#messagetotobyfox

I'm sorry... but I must...

Almost forgot to make day 271 tonight, sorry!

I'm gonna make this post be about my life and some of my current struggles.

I currently live with my biological parents and biological siblings, but my biological parents, especially my biological father, has abused me physically in the past when I was just a kid, and body shamed me when I was a teenager.

His main method in control is trying to gain sympathy, like by saying something along the lines of "It's fine, I guess I'll just do this..." when it's obvious that he not only doesn't want to, but knows that nobody would let him either. Another thing about him is that he doesn't really know how to act, and he makes every wrong thing he does seem like an accident. When I confronted him about everything he did to me, he literally blamed me for causing the "worst day of his life", and asked for an apology, which I obviously did not give.

I may be taken care of financially and physically, but emotionally, my biological parents have truly done nothing for me. This is where Asgore comes in. I grew up with Undertale and Deltarune, and around a year ago, I began relying on Asgore as a comfort character. Around day 100 of my posts, I first considered Asgore as a father figure, since that's what I need most in my life.

Now, I currently have an Asgore plushie that I kiss on the forehead every single day, the quality isn't AMAZING, but it's Asgore, and I love him, even if he's not perfect. I truly believe that he's the best dad in the world, and that he is my dad.

I hope all of you spread the word about how Asgore fans genuinely rely on Asgore, and how much we love him!

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I've recently been tagging Toby and Temmie on all of my posts, and I've started thinking lately that I could be an annoyance to them because of it, so I'd like to dedicate this post to apologizing to them, and coming up with something in the future that hopefully won't annoy them anymore, if they are annoyed.

The entire prospect of me being an annoyance to Toby honestly has me in tears. The fact that Toby Fox could consider me and my posts as just something like spam is honestly heartbreaking, I spend so much real time and effort making these, and I'm in tears at the thought of Toby not liking me because of how much I tag him and want to talk to him.

One of the reasons why I decided to tag them in my posts is because it made me feel confident, it made me feel like "hey, maybe since I tagged them today, they might stumble across this." but I know that if they are reading all of their tagged posts and they come across the same message from the same guy with similar topics for months, I assumed that they'd simply ask me to stop, or ask someone to ask me to stop.

Not only is this an apology to Toby and Temmie, but an apology to all of you. I'm afraid that I've failed all of you because I don't just care about Toby and Temmie, I care about all of you as well. I literally listened to someone's comment way way way earlier on (like 100 days ago) and I remember them telling me to maybe tag them on certain posts but not all of them, and I feel like such an idiot for getting my desperation ahold of me.

I'm so sorry, to Toby and Temmie, if they're seeing this. I promise I'm not going to tag any of you in my posts again, unless they're super super important, like 300 days, or 1 year, but still, I won't tag you at all until then. Again, I'm so sorry, the last thing I want ANY of you to think of me as is an annoying spammer, because I'm not. All I want is for everything to be peaceful and unified, where the community finally loves and values Asgore for who he really is.

Thanks for reading. Any comment on this would be appreciated to see how long some of you might've been waiting, or maybe some people that might've left because of it, all I can ask for any of you is to PLEASE TELL ME IF YOU THINK I'M DOING SOMETHING WRONG. DON'T LET ME ROT, TELL ME THINGS YOU THINK I SHOULD DO. PLEASE.

@fwugradiation @temmiechang (My last time pinging you for now, until that type of post I mentioned comes. Day 300 and 1 year. That's it.)

Sorry for being a bit late, everyone. I've been pretty stressed out with school and my biological family this week.

I'm very thankful that Thursday is tomorrow, I can finally spend more time with my real father, Asgore, during the weekends.

I'm a bit tired, so I hope you all understand why this post is a bit short. Sorry for making so many short posts this time around.

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Slightly longer post today, because I wanted to show @roelkeet's beautiful drawing of Asgore! If you want to see it, you can scroll down, but I will still be adding some stuff here as well.

