#meth relapse

Hello today I just wanna die.

I found my boyfriend tried to do my homie dirty.

Nay I told muhfuggahs im loyal.

I stay true.

Don’t fuck with me.

I’ve been steady high lately.

Just gradual.

Everything feels like it’s falling back into place but idk how it all got so out of hand.

I’m starting to get clingy.

BACK UP BITCH!!!!! 😒😳😅

I just don’t know how to not be so extreme when it comes to my emotions, urges and bad habits.

Why does it feel like this is never ending?

I’m so fucking tired but I just want to stay fucked up.

I don’t think I really want to get clean anymore.

I don’t think I ever have.

I know that you could warm me up but I’m nervous.

It unlike my usual, aggressive need for human interaction.

Maybe I’m saving you from falling for someone like me, or maybe I’m terrified you’d reject me and I don’t wanna lose you.

I want to feel you, in all ways but I can’t.

I can’t hurt someone like you and it’ll hurt me to see you in a different light.

I’m coming down and I’m sick, sick and in pain.

I just want to die.

Fuckin burning out bud.

I don’t wanna fuckin miss you anymore.

I hate you, him and him and everyone fucking else who just made a debut than dipped.

You’re killing me with that sweet little mouth.

Thanks babe.