempt to clear the tension by saying, âIâll think it over, Rhubarb, I promise.â
She mutters something under her breath, probably about you being a coward or something similar, and you internally wince. Without asking for help, and in such a way youâre certain that offering would earn you a wack from her cane, she stands, making her way over to the front door. With a frustrated sigh, you follow, keeping a good, cane-length distance from her. After making sure she manages to retrieve her gardening tools with little issue, you go back inside in search of something productive to do.
This day goes by like most, with Ruby and you buried under your respective work. She stays outside for most of the day, while you go over the canning process briefly listed in your only resource of a pocket survivalist book you got off a body in the middle of the street. It only touches on canning briefly, saying that, oh yeah, you definitely need to read a more in-depth book on this, but there are no carefully written recipes about putting sterile food into mason jars laying around the house, and you would know. Youâve already pulled out all the bookshelves away from the walls, open and dug through every single cabinet, moved mattresses, and anything else you could think of doing in the empty months of nothing.
Outside, Ruby chatters about something to herself, though you canât hear the exact words she says.
After dinner, you manage to scrape together something that Ruby wouldnât find appalling, though you know she will eat most things either way. She sits at the table, just a little more primly than usual, with an aura of smugness that makes you nervous. With little ceremony, you cut straight to the point. âWhat are you planning?â
âWho, me?â She looks like the very picture of innocence, her large, doe-like eyes staring up at you like an angel.
âYou barely made the swim when we first came out here,â you pinch the bridge of your nose with frustration, âthanks only to regular swim lessons at the Y. But you havenât been practicing, so you wonât be able to make it again.â
Her legs stop kicking back and forth underneath the table, her gaze darkening ever so slightly. The effect only lasts for a moment, though, because sheâs suddenly back to her normal, cheery self. âIâm not going anywhere,â she says, daring you to accuse her of lying, âmy friend in the water is.â
Thatâs⌠not good, you decide, knowing that Ruby rarely brings up her imaginary friends to anyone but herself. A part of you wants to try to snap her out of it, but Ruby has never reacted kindly to people when they shout. Youâre afraid she might pull herself further into whatever bubble sheâs making, so you decide to try a far more gentle approach to suit her needs. âAnd⌠is your friend in the water going to be looking for some chips, maybe? I could use some junk food right now.â
It looks like your method has worked, at least in the short term, because she looks more perplexed than anything else. Maybe she hadnât expected you to play along. âNo, heâs getting just the important stuff.â
âOh,â you shrug, turning around to do the dishes, âI see. And what does this friend in the water look like? Are they very nice?â
After a moment of silence, Ruby says, âhe is very tall, and his eyes donât have any color. His teeth are sharp, too, but he says they are for eating food. Oh, I guess he didnât actually say that, he just mimed eating something when I asked. He canât talk.â
âOh,â you say, pretending not to be horrified. This has to be one of her attention-seeking shock tactic tricks, you think, running your tongue over your teeth. You guess that you havenât been paying her very much attention over the last couple of weeks, it must all be bubbling up into one big mess in her head. âWell, maybe you should invite this friend over for dinner.â
Ruby cocks her head as though she is legitimately considering it, and not as though you just tried calling her bluff. âMaybe once he brings all the stuff for the greenhouse.â
You donât like the certainty she speaks with, as though this isnât really an imaginary friend, and someone with razor sharp teeth has been conversing with your little sister while you worked somewhere else, out of sight. âRuby,â you say carefully, âthere hasnât been any infected activity in the water, right? Theyâve all stayed out on the coast?â
She doesnât answer.
âRuby,â you say, your hands begin to shake from stress, âthe infected havenât tried coming out into the lake while I was inside, right?â
âNo,â she says, tossing her hair over her shoulder with the sassy dismissal only a girl of prebuscense can truly emit.Â
It doesnât even occur to you that she could be lying, though it should have. Perhaps even more damning to your fears is that the very next day, thereâs an unfamiliar pile of two-by-fours thrown out onto the sandy beach of the island. You run from one end of the coast to the other, rifle in hand, eyes wildly looking around for whoever or whatever it was that crawled up onto the land and left building materials in an easily accessible pile. This doesnât make any sense, none of this makes any kind of sense, but Rubyâs voice nags in the back of your head while you finish up the search. My friend in the water, she said, and a splash coming from your blind spot almost makes you empty every bullet you have into the water.Â
When you turn around, though, all you see is the faintest flicker of movement beneath the glassy surface. A fish, you try to say to yourself, wandering away from the shore on your wobbly legs. A fish and nothing more. Mouth pressed together in a firm line, you go back inside the house. Every door needs to be locked, you decide, turning the deadbolt, then checking the windows for good measure. Once all is done, you storm up to Rubyâs room, knocking on the door loud enough to wake her up as you enter.
