#messystudy

The MESS of studying. This was chemistry at my friend’s house. Last week and this week has been mental and intense: went on a really great but demanding debate trip and now I’m back and it’s finals week and I’ve BARELY REVISED. So it’s lets cram as much as we can into this brain of mine for the next week and a half.

1 • 100 days of productivity

28 | July

So this is going to be badly worded but here goes.

I love the studyblr community I’ve been following so many studyblr blogs for a while and wanted to start one myself, I’ve had this blog up for a couple months and wanted to make posts of my own notes but I came to realise that my notes aren’t like the notes I see on studyblrs.

I don’t have the same stationary, I can’t do calligraphy, my writing isn’t neat and I don’t use multiple colours. I felt insecure, felt that I wasn’t studying the right way, that I was doing something wrong.

So I tried harder, I would make an effort to write much neater during class and would get frustrated and even upset if I’d made a mistake or needed to cross something out as that meant the whole page was worthless. I leave the house and get home in darkness, I couldn’t take nice pictures as I couldn’t get the right lighting. Hell I wouldn’t even be ready to take a good picture during the day as I only finish my studying at 10-11pm.

I found I was getting less done and making little progress. My obsession with pretty study was creating a lack of actual study. As a result I haven’t been on studyblrs in a while, I’ve spent my time getting back on track and picking my grades up, I’ve dropped myself down a maths class, from advanced to general, as I failed both tests during this period (something that I was scared to do because I had this idea that everyone who is in the studyblr community should do advanced classes).

I want to run a studyblr still, but one that’s true to me. Sure there are people who can study effectively and keep it pretty, but most of the time, especially in highschool and uni while people are juggling work, school and a social life amoungst many other things people just need to get stuff done.

I want to find studyblrs that thrive on messy notes, who don’t have all the nice stationary or handwriting, who don’t have time for a bullet journal with full spreads and opt for a planner, sticky notes, or even the back of their hand as reminders instead. People who suffer from procrastination and get bad marks.

I want the raw reality of studying.

So if you run a messy studyblr, want to start one or even just want to follow one reblog this-lets find other people who love study, not just the aesthetic of it