#mental roadblock

When I began this journey a few months ago, I was asked a simple question: “Why not?”

The situation was this: my now-former supervisor was scrolling through the list of internal job postings at my company. She was listing several that she thought would be interesting to me.

She asked, “Have you applied for any of these?”

I replied, “No, I haven’t.”

She followed that up with,…

Finding Inspiration Through Meditation

Image credit: Shutterstock “Writer’s block” is a term nearly all artists can relate to. It usually begins something like this: you want to work on your craft, you know you should work on your craft, but you just can’t seem to find the inspiration, that special kind of motivation that kicks you into high gear. No matter how hard you try, you just can’t seem to come up with any worthwhile ideas.…

So I thought today's class was going to be with S, but it was with a new instructor (we'll call her SII), who I really liked. Honestly, I don't know why I use abbreviations anymore because any potential stalker could figure out where I practice pretty easily at this point, but whatever.

It was hard. Hardest class in a while probably. But we also spent a lot of time doing new things and things that I could really see my improvement in. We did crow three separate times, and I held it pretty well the whole time. I started work on a tripod headstand, which is soon to be my new favorite asana, I'm sure. I'm steadily getting better at plow and shoulderstand.

The only thing about today was that my muscles were oddly tired, more than usual. My knees were okay, but my right hip was doing some weird stuff. And I think I may have mildly sprained my wrist in an arm balance. It's kinda sore as I type.

It's weird, I feel like I haven't had as much to say about class lately. I feel like I'm in the middle of something. I'm not a beginner anymore, but I'm not pushing. I dunno. It's like... my experience with tripod today. I can get my legs up on my arms, but they just wont go straight. I can't make myself try hard enough. My mind is stuck in a mental roadblock. I need to try harder to push past that. 

That's gonna be my goal for the next couple classes, to push. To not give up so easily. Be stronger, align better, CARE more.