âHmfff- what-â
âRuby, what did you do?â You ask, voice strained with panic.
She sits up in bed, rubbing her eyes, shaking her head in confusion. âWhat?â
âThe wood, Ruby, what did you do?â
It takes her a moment to process what you say, then look out the window to see the pile outside. Her eyes light up, which is the opposite thing you wanted to happen, because now you think youâre going insane. Or maybe sheâs going insane. Or, the worst option, the both of you are going insane. With a shaking, deep breath, you ask, âRuby. Ruby, baby, my sweet little sister, who is the boy in the water?â
âHim.â
You look down to where sheâs pointing and feel your stomach drop. There is definitely⌠something down there, in the shape of a boy, no doubt, but even from the second floor you can see that something is very, very wrong. You clutch the rifle tighter, wishing that there is a limitless supply of bullets instead of the handful you have to last you until the end of time. With your hands trembling like a leaf in a hurricane, you open the window, trying to take aim with the fear that makes your vision fuzzy.
âWait- what are you doing?â Ruby tires grabbing the barrel.
The image of accidently blasting her fingers off nearly makes you vomit, and you manage to detangle her hand from the trigger. âRu-knock it off, I need to take care of it-â
âYou canât shoot him!â She wails, trying to grab the rifle again, but you manage to push her away with your knee. Her breath sucks in, though she looks more enraged than hurt. âFriends donât shoot friends!â
âThatâs not our friend, Ruby!â You grit your teeth, eyeing the creature with a panicked, weary gaze, think that any second now, its going to make a run for the door. Then youâll both be toast. âItâs one of them.â
Ruby glares even harder. âNo, heâs my friend, and he brought stuff to help because youâre too much of a coward to do anything!â
You donât want to admit that her words manage to deal a bit of damage, and you especially donât want to admit that it hurts that Ruby when looking for help elsewhere, and found it. Now you glare right back at her, then at the creature hanging out on the lawn. It's just⌠staring, vacantly, up in your general direction, not making even a breath of movement. You wonder what itâs thinking, it it thinks anything. Maybe itâs worried about its safety? The lack of emotions, though, doesnât give you much to work with, and that might be the most unsettling part of it all.
But Ruby. Oh, Ruby. She doesnât understand that those things kill and tear and eat people, especially little girls who canât even keep up with the rest of the kids in her grade. Youâve tried protecting her from seeing the carnage, always sent her back inside when you saw a stray animal limping along the sand, making sure time and time again that she would never lay witness to the bloodbath only perfect predators can make. It seems, though, youâve done too good a job, and now she doesnât realize what they are, that theyâre dangerous, terrifying, and always hungry, and sheâs the one on the menu.
Sheâs not going to give up, though, you can see it in her eyes. A determination that youâre well familiar with is there, her mouth in a single line, her brow furrowed with frustration. If you donât try to get control of the situation, sheâs going to take it in her own hands and run with it, and god knows what will happen then. So you relent.Â
âAlright, fine,â you take a deep breath, shaking breath, trying to figure out just how youâre going to do damage control. âWeâll go down there, but Iâm keeping the gun loaded and ready.â
âBu-â
âNo buts,â you close your eyes, trying to sort out your frazzled thoughts, âthatâs non negotiable, Ruby, do you understand?â
Her lower lip wobbles for the barest second, before she nods.
âAlright,â another deep breath, âalright, letâs go meet your friend.â
You know that Ruby is beyond pissed off at you, especially since she refuses any help going down the stairs. Her cane makes a firm thunk, thunk, thunk against the wood, her eyes on the ground to look over the terrain and purposely ignore you. Without another word once sheâs down the stairs with no incident, she heads straight to the front door, opening it wide open as though inviting that thing in to eat you.
