#mixtape project

Note: I am not a song expert, and am purely judging from my opinion. I don't know anything about chords or stuff, I just enjoy music as it is. I am doing this for fun. And yes, this is promotion for them too hehe.

Hyunjin is home!! 😭

XVIII. Living Dead

I.

that summer the reservoir receded baring her skin of stones and weeds underneath

the humid breeze pulled resinous pine tree air through the grey hover —

there won’t be rain.

have mercy

II.

pull the shirt over my head summer bruises & freckles

the marine layer seeps & curls salty speckles clinging the air —

heart sounds like waves beating a far-off shore.

if you mean no harm                                 XIX. Take me As you Please

burns away the cold

the October sun yawns gold through coastal brushes and oaks before slamming bloody orange over royal blue waters and black cliff arches

green flash chasers: bound to the 1 until Big Sur

much later the thick forest night absorbs the car without hesitation.

you arrive with the trees, stand with the quiet, while the fire eats away at the logs in an encrypted pattern. i think it’s high time for a hike to who knows where.

i didn’t know i was waiting up, but when you stepped by my side into the darkness

for just a moment i could have sworn it felt right.                                XX. …Slowdance on the Inside

check every knot and strand for frays careful now

careful as ever beware!—this one will taste a bit reckless.

smell ozone lingering the grey hover, waiting for lightning,

gamble or play the odds, this bleeds like betting it all.

watch me try my singed best to save the rest, what’s left

Hello.The laptop I used for digital art had a problem with the motherboard, which is fried and useless and with it, all of my on going projects that were nearly finished. That includes the Mixtape project, which has been a thing that made me isolate myself and coward in fear of being hated, but I need to come clean with it. I had severe mental illnesses as of the late 2016 and up until May I had not being diagnosed because my mother has chosen to conceal the information that I had access to a psychiatrist all along and did not have to pay a fee, because she is abusive in many ways and this is another one of them. When I started getting treated by my own volition, I felt somewhat better and up to finishing the project. During finishing touches, the tragedy happened with my macbook, and with it, all my progress down the drain. Nonetheless, I will work hard to recover my gear, although it’s a very expensive fee to pay where I live (Brazil) and it might not be immediate. I was so close to getting it done and I felt so hopeful, but I’ll try to not lose grasp of that hope.