#mindworking

Have you ever thought of nothing? You know. When you are just simply thinking about nothing. You are not worried nor stressed but you are thinking. but what you are thinking was neither happy nor funny. Then when you come to your senses and you know that you are thinking about nothing, you begin to think what are you not thinking about. should you be worried? should you be sad? should you be in a place where happiness is present?

Our generation today is somehow very scared of pain, feeling down, or failures and because we are scared to feel this things, we don’t recognize what we could gain on those sad, disappointing happenings in our lives.

Our life is very twisted. One day you are the happiest, luckiest man/woman and some days you are in your most depressing days. But somehow this experiences wont last. What do we need to do in order to appreciate failure once in a while?

1. “Let go of the past”. Your past is done. You cant change what is unchangeable anymore. What you need to do is to let the past go. You cant move forward if you cant let the past failures go. You cant be successful when you let your past failures eat you up.  

Nothing that is about to happen is unchangeable. Sometimes we think that what we thought is going to happen, because sometimes they don’t. And we cant control the things that might change, what we control is how we can deal with those changes without falling apart.

3. and last but certainly not the least, KEEP MOVING FORWARD. Yes, sometimes life is so tough, but what do we need to do at the end of the day? Keep moving forward. We cannot change the past, but we can build our future. It is not to late to get up and start your life. We should keep on moving forward because that is where we will be. 

For a little girl, I had big dreams. Minsan pa nga di na totoo dreams ko. I have imagined myself kung paano ako makakapangasawa ng lalakeng nesekenye ne eng lehet. Naimagine ko na ng magkaroon ng not just one, not two, but 3 cars. Naimagine ko na kung anong attitude ko kapag mayaman nako, and kung anong sasabihin ko kayla mama and papa pag susurpresahin ko sila kase nilibre ko sila ng world tour. Sobra sobra yung pangarap ko sa sarili ko nung bata pa ko. Iniimagine ko na magiging bahay ko, kung pano ko pipirma bilang CEO (at bilang artista hehehe) at hanggang dun sa fact na naimagine ko na kung anong passcode ko sa ATM. But, I grew up. Ganun pa rin naman yung pangarap ko, but there is this one HUUUUGE problem.

REALITY. 

oo, realidad. eto ang ultimate kalaban ko sa lahat ng pangarap ko since day 1 na nagstart ako magdrawing ng itsura ko nung Kinder ako nung sinabing idrawing daw ang “future me”. Nangarap akong maging astronaut, pulis, chef, magician, artista, isang magiting na housewife (kase nga yung mapapangasawa ko nesekenye ne eng leheeet) pero lahat yun nabura dahil nagstick ako sa ultimate dream ko, Ang Maging successful. At eto ang mahirap sa dream ko. Hindi ko alam kung kelan, paano, saan at sa anong dahilan ako magiging successful. 

I am currently 18 years old. And mas nakakaproud pa atang sabihin na ‘Wala pa akong napapatunayan” kaysa sa “Dude, i did diz and dat mehehe” Kase yun yung totoo. 18 pa lang ako. 18 LANG. And minsan nagi interfere itong pagiging 18 ko sa mga desisyon ko sa buhay. Minsan mapapaisip ka nalang, “Am i too young or too old for this?”  At minsan it sucks. it sucks na dahil lang sa 18 ka na you cant laugh loud or dance in public, it sucks na dahil lang 18 ka na you are now required to at this early stage pick a guy na you would probably marry, and it sucks that 18 ka lang pero yung future na dati mong pinapangarap ay kailangan mo nang gawin, and that is not easy. 

Kung binabasa mo to, o nagkaron ka ng interes basahin to, malamang sa malamang isa ka sa mga taong nasaktan, nasasaktan pero nagmahal at nagmamahal parin. 