Oh, itâs still there. Just chillinâ. Standing over the shore with its hand around one of the wooden two-by-fours. You donât even know what to think, so the parts of your brain that arenât actively controlling your body movement shut down, your fingers almost spasming around the rifle. Thereâs no mistaking it, no accidently thinking it could be anything other than a twisted mutation, its wide smile revealing rows and rows of sharpened teeth. Black eyes stare emptily at you, then Ruby, the harsh facial expression softening slightly in the presence of your sister. Not to you, though, you can see its spine stiffen when it notices the very apparent gun in your hands. An immediate dislike, by the look of its expression as it gives you a once-over, though to be fair, you are aiming a weapon of mass destruction at the center of its torso.
Then Ruby walks over and hugs the damn thing, because of course she would do such a thing. The anxiety from merely that thing within biting distance of your sister feels like a hammer wacking at your chest and throat. It lets her go just before you get trigger happy, taking a generous step back as if obnoxiously signalling that it has no intention of harming her. You still donât think the reassurance is good enough, and you also wish your damn hands would stop shaking.
 âSo,â god, you hope your voice isnât wobbling, but you canât be sure when your heartbeat is roaring in your ears, âhow long have you two known each other?â
Ruby smiles a little too smugly for your liking. âA few days.â
âA few days,â you begrudgingly echo.
âYeah,â she picks up one of the wooden beams, her legs slightly wibbling in a way that makes you worry, âI told him all about what winter is going to be like, I think he understands.â
âYou think.â To be fair, the thing did show up with building materials that Ruby has been nagging for, so the fact the creature listened isnât all that farfetched.Â
âWe could use that plastic food wrap as a temporary fix.â Ruby is already strategizing, looking over what she has to work with. She is, unfortunately, the one who holds all the brain cells in the family, so she has the mental capacity to back up her ideas and plans. Her body trembles with the weight as she tries to lift the wood, but before you can rush to her side, the creature is there first. It takes the two-by-four from her hands in a smooth, fluid motion that doesnât seem to startle her in the slightest.
âThanks.â Ruby doesnât huff or puff at the thingâs help, which would be a point in that thingâs favor if you trusted her judgement. Which, right now at least, seems mildly questionable.
âRuby,â you let out an exasperated sigh, âyou still havenât had breakfast. Maybe you should eat something before we-â you wince at having to include the creature in your speech, âbegin building.â
Ruby purses her lips, which means youâve already taken the first step at convincing her to send that thing away just for another hour while you try to figure out how to handle this.
âAfter all, you know how you can get dizzy first thing in the morning when you havenât had any food.â
She puts down one of the smaller boards she had been trying to pick up. âAlright,â she relents, and you try not to show how excited you are, âIâll go inside and make breakfast while you two start on the greenhouse.â
Oh, ho ho ho, very clever, Ruby. She just checkmated you into a corner, and now you canât offer to take her inside without taking eyes off the creature outside, neither of which you really want to do.Â
âOr,â she offers in an alternative, âmy friend can come inside for breakfast.â
If she thinks that youâre just going to allow her to invite the creature into the house you have meticulously cared for just because sheâs being difficult⌠she would be absolutely correct, unfortunately. And thatâs how you find yourself sitting on the opposite side of a rectangular table from it. From this distance, youâre almost certain that the creature has baby blue scales brushed alongside a pair of gills that drill deep into his neck, much like a fish. This understandably distresses you, deeply, but you really canât do anything to voice your worries with Ruby sitting right by your side, munching on some of the berries that grow along the house, chattering nonstop about her plans to turn this place into some high-tech paradise.
To the creatureâs credit, it is a good listener. Actually, though, like Ruby had said before, you donât think it can speak at all. The gash-like strikes in its neck are deep, it must affect its speaking somehow. Still, its nodding along to Rubyâs infinite list of demands, as though it somehow has access to a full hardware store stocked with things like solar panels and gas generators. You highly doubt that any of the stores have much left thanks to any looting that came with the announcement, but you donât open your mouth to burst Rubyâs bubble. This has to be the most fun and interesting thing that has happened to her for the better part of a year, and youâd be loathed to end it.
You take a deep, calming breath, and drink some water. If only the thing had irises⌠or pupils, really, anything to tell you what itâs looking at, this might be less nerve-wracking. Every slight movement brings your hand back down to the rifle, so that thing has taken to move so very slowly, almost as if to mock your stress. You grit your teeth, though, and deal with it, because you donât think its going to try gutting you or Ruby here at the dining table. At least, you certainly hope not. Actually, now that you think about it, do these things even eat humans? Sure, youâve seen a few twisted infected take down whatever meat they can find, but youâve never actually seen one of them⌠hurt a person.
