#mindfart

Crumbling and beaten down, left alone just to drown, time and life were not so kind, to this weakling's mind, opened his hands and reached for the sky, screaming save me from myself, but open hands turned into a clenched fist, since no one dared to help, in the deafening silence, and in the coldest night, grew a weakling's resolution, ready to kill this internal blight, he said to himself, who said alone means lonely? so he walked his path, and walked peacefully.

https://zydnax.medium.com/taylor-swift-rick-morty-the-tragic-limitations-of-the-human-experience-e45d43fef02b

https://zydnax.medium.com/how-icarly-made-me-question-my-faith-in-jesus-fbb2abf6e8d4

People live and die for art.

I guess I'm already at the point of my life wherein I'm really literally exhausted with all the stereotypes in life. I've already given up doing what other people think is good, what they think is right. I'm so over it. I'm done with all these stereotypes. This year is indeed, full of great life lessons. It inspired me to be more contented in life, to just do whatever I want, and to be who I've always wanted to be. I think I already found the freedom I deserved. 💯🙏🏾💕✨ - #personalgrowth #peaceofmind #clarity #personalthoughts #mindfart #lifelessons #sunsets #maturity #nofiltersneeded (at Quezon City, Philippines) https://www.instagram.com/p/B5r5MZ8nQnI/?igshid=1tuex1l5cj4o4

I've been through countless "love is blind" situations, not just by being in a relationship with a significant other, but also with some people I used to be great friends with (I don't even know where the fvck they are.. literally). Maybe some of you might disagree with me on this, but I feel like apologizing to my self for not always following my gut (and then self-pitying/blaming myself after regretting everything I knew was coming). I owe myself an apology for being too stubborn.. I am so sorry, self for not trusting you. I always knew that you're 100% true, and proving me that I'm not cray at all, but still I chose to contradict you, because I always believe that whom I loved will always love me back and more. The irony on that is I consistently advise people to always follow their guts no matter what and just thank me later, but I can't do it for myself!! Why is that?! 😭🙏🏾 - #mindfart #personal #thoughts #LoveRehina (at Pasay City, Philippines) https://www.instagram.com/p/B5NjwTYnKXA/?igshid=bts0ivkz2433

I got up at 6:21 am to eat breakfast with my parents and mom brought up a task for me to which I replied with "mom, I need a little raise in my allowance if I have to do those things." (The words were delivered right but I chose the wrongwords to say) so she replied with strong words and so our morning was ruined. I tried to reason with her but she was frustrated at me so I went away from the table and got to my bed before I was petrified with her moving words. I prayed, because I thought it was all done and I had to repent of my words to my mother, but no, she wasn't done. She went by my room and started to rebuke me of all the wrong things I did. I halted my prayer because she was so right. I started to question my Lord in prayer. Tears went down my cheeks and my Depressor muscles on my face started to act up. My face drooped in misery. "Where is the change you promised me?" "You said, if I would ask. I shall recieve!" "All I wanted was your presence. Now where is it Lord?" "I need change, but is there any change in me?" And death started to whisper to me to strangle myself. I was full of Hatred towards myself. (the heart ache from last night fueled my frustration that is why I had so much in my head.) But the grip of my Lord on me is tighter than a lions grip on its prey. Ate shirly went by my room because she was one of the two people that witnessed our quarrel. She said to me to wash the dishes. It is the least I can do to ease my mom's anger towards me. And so I did. While I was washing the dishes. "So will I (a 100 billion times) was playing through my earphones and I wondered and asked to myself maybe later this day the Lord will show himself to me? In the middle of the process of washing the dishes, I heard mom ask ate shirly of my whereabouts and so she told mom I was at the kitchen washing the dishes. My mom approached me and apologized to me. We both cried and hugged. I said, mom I'm sorry too. After that I suddenly realized. Jesus came to me in the form of peace! In an instant felt relief as if the storm of thoughts in my head was cleared in one snap of a finger. So I prayed instantly saying, "Lord I'm so sorry for being so foolish" "How foolish I was to question you!" And as if that wasn't enough the song I was listening to said "God of your promise" I was so delighted to hear that. I will always thank God in every season of my life.

Like people with blue eyes would see everything with a bluish hue.