#mistake day

❛ ...on an unrelated note, if i were to stick candles into okonomiyaki, would they stick, or fall out? or maybe i should try it blindly and get the despair of failing miserably or the hope of passing an improbable task...the answer to my question will be a present in itself. ❜

today was such a "mistake" day like it was one of those days where everything I tried to do, regardless of importance or difficulty, was just wrong I just screwed everything up and even when I didn't screw up it was still bad and unacceptable and I just felt this long continuous free-floating sense of shame and guilt that would attach itself to every little task I did, even when there was no conceivable fault. feeling like this makes me so jittery and on edge and makes me SO nervous that I fuck up even more it's just a borderline comedic domino effect of mistakes and things done wrong and -HATE- hating myself and just.............aaaaaaaaaa no one wins hahahahahaHAAAAAA