It refuses the food that Ruby offers. Just holds its hand up and gives the lightest shake of the head in refusal, its palish blond hair still wet enough to stick to its head. She doesnât take any offense, instead shoveling whatever is left into her mouth, and you have to resist reminding her not to talk while sheâs chewing. After all, she isnât a baby anymore, even though itâs difficult to remember that at times, so instead of voicing your opinions, you take a large bite out of tomato.Â
Ruby kicks you from under the table, and you snap out of your thoughts. She must have asked you something, but you canât for the life of you remember what.
âAny suggestions?â Ruby says in deliberate slowness, you see that sheâs resisting the eye-roll.
âI-â youâre trying to take this seriously, you really are, ânot that I can think of at the moment.â
Ruby purses her lips, and gives an exasperated look over to her friend. âIâm sorry, he must be a little tired. My brother can be difficult at times.â
Youâre the difficult one, Ruby, you want to clap back, but donât for the sake of maturity.Â
But the creature laughs, which almost sends your soul crawling out of your skin. The laughter isnât like⌠how someone might giggle if they were told a particularly funny joke, the sound is more like a gentle huff of air being forced out of its lungs. Maybe it isnât actually laughing, and the lack of human contact outside of your little sister is beginning to drive you absolutely mad. The thing is smiling, though, thatâs the kicker. Itâs looking at your sister and smiling, and while you arenât one hundred percent sure how you feel about that, shockingly, there isnât a lot of suspicion on your part.
Once Ruby finishes eating, everyone just has to go back outside. You suppose that now, with the materials to build such a life-saving building, it must be constructed with all due haste. And you feel the urgency, too, so itâs not just Ruby who is driving everything by herself. Like an ancient, integral part of human instinct that knows winter is coming, even without an accurate calendar on hand, you have it blooming in your chest. Even though you donât have any building experience, so long as Ruby watches over the project with her unusual gift in architecture, you have a bit of confidence that everything is going to be alright.Â
You work tirelessly, with Ruby micromanaging every single thing you do. Though, for whatever reason, it doesnât bother you as much as it might have just a week ago. She is also doing a share of the work she can management hammering together little squares that will separate out the plants, her eyes glazed over with a feverish concentration whenever she isnât judging your craftsmanship. Sheâs enjoying this, you think, letting a tense layer of anxiety slip away, sheâs only ever had her garden. Human beings, after all, need change and projects to keep happy, and there hasnât been much variety in the way of daily routines.
Letting your guard down is probably extraordinarily foolish, but you do so anyway. The thing isnât so bad, you decide, watching the creature while it shows Ruby how to make sure the square is even and balanced, as though it somehow retained the information from whoever it was before the plague. Building the frame is grueling work, and while you begin to breathe a little heavier from the exhaustion biting through your muscles, that thing seems unbothered by it all. That makes sense, you supposed, since what little was known about the creatures before the blackout was that they are awfully strong. And fast. And relentless.
By the time the sun begins to sink beyond the treeline, not too much has been accomplished. It might be because no one but Ruby is giving out instructions, as she is the only one between you that has any prior building experience on account of that tree house she made over a year ago. Still, the haste that has poured into your veins is still there, thrumming beneath your skin, like your body has suddenly awoken from a deep slumber. Now youâre only ready to go, go, go, until everything is finished. Ruby, however, needs to sleep, and as long as youâre up, sheâll be up. So you watch her say goodbye to the creature by giving it a tight hug, before limping back into the house.
Even though you had let your guard down while you were building, you have it back up in full. The rifle is heavy in your hands as you watch it retreat back into the water, your mouth in a firm, thin line. It simply just⌠walks into the lake, not even bothering to try to keep its pale head above the surface like a fucking salamander or something. While you are thoroughly horrified by that, Ruby thinks itâs fascinating, and thatâs her exact word to describe it as you try to put her to bed.