Para sa mga nasaktan at nasasaktan,

gusto ko lang malaman mo na hindi masamang masaktan. Natural sa taong makaramdam ng sakit, dahil pinapatunayan nitong tao ka. gusto ko lang malaman mo na hindi porke normal sa tao ang masaktan ay hahayaan mo ang sarili mong masaktan. Hindi ka ginawa sa mundo para lang mabuhay sa isang pantasya na ikaw na mismo ang nawawalan ng panahong isipin na hindi dapat kumplikado ang pagmamahal. nais ko rin malaman mo na hindi porke nasaktan ka, susuko ka na. Lahat ng bagay na may o dumanas ng sakit ay mas nagiging malakas. NGUNIT, nais ko lang din malaman mo na hindi porke ayos lang at normal lang masaktan eh magpapakatanga ka na. Iba ang pag ibig. oo di ko pa nararamdaman ang lahat ng klase ng pag ibig, pero totoong iba ang pag ibig. matuto ka ring gumawa ng limitasyon sa kung gaano ka dapat masaktan. hanggang dun lang. wag mong lubos lubusin ang sarili mo hanggang sa wala nang matira sayo. TANDAAN MO RIN NA KUNG YANG TAONG PINAGTITIISAN MO NG SAKIT AY MAHAL KA, UMPISA PA LANG DI KA NYA HAHAYAANG MASAKTAN. KASE KUNG MAHAL KA NYANG TUNAY, DI NYA KAKAYANIN NA MAKITA KANG MAWALAN NG PAG ASA.

Para sa mga nanloko ngunit minahal parin,

Kung ulitin nyo yan, may isa lang akong tanong. SAAN KAYO NAKAKAKUHA NG LAKAS NG LOOB? sana naman, kung may balak kayong manloko ulet, iwanan nyo na yung taong willing kayong mahalin pa rin kahit manloloko kayo. Kahit man lang sa ganung aspekto magkaron kayo ng awa. kung alam nyo pala sa sarili nyo na di niyo kayang panindigan ang mga sinabi o binitawan nyong salita sakanila, sana tapusin nyo na. OO MASAKIT SAKANILA YON. PERO MAS MASAKIT YUNG PANLOLOKONG GINAGAWA KAYSA SA PAGHIHIWALAY NG MAY NATIRA PA. magkaroon kayo ng AWA sa taong handa parin kayong tanggapin kahit na lahat na ng sama ay nagawa niyo na. Kung sainyo kaya gawin lahat, kaya nyo pa bang tumanggap ng mga katulad nyo? Hangga’t andyan pa at kaya ka pang tanggapin ng taong mahal na mahal ka, wag mo siyang abusuhin. DAHIL MANIWALA KA. PAG ANG PUSONG TANGA AY NATUTO, HINDING HINDI MO NA YAN MAKUKUMBINSI O MAPAPAIKOT PA. 

at Para sa mga taong ILANG BESES ng niloko pero nag mamahal parin,

pano mo yan nagagawa sa sarili mo? lol jk. Sabi nila, walang gamot sa katangahan. Actually, meron. Sarili mo lang nakakapigil sayo. Kung mahal ka ng tao, di ka lolokohin. AT KUNG MAHAL MO SARILI MO, DI KA PAPALOKO. Do not settle for less, ang daming isda sa dagat. Mahal mo siya? Eh sarili mo mahal mo ba? Wag kang gumawa ng bagay na sa huli eh mas msasaktan ka. Once is enough, 2 is too much. dont act so tough on things, pwede mo mabago ang mundo mo. IWAN MO NA YAN. 

A person will come when the timing is unexpected

a person will come when your life is just hanging

a person will come when you are about to ask why

why is the world suddenly turned gray

and when this person comes you just know

that butterflies can re-fly inside your stomach

that music can have meaning again

that sunset can be a sign for hope again

that you can turn around and will not be afraid to say “Hello” again

that you are not just breathing air for the sake of living

that your heart can re-skip its beat

that you are ready to feel again

and you will know that you are ready again

ready to begin what you thought was the end

ready to end the things that hinders new beginnings

ready to stop what was beginning to end

Maybe today is not your day

but tomorrow make it yours

now you maybe sad

tomorrow you maybe glad

But what do we need to end up the day

acceptance my friend that is the key

the key that will unlock possibilities

the possibilities that paints your future from within

always make your day worth having

it maybe sad, happy but accept it for that

for tomorrow Faith may hear you

hear your heart that has accepted everything