it's always us man... if it's not a direct insult to us, it's an off handed slur or comment that can & has been used against us.
yes i understand he was talking about himself and korean is a contextual language and all that - but i've had korean friends and their parents in my real life talk about how outdated that term eunseok used is and how they avoid it because of how misconstrued it can get.
no i don't think eunseok is a raging racist, however having that word in his vocabulary does indeed show that his thought process is not much different from your average colorist in that country. it sucks, but hey there's so much history and societal norms over there that honestly theee isn't much we can do, especially as black people, but shake our heads.
eunseok was my bias for 2 years, and has always been one of my favorite members from debut. i've interacted with him (idol-to fan ofc, and once even as 'staff', lol) plenty of times irl, and i've never felt like he looked at or treated me or other black fans differently, but that lowkey just makes it worse bc bro did not care / was not thinking about what the rest of us would think reading that message 😭😭
that being said, i'm totally fine guys LMAO, thank you so much for reaching out and your sweet messages :( 💕 thankfully, i have NEVER put my own self worth or image into what these random korean strangers think or say. no matter how much i may love and support an idol, i will always love myself more. i hope the same goes for everyone reading this. but if you are hurt by this scenario, it's fully valid. i am so sorry and i'm here for u !!
i'm not gonna lie i do feel like eunseok is apologetic and meant no initial harm (knowing stupid straight men, he probably thought he could get away with it since he was only referring to himself 😐) but just because someone doesn't intend to harm, doesn't mean harm can't be done. like i'm just irritated atp.
dw i'm not going anywhere, and i will still write for riize (eunseok in jail indefinitely ofc), and i don't hate you if you accept or don't accept his apology. he NEEDS to get whooped a bit scrually lmaooo. just dont go defending colorism bc he's ur fav or whatever... we don't do all that glazing around here.
but anyways i just wanted to get all that off my chest lol love u guys !!