âThe infection must mutate them to adjust to their surroundings!â Sheâs excitedly drinking her warm milk, courtesy of a late call to Morticia that almost got you a black eye. âOr maybe it tries to regress our DNA back to some kind of primeval source, like that Star Trek episode. Or, like- it could, like, bond your body to the nearest animals, though I donât know how that would happen, just that it could make sense. Maybe-â
âDrink the rest of your milk, Ruby,â you say, feeling a tad bit sick to your stomach just listening to her talk. Not that listening to your sister speak exactly annoys you, no, itâs what sheâs talking about that bothers you. Because if the one infected could somehow breath in both the water and land, how many others are like that?Â
How much danger have you put Ruby in without even knowing it?Â
You lock the doors, both of them. Place a wall of furniture in front of the ground floor windows. Ruby looks on with a look of half bemusement, half pity, her lips pursed as she takes another drink from her mug. You ignore her, checking once more to make sure that the rifle has enough bullets to⌠maybe pop off one or two heads with your god awful aim. Itâs nothing near what you would hope for, but then again, nothing has been ideal since the city went dark.
Inevitably, you fall asleep on the living room couch, albei lightly. Every slight creak of the house sends you rocketing up, trying to decide in a split second if that dark, shapeless lump is one of the infected, or a pile of Rubyâs laundry that she has yet to put away. Somehow, through grit, determination, and adrenaline, you manage to make it through the night without accidentally blowing anything out of existence. Thatâs a plus. A downside is that you are absolutely exhausted, and want nothing more than to take the longest nap known to whatâs left of humankind.Â
âYou can totally do that,â Ruby says when you mention it at breakfast, âIâll work on the greenhouse with my friend while you rest.âÂ
âNot happening.â You donât even hesitate. âAnd- look, Ruby, I donât mean to be an absolute prick or anything-â she snickers at your profanity, and you continue without pausing, âbut you canât go hanging out with it-â
âHim.â
You let out a frustrated breath, but accept the correction just to get the conversation over with. âYou canât go hanging out with him without me.âÂ
âWhy not?âÂ
âBecause, it- he is dangerous.â You knew she wouldnât let it go without a fight, but god, you wish she would, just this once. âRuby, baby-â
âIâm not a baby.â
âAlmost teenager.â You resist rolling your eyes, you need to set a good example. âRuby, the almost teenager, that⌠that creature isnât a person anymore. Yeah, he looks kind of human, but you saw him slither down into the water like a snake.âÂ
She just stares at you, unmoving in her stance.
You sigh, the motion filled with frustration. âI just need you to promise me that you arenât going to visit him without me, alright? Thatâs all I want. If you see him hanging around outside, get me. If you want to try calling for him or whatever, get me. I promise Iâll say yes every single time, just please, please promise me that youâre going to always remember to tell me that heâs here, alright?âÂ
Her eyes narrow, and for a moment, you think sheâs going to put up more of a fuss than she already has, but then she offers up a nod in agreement.Â
Your body relaxes slightly. âAlright, eat your breakfast, then we can keep working on the greenhouse.âÂ
Rubyâs friend waits out on the porch, almost giving you a panic attack when you notice its slim form sitting on the cement. You donât say anything, though, hoping that Ruby hadnât just seen you jump into the ceiling like a startled rabbit, and continue about your morning like everything is one hundred percent normal. After all, it doesnât look like you can regain control of the situation without allowing the creature too much power. You hope, though, as you cut up tiny pieces of tomatoes, that a creature with some kind of cognitive ability to remember how to properly level a buildingâs base might also hold the self-restraint required not to eat a family of two. Or, alternatively, itâs just not hungry enough.Â
Once Ruby finishes eating, she manages to stand with a wobble, wincing as her weight gets set on her legs even with the aid of her cane. Thatâs not a good sign, not at all, and your worry grows tenfold as you see her eye twitch in a silent admittance of pain.Â
âIs it bad today?â You ask, glancing down at her twig-like legs as though they could tell you that something is wrong.
âIâm going outside,â Ruby says, her voice hard as iron.
