This has been happening all morning I need them to chill please i would like new ones 😂😭

They blocked me and I blocked them

Any artists that follow me please be careful around this person cause they are a scammer

They send a fake PayPal link and please do not click on the link

Red flag is that they ask you draw something that's out of what you draw or what fandoms you're in

A man sent me another explicit message today, completely unprovoked and also the 3rd in around 2 weeks, and when he saw I’d read it and ignored it then had the audacity to ask why I was ignoring him.

Why do you think you absolute fucking dick gremlin?! BLOCKED, HOE. (Yes I should’ve blocked him after the first message. I know.)

Might I add I’d met this man once and never gave him the slightest idea I may be interested in him even a little. (side note: even if you are interested in a man that doesn’t give him the right to make sexual comments to you)

the back to school depression is hitting kinda hard rn and i don’t really wanna be taking any of the classes that i am taking but i have to because they’re requirements for my degree. i just know i’ve always struggled with cutting myself some slack and giving myself room to not get as good grades and seeing that i’m taking 3 stem classes all with lab i know that attitude needs to go, but it’s not something that just disappears and i’ve been working on it for years, like since i was in high school but i’m still not at the point where i can just get a c, and be disappointed about it without a full emotional breakdown. faking it till you make it only works for so long and to a certain extent and knowing that i’m in microbio, biochem, and ochem with 6 midterms, 3 lab exams and who knows how many quizzes and lab reports i just don’t know if i can keep up with it all. because i need rest, i need time for my brain to recuperate and actually understand the material i’m learning not just suck it up like a vacuum and keep it in my brain forever. vacuums have dirtbags and they need to be emptied like where is the logic in this method of education? i have work, i have family responsibilities, i’m a really active member of my community and yet it feels like each time i think i’m doing the right thing with school, taking a balanced course load it just gets harder. i love to learn but school has been making me slowly despise it to the point where when my brother tries to come and tell me something new i just close my eyes and tell him i’m too tired or i don’t really care. the old me would have eaten and morsel of information you gave her, any rational concept you explained and now i just sit waiting empty the dust and dirt that’s sucked into my brian into the trash. speaking of not wanting to think i don’t even know if i can write which is normally what i go to when i’m stressed or anxious. tumblr is at the back of my mind and idk if it even makes sense for me to stay right now because with everything going on in my head and the fact that somehow i always seem to get interested in the things people want to talk about the least, i’m better off just appreciating media by myself (not on social media) and sharing on ao3 whenever i have enough energy. i need energy for fall and winter, prayers and love and warmth because as the days get colder and shorter i go more inward when i need to reach out. actually make friends, have lasting memories with the people around me and learn to appreciate them like i appreciate all the beautiful people i love who always seem to live in a different city than me even if it’s only an hour away.

this fall i want love. i want success. i want stability. i want clarity. peace of mind. serenity. contentment. certitude.

i want faith.

faith that i have the capacity to take a deep breath, look at life in the eye and say

I finally finished the 3rd chapter of rabidus! When I get home I will be formatting a banner for it, and posting it. It should be up by the end of the night!

Also, I feel like I should give my followers a cute name. Any ideas?

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I miss the days when people loved writing fanfiction because they loved writing fanfiction. I miss the days when we supported each other, the days when we didn’t try to tear each other down just because we could.