#milson

Some thoughts after watching the last four eps:

1. Octagon/I|ian was written like the worst fanfic I’ve ever read. I’m sorry. I really had high hopes for I|ian, but apparently he was just another MOC for her to abuse, and he accepted the abuse and tried to save her? *vomits* Even my husband, who’s not as invested in the show as I am, was literally groaning at the TV over them. Honestly, someone tell me what I|ian even got out of the relationship. I’ll wait.

2. Kane trying to be all fatherly with Bellamy again after literally telling Bellamy he didn’t (at that point in time) deserve to live in 4x01. Lmao. Bellamy: “You floated my mom.” GOOD FOR YOU, BELL.

3. Jasper Jordan LITERALLY being the only one trying to help Bellamy Blake in any real, tangible way gives me life. Jasper Jordan telling Bellamy Blake that he can’t change the past, but he CAN stop hating himself for it. Jasper Jordan getting Bellamy Blake to relax and enjoy himself, even if it’s just for one night. Bellamy Blake having the hardest fucking time saying goodbye to Jasper Jordan. I’M SOBBING.

4. JACKSON AND MILLER!!! Ever since 4x01 I have been down for them to become buddies, at least. We don’t see them that ep, but we’re told they’re working together. Then later, when the science gang arrives on the island, Miller inexplicably pairs himself off with Jackson when they split up. Sending Abby off with two untrained teenagers, while sending two trained guards whose names I can’t recall off together??? Like??? Miller or one of the other guards should have been with Abby, but whatevs. Then in DNR!!!! EEEEEEEE!!! MY DOCTOR SON WAS FLIRTING!!! AND MILLER SEEMED INTO IT!!! Honestly, if it was someone else, I might have been more bitter about Bryan (a small part of why I took a break from watching was Bryan’s disappearing act, in addition to constant Bell abuse and Octagon glorification), BUT JACKSON!!! I CAN’T!!! I HAVE HEADCANONED JACKSON AS GAY/QUEER SINCE S1, AND HAVE ALWAYS WRITTEN HIM THAT WAY!!! WHAT IS HAPPENING?!?!