âThat isnât what I asked,â you respond, wishing that she wouldnât act so stubborn when it came to her health. âIs the pain bad today?â
She shrugs non committedly. âItâs not as bad as it could be.â
Also not an answer, but, you suppose, itâs enough to figure out that her pain is just enough of a bother for her to dodge the question, yet not enough to put her in bed for the rest of the day. âYou can come outside to be with your friend while we continue on the greenhouse,â you say, feeling just a tad generous, âbut you have to sit the entire time and do nothing strenuous.âÂ
âFine,â she agrees, maybe a little too quickly, but itâs enough for you. Instead of simply opening the door for her, you pick her up, like a small baby, and carry her out into the yard to avoid straining her weak muscles further. Since she doesnât offer up any word of protest, the pain must really be bothering her, which is awful. All you have are a few pills of a generic painkiller, but youâre trying to save them for the inevitability that one of you will be getting sick during the winter, so you have to seriously consider giving her a single pill.
Rubyâs little friend shows concern when you pass by him, still carrying her slim frame in your arms. With a tired, defeated voice, Ruby lets out a word in greeting, but doesnât try explaining why exactly sheâs not walking today. When you set her down on the little, cushioned bench overlooking the greenhouse project, she lets out a slight sigh of frustration.Â
âRhubarb,â you say, and you hear her groan in exaggerated anger, âyou know, when you were doing swim lessons at the Y twice a week, everything seemed better.âÂ
She perks up slightly.
âMaybe,â god, you hate that youâre even suggesting this, especially after meeting with that thing only once before, âmaybe your friend can take you out into the shallows for a little bit. The weather is still warm enough for a swim, maybe youâll improve after a week or two.âÂ
She seems a little too pleased with your idea, and you immediately regret it.Â
âNot now,â you amend, âonly when your friend has earned my trust. That hasnât happened yet.â Saying all of this while said friend is standing right beside you is a little awkward, but something you still manage to do with a straight face nonetheless.
Then you start working. Today seems a little more grueling than usual, the sun unabashed by clouds, the heavier frames of the greenhouseâs walls just a tad bit more than what youâre used to. Sure, youâre carrying Ruby around whenever her body gives out, but sheâs as light as a feather, and the still-damp wood weighs as much as youâd expect hunks of building material would. You carry on, though, working through the fatigue that takes hold of your muscles, letting the creature help out without too much tension on your part. The dayâs progress is far more visible than yesterdayâs, with two of the walls ready to be placed onto the base.Â
Ruby had stated sometime before that plastic food wrap stuff might be acceptable in the short term, but you know that glass might be the only thing between you and death in the coming months. The plastic might break with the heavy snowfall, then an entire batch of food would be gone like a snap. Again, you think of canning, but you arenât sure the progress you made in your first attempt is anywhere near acceptable. Or even food, anymore. So, even though it pains you to do so, you turn to Rubyâs buddy.
âYou wouldnât know how to get books over here without getting them too wet, do you?â You ask, trying to keep your voice from wavering too much, trying to look at him in those cold, empty eyes.Â
He turns to Ruby, who seems completely overwhelmed by the prospect of more books. âOh! Oh, do you know Harry Potter? Artemis Fowl? What about Star Wars, the New-â
âMaybe we should focus on getting things like canning books first, Ruby,â you say, interrupting her excited list of all the books she never got to read. âOr construction books, and maybe some gardening books and maybe some more medicine.âÂ
âOh,â she deflates somewhat, but thereâs still that spark in her eye that means this is not the end of the conversation, âI guess thatâs a better idea, yeah. Can you get some gardening and canning books, August?â
It takes you a second to realize that sheâs talking to the creature. âAugust?âÂ
âItâs the month of August,â she says as though her reasoning is super obvious, âand he doesnât remember his name.â
You purse your lips, but donât argue. The creature doesnât seem to mind, anyway, not even batting an eye at Rubyâs audaciousness in the slightest. Does he even care? âAlright,â you amend, slowly, âAugust, would you mind terribly making a brief run to a drugstore?âÂ
He shrugs, the gesture so human that it takes you for a loop.Â
âThat means yes,â Ruby translates.Â
You take a deep breath. âAlright, then, I suppose we have a lot of stuff to do tomorrow, then.âÂ