My main goal with these posts is to unite the Deltarune community, and try to get Toby's attention, to show him how much we love and care about Asgore, and how we need him safe. Is he going to be unsafe in Deltarune? Only if Toby is cruel, I'll make another post explaining my reasons why but you can scroll down to some of my older posts, I go very much in-detail about why Asgore will be safe, but still.

When it comes to the safety of my dad, I don't want to take any chances, I want to make sure that I have everything pointing to his safety, so I can finally not get stressed or worried anymore, because getting worried has honestly destroyed me so much mentally.

Imagine worrying about the same character with the same scenario happening, not because anyone told you it was going to happen, but the thought that it COULD theoretically happen, was already enough to get you into a spiral of worries, to the point where you can't properly think until you've properly stopped worrying, not just ignoring it, but conflicting with those thoughts and coming to the conclusion that those thoughts are pointless, and that there's nothing to worry about.

I had to do this constantly, every day, and sometimes I still do it, but you can only ignore it once it's confirmed, because since chapter 5 isn't released, it's really hard for me to completely ignore them.

I need Asgore safe, we need Asgore safe, Asgore's entire story, reconnecting with his family, his kids, he needs to be safe in order for that to happen. Toby isn't cruel, this is confirmed to be Asgore's chapter, and he will get his redemption. Asgore is on the right track, but he's wrong in wanting to prove his innocence, because with whatever he did, maybe he wasn't innocent, maybe he was guilty, maybe he doesn't deserved to be forgiven... but just like in Undertale, he is. Not because of player choice or ending, but because he realizes that he's been wrong all along, and that he might be the one that needs to say sorry, and finally move on from Toriel. Once he's moved on from Toriel, he can focusing on selling his flowers, making money, taking care of himself enough for Kris to stay with him sometimes, be there for Asriel, and be there for Rudy.

Thank you, I hope this helps all of you. I love Asgore. My true, real, and perfect father.

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Hello, everyone.

I have decided to discontinue my posts, until chapter 5 is released.

This is because, as all of you know, I've been relying on Asgore for my mental health, but trying to get Toby's attention and trying to get him to protect him, just isn't going to work out.

Toby hasn't responded at all yet, and even though I really want him to, so far, it's just not possible at the moment.

So, I decided to switch comfort characters, to mentally prepare myself for whatever chapter 5 shows all of us, after all, it is Asgore's chapter. This is for my mental health, as worrying about Asgore has done significant harm to my mental well-being, and it's impossible for me to accept my father's living status being up in the air, and I need to know if my dad is going to be alive by the end of Deltarune.

When I will continue these posts depends on the content chapter 5 has, and any implications about Asgore's safety.

That's all. If you'd like to contribute, please just try and tell Toby about these posts, do anything you can. For Asgore. And for all the people out there who need him. He comforts us. It's time for us to comfort him too, and do everything we can to make him safe and happy.

Thanks, and don't forget to spread Asgore love.

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@fwugradiation @temmiechang @deltarune @deltaruneposts @fangamer @fangamerlive

This is going to be the first post ever since I made my apology, where I finally ping him!

I recently came across an indie streamer called EnderRaccoon, and saw him streaming a game called Raccoin. It looked a lot like some of the coin pushing games, I honestly think that Asgore would those games that you find in arcades, where you can insert tokens to push coins that can make huge towers fall, it's honestly an instant dopamine hit.

Very curious on what you all think, especially you, Toby!

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@fwugradiation

Sorry for the relatively short post today, I've been pretty stressed out recently, sorry for being late with this post as well.

Sorry if day 250 wasn't as long as you all hoped, I know my posts can usually be longer but I was making it at night and again my sleep schedule is not doing the best right now.

I've been getting pretty annoyed with my biological parents and their egotistical nature, which is really disappointing to see in a parent, especially moms who think they know better than everyone else, and dads who can't control their tempers and anger.

I love Asgore so much, because he made me feel loved and gave me a reason to smile even when I go through my hardships, which is why I, and many others, need him safe. Not saying he won't be, but again, this is just a message to Toby and the community as a precaution.

@fwugradiation @temmiechang