Synopsis: you and Eren have been together for three years already hence why you talk to each other like besties instead of boyfriend and girlfriend. It’s giving, twin bitches:)
WARNINGS>< fem! Reader!, college boy Eren jeager, cursing, mentions of sex. Sexual interactions, insults, mentions of violence, mentions of eating out, reader is called mama a baby and love.
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authors note: m gonna write that stranger things skz au no tags list btw cause it’s a little short i didn’t know if people wanted to be
summary: req
warnings: short, anxiety & panic attacks, online harassment/cyberbullying, invasion of privacy, emotional distress, trainee/idol pressure, hiatus, READERS IDOL NAME IS I.X
Smile, conform, preform, repeat.
Smile, conform, preform, repeat.
Smile, conform, preform, repeat.
Day in day out, that’s what was drilled into you when you were a trainee, when chan found you, added you to his little group of kids trying to break through the barriers stage fright and anxiety had been infused into your very bones, hindering you from doing your best, between the panic attacks that nearly sent you to the ER and the intense stress put on you from staff a compromise was made, a mask you could wear for your performances, each one tailored for your different outfits and concepts.
It made you stand out in a way you were comfortable, an idol that doesn’t show his face? intriguing. It drew attention to your group, you specifically. Everyone was impressed by you, and moved by your reasoning for the mask. on the occasion yeah you did take off your mask, like that one time at the MAMA awards when you proved you sung live by taking it off as Chan and Minhos hands had covered what is usually unseen by the beady eyes of the world.
Yes it did scare the fuck out of you but you did disprove the lip sync rumours. nothing stays perfect for ever though.
One time in a SKZ CODE behind the scenes of your dance practice you had gone out of frame but just before you made it the sticker covering your face was gone, you were far enough to be blurry, obviously it was fixed as quick as it was brought up. but that didn’t matter screenshots and ai enhanced images immediately spread across social media. Majority of the people had tried to support you, reporting, telling others to respect you and your wishes many also praised what they could see.
The ones that really didn’t ease the situation were the ones that criticised you for what they could barely see. Cruel words about the way you looked, about how you didn’t fit the rest of the visuals, about how you’d bring down the group of you ever fully showed your face. Changbin had found you in the midst of a bad anxiety attack, tears streaming down your face as you showed him your phone, he didn’t know how to help, he just held you whispering words of love and affection to your as he did his best to calm you down, when you eventually fell asleep in his arms he called the company and a statement was put out effective immediately. A couple lawsuits for the particular bad posts had let this whole thing die down. But things just didn’t stop. You never really revealed a lot about your personal life other than your birthday.
Fans knew you as ‘I.X’ not your real name, didn’t know how many siblings you had, pets, nothing people deep dove into your life as much as they could, rumours of you being in witness protection, a chaebol, a member from another group. edited screenshots of you and snuck pictures made you feel uneasy, so uneasy in fact you took a small hiatus. But you came back you just had to deal with it, you always took precautions, your members definitely would not think twice before defending you and some part of that was comforting.
I'm currently out of the country on my first big holiday after quite a few years. So I'm excited!
Let's see if you can guess where I am... It's a beautiful country with super friendly people. The city I'm visiting has lots of cats walking around. The city had a lot of different names and even songs written about it. And... (this makes it quite obvious, I know) the city stretches over two different continents.
The challenge for my members is already up on Ko-fi!
Big shout-out as always to my lovely members: @rosegrl18, @ouilah, @idaofinfinity, @norbezjones, @inthewildyrness, @jewel-shard and all my other members!
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My throat hurts, so do my feet and my legs.. and my left arm feels a bit tense from dancing with my armybomb all night. I’m tired as f*ck.
None of that matters though, because I also feel so very happy. Last night was so amazing. I didn’t think it was possible for me to become an even bigger fan.. but it sure feels like it at the moment. It was AMAZING!
I already knew I loved the show from when I watched it on live streaming. But it doesn’t come close to what it’s like experiencing it in real life. The vibes! The sound! When I first saw the stage I literally gasped. It is massive! There’s probably not a bad seat in the whole stadium. I can so understand why they’d choose a 360 stage even if that’s probably more intense for them as artists. The standing floor also seemed so fun (plenty of open space to really dance). We had great seats, which allowed us to see them from quite close during the Idol walk, and overall our view was wonderful. It is ofcourse true that you can’t always see everything. When a member is on the other side, you can’t see them unless the camera’s show him, but I felt members did a great job splitting up so there’s always one or more of them around.
These men belong on that stage. They’re such amazing performers. All of them different, but they all know how to grab you. Namjoon is so impressive. I think I’d probably be a bit intimidated if I’d met him in person. I know he’s also a big softy and truly kind, but on stage he feels like such a force. Yoongi got the loudest screams. He’s more lowkey, but whenever it’s his turn he truly pops off. Jin is so cute and sweet and a menace. He’s so entertaining and I think for both members and army it’s so fun to have him around. Hobi 😅… that man is so on fire. He moves so well and he gives some looks that are truly blushworthy. Jm… so sexy! He dances his but off and has such nice interactions with fans. He handled the situation with the fainting fan so well.
Okay…. let me tell you… seeing Tae and Jk in real life was… OMG! Unreal. Nothing I will say will accurately describe them. I said this to Blue earlier and I’ll use the same description here… Jk is like a star from the sky personified. The way he moves, his VOICE, but also the absolute joy he has in performing.. my gosh! He has such nice interactions with fans and members. He’s just a joy to watch because you just know he’s doing what he loves… because he doesn’t really hide that joy to be cool or serious popstar like you know. And Tae 😩.. he’s the first member I spotted (we had a good view of where they came out). There’s no way I would have not loved him.. I mean, he’s my bias for a reason.. but still.. seeing him for real… wow. This man’s duality! He goes from super hot and fierce to sweet and funny in seconds. He takes such care to interact with army. And he understands so well what small gestures can mean. He’s a true vision to behold, both in beauty and in kindness and in the way he performs.
Can you guys tell I’m a bit starstruck 😂?
As for army.. as much as online army bugs me.. I really enjoy concert going army. There were such fun and energetic vibes during the show. Everyone sang along with every song. Everyone danced. People were kind and helpful when needed. It felt like we all were there to just have a great time.
As for Tae and Jk together… I wasn’t really there as a shipper. Obviously them being my biases makes me look at them more, but I truly felt overall member interactions were pretty even. It also didn’t feel forced or whatever some people may argue at times. My eyes being on Tae and Jk a lot.. ofcourse I did notice them being around each other often. Basically what I expected to see from them. Touches here and there, an arm over a shoulder, sitting really close during the ending mend. You can tell they have such fun together.. and that they also just like to share these moments by tiny gestures and looks.
In a way it was as I expected.. but leveled up. I knew I would have the best time.. but this actually exceeded my expectations. Sigh… if only I was able to turn back time a bit 😊.
My phone is slowly dying on me, so I was saving battery and therefore I don’t have many pictures to post, and in most of my videos you can hear me sing along.. which nobody really wants to hear 😂. This pic is them walking off stage during into the sun… while my mind was going: ‘nooo, don’t gooo!’.