A list begins to form in your head, a long one, of all the things you might be able to do now that you have the means. Canning, more extravagant gardening, maybe you can brew some alcohol for disinfecting and cleaning purposes. You donât even have to worry about the validity of the creatureâs supposed promises, because the next morning, he has a backpack full of books that had been sealed away by plastic bags. Which⌠that means that heâs clever, and thatâs literally the exact opposite of what those news announcers had reported before the city went dark. That the infected are predators, sick mutations that have been reduced to the barest form of life, fueled by nothing but bloodlust. Maybe, just maybe, not all of the infected are like that. Maybe August isnât completely infected, either, maybe the disease only partially spread through his body, twisting his physical form into something else but keeping his mental fortitude as strong as ever. Whatever the case is, you donât think you can hate him anymore, especially since you might have to attribute you and Rubyâs survival to his help.Â
The canning books are going to save Rubyâs life, very literally, you think, because thereâs a section on how to make sweetened condensed milk, and you are one thousand percent ready to try stocking up Morticiaâs milk before she begins to decline in health. August has taken it upon himself to help you with the canning when itâs too dark to continue working on the greenhouse, and Ruby very politely informs you that you donât get a choice in accepting his aid. So the two of you chug along, using the coal grill outside as a stovetop, boiling what little vegetables you have in order to sterilize them for long-term storage.Â
The schedule is a strange one over the next couple of days. You build the greenhouse during the day, and when you are either too exhausted to pull any more hours or the light is too dark to see, you begin the canning. August and Ruby both help with the daily tasks, and soon enough you find yourself getting used to the creatureâs presence, enough so that you occasionally forget bringing out the rifle when you work. Not that it bothers you when you realize youâve forgotten it, because August doesnât at all seem to hold any of the same aggressions as his kindred. Also, with every visit, he brings something else with him that can be used to boost your lifespan. More books, like Ruby asked for, a box of dried pasta that only got marginally wet from the swim, and a fish that you think is probably edible that still wriggles in Augustâs hands as he holds it out in and offering.Â
Ruby usually falls asleep during the tailends of the canning sessions, and you honestly donât blame her. The work as of recently has been rather grueling, and even though you know that exercise is good for her condition, everything has been a little over the moderate suggestion the doctor made at her last appointment, almost a year ago. But it is kind of awkward to have to deal with August on your own, without Rubyâs unending chatter to break his strange silence. You donât mind, though, you guess that company is rather nice after not having it for as long as you have, even if he is rather stoic in conversation and barely offers up a shrug or nod in response to any questions you might have.
Once you pick your sister up and carry her to her room, August goes ahead and silently excuses himself by walking into the lake. You wonder if he has some kind of home or nest down there, or if he sleeps on the slimy rocks the same way you and Ruby slept on the cold forest floor when the evacuation had first begun. It makes you feel a bit bad for him, even though August seems wholly unbothered by it. Still, after all his help, you decide that youâre going to at least play the part of grateful host and give him another option just as a suggestion.Â
âSo,â you say, once Ruby is tucked away in her bed upstairs, âI know that you, um, live in the water. Or maybe you donât, and I just making some baseless assumptions here.â
August blinks at you, two clear eyelids sliding sideways.
âAnyways, um, Ruby really likes you a lot.â You feel your face heating up just a bit. âAnd Iâve come to appreciate your help as well. Iâm sorry about waving a gun around in your face.â
He shrugs his shoulders, as if brushing off the apology with understanding. You suppose thatâs a sign of forgiveness, or at least, you hope so, and continue on.Â
âAnyways, I donât know where exactly you go at night, but I just want you to know that you donât have to. Go, that is.â You try to wrack your brain for some better wording you can use, because right now everything seems light and fuzzy. âThereâs another bedroom you can have, itâs right upstairs next to mine. Or, if youâre an outside person, you can take some blankets and chill out in the yard. Whatever you feel like doing.âÂ
You realize then that August is smiling, his shark-like teeth shining in the moonlight.
âAnd you donât have to say yes now, you can decide later if you would rather not go back if we are especially late with the work, so the invitation is open.â You donât want to maintain eye contact, but you decide to offer up one last reason for him to stay. âAnd Iâd like it if you spend the night, so.â
August places a single hand on your shoulder. Still smiling, he offers up a nod.
âOh,â you feel a bit of relief bubble up through your body, as well as a different kind of anxiety filling up your veins, âGood. Great. Iâll get your room ready, then.â
He arches his eyebrows.
âOr,â you say, âI guess the alternative is that you share my room. That guest room is kind of drafty, after all, I wouldnât want to put any guests at risk of⌠um, a cold-â
August kisses you, and you think your world is about to go black. Or explode. Or something, because this is the best thing that has ever happened to you ever, and the apocalypse can go fuck itself because everything is fine.Â
âMy bedroom it is, then.â





