âfor once, i actually agree.â and he actually does. myungsoo doesnât talk that much â thatâs how he sees him, and when he does, it all comes in all sorts of context that even yunhyeong canât decipher. yunhyeongâs undeniably sentimental for someone so loud-mouthed. the topic depression itself brings goosebumps all over his body, body hair clinging upwards that signify his uncomfortable state. just imagine several of his friends going through depression falters his giddy self. âthe fact that you bombard yourself with unfathomable questions already makes you feel so.. lonesome. if thatâs the word. useless too.â he shrugs his shoulders, exhaling a nonchalant sigh with a composed posture. there was the truth along those lines, and heâs hoping at least that the other understands since heâs often slightly off when it comes to elaborating. nobody understands him. literally goofing around is his forte. he canât even handle any mellow phenomenon himself. what makes him think that talking about depression is actually being just â all he knows is the pain for depression literally outweighs the pain unhappiness holds. Â âthatâs just messed up. iâm messed up, am i ruining that smart brain of yours?â
âItâs not that youâre bombarding yourself with questions that you want to answer makes you depressed; itâs the other way around.â Myungsooâs voice is soft, heâs not being sympathetic, heâs mostly being a little more concerned with the sensitivity of some people and he didnât want the young man to see that heâs actually different from what he seems to be. Heâs not entirely a gentleman, heâs rude, and he always says something out of context, but this is a serious topic, requiring him to change his person for a while to understand what is happeningâthatâs what heâs good at anyway, in analyzing things that doesnât seem to concern him.
âYou shouldnât be too hard on yourself, those questions may be left unanswered now but you will find it, the answers youâre looking for. A depressed state would always be because of humanâs impatience, and how they always want abrupt answers when they should be more capable of understanding the situation to themselves. Questions are often asked out of curiosity, not out of loneliness, and thatâs none of anyoneâs fault, but the fact that youâre questioning yourself of not being able to answer those petty questions inside your head, when youâre supposed to yet you canât seem to find the right answer to do so, thatâs what makes things complicated.â Itâs probably the first time that he spoke too much, and spoke his mind about things that doesnât really concern him but he feels a little concerned with the man that he found around the corner, thinking to himself even if they have no relation to each other. âYou should just start distracting yourself, or better yet, stop overthinking. It wouldnât do you good.â
