#melancholy-thoughts

Amongst other things

But right now I just keep thinking about how I can't watch a movie with everyone AGAIN this Saturday because I'm going to SF all day/night.

And I really really really really miss everyone =/

I also miss being able to eat without making sure that what I'm eating will make me healthier or more normal.

I hate eating McDonalds and feeling so accomplished, only to get on the scale and see that I'm getting worse.

Chris, Alex, and Alexus brought my McDonalds today because I was dying during lunch but had the workshop to do. So after dance, I just sat down and ate.

And then I missed all of the singing.

The Vocal Director contacted me wondering where I was and I felt so touched(: Because I had the feeling that she wasn't liking me very much this year. But the fact that she checked up on me and wanted to make sure that I was still auditioning meant a whole lot to me, even though it probably wouldn't mean much to others.

I'm just so tired now. Not enough food=no energy=restless nights=sleep in class=get raped during finals because you're not awake half of the time=parents commit murder=death.

Woke up  at 7:20 to get ready to go help out at Ellen's mom's chorus' annual Jingle Bell Tea.

Adam and I ran a little late and didn't get there till about 8:30 and then when we got there we immediately started to bring stuff into the building to set up.

Cindy and Jeanette had gotten there a bit before us and were making sandwiches and plating the dry foods.

So Adam and I did odd jobs for about two or three hours. We brought stuff in form cars, we set up a sign, we decorated the risers, we plated food, we assembled a hippo hahaha.

Some of the ladies would come up and guess our voice part and it was SO cool, because good grief this is a group of AMAZING ladies<3

They always guessed that Adam was a bass and we would laugh and say not at school, no haha.

And then one lady asked of I was an alto and I laughed and shook my head and she was like soprano two? And I shook my head again and told her I sang S1 at school. And she looked at me and told me that I was speaking too low for someone who sings S1 and had me sing happy birthday, which I ALWAYS start low and she was like yup, you're in the wrong part hahaha.

It was weird because I only get to sing alto at church where they need altos who can read music and hold harmonies LOL. Everywhere else I'm put into soprano.

Adam and I got SOOOO OCD when plating the food. The order, form right to left, was cream puff, lacey, shortbread, ginger bread. And the Ghiradelli (Sp?) in the middle of it all(Because they're all in an arc) And then from right to left, Cucumber cream cheese and which on white bread(SOOOO GOOD<3) with the small end of the triangle touching the cream puff, pointy corner facing in, then egg salad croissant, then salmon roll, then chicken salad sandwich on whole wheat bread with the corner pointing out and the pointy end facing the cookies. The mint was on top of the middle of the cookies above the chocolate

Had to be like that

No excuses. 

LOL

Then Vivian came and she was JUST as OCD as Adam and I so it worked out PERFECTLY

We ate sooooo much. I had about 4 hot chocolates, 4 white bread sandwiches, 3 croissants, 3 whole wheat sandwiches, and some cookies. 

I also got to serve little kids hot chocolate and it was SOOOO fun. They were all insanely cute.

Finally Ellen showed up and we were already done plating and everything. And it was the beginning of the second show and so we were just hanging out, she was eating her food, I was eating some more LOL. Adam was laughing at my consuming of so many sandwiches. And then we cleaned up when they were all done and then left around 5:45.

We only sat about 15-20 minutes total all day.

We were there for over 9 hours.

Worth every second.

The chorus and quartets were simply amazing and I am so awed by them. And I'm so so so honored to be able to say that a few of them invited me to sing with them on Tuesday nights(:

And then Vivian and I are for sure going to the workshop in January...well at least me HAHA. We don't know if Vivian is going yet, but I'm already SO excited.

Finally god home, showered, and now my feet hurt SOOO bad. I almost went ice skating with Ben, Brian, and other people, but now I'm glad we didn't because my feet wouldn't have held up too well haha

Woke up early and went to the dentist to get my semi-annual teeth cleaning session and then got TapEx right afterwards LOL.

And then walked over to the best Pho restaurant ever with Anna and Martin and we ordered the biggest bowls knowing that I was the only one with cash LOOOL But then my mom realized that we were trying to call her and showed up with my dad and then they paid so it was all good. I really tried to finish the whole bowl alone but I was dying. I don't even think I finished half LOL Anna helped me out after she ate her portion of rice.....yeah...

Got home and napped for about 2 hours (: And then woke up and showered. I FINALLY took my giant hair clip with me into the bathroom so I could clip my hair up after conditioning to keep it together and away form water as I washed my face and body. And my hair came out super nice again<3 Loooooove it.

Taylor came around 5:30ish bringing Starbucks<333333 And we jammed till about 6:30. I love singing with Taylor so much.

Chai and Tarick then arrived and we waited and jammed a little more while Chai ordered her new toys. SO EXCITED FOR THEM TO COME IN!!!! :D

Brian came just as we were starting Super 8 and I was freaking myself out the whole time because I didn't know what kind of movie it was at all. Ben Came like an hour and a half into the movie LOL We crash coursed him real fast. At one point I legitimately shrieked like no other because they looked to the side and saw the Sheriff's face right next to them, his body hung by his feet. It was awful. I screamed a bit at the start of the movie when the man we thought was dead really wasn't.

Afterwards, Taylor, Christine, and Tarick left and it was just me, Brian, and Ben and we were going to watch Moulin Rouge but then we decided to go get food instead. And then instead of food we went to Ben's house LOL. And then CC, Hayley, Sunil, Patrick, Anna, Kevin, Karen, and Vi all ended up there too! We made s'mores and it was really fun. Not 3 minutes after me telling everyone about how I read an article about how if you don't understand sarcasm at a young age, you might have a brain disease and I can't understand sarcasm, Sunil was saying how Harvard's mascot was the Crimson Chin but Patrick and CC didn't know what that was and I was like FROM THE FAIRLY ODD PARENTS?! And I was really excited and then I found out he was being sarcastic....

And then Hamilton comes home and a REALLY tall black guy is behind him and I'm like O.O why? And he plops down and starts making s'mores and saying how he doesn't make them ever because it's white people food and I'm cracking up now. And then later he was saying how we shouldn't go camping because it'll rain and you'll be stuck in one tent with 6 people that you don't even know and how we shouldn't join frats and all this stuff.

And then my mom called and wanted me home and so Vi offered to take me home which was super nice because he had JUST taken Brian somewhere not 10 minutes before. So as we were leaving the house he was saying how I had to feed him his s'more while he drove, because you have to eat those hot. And I was kidding and saying how I could drive instead and he was like okay! And I'm like O.O what?

And then he ended up getting into the driver's seat so I'm like okay whatever and then he like remembered that I could drive and got out and had me drive instead LOOOOL I had to promise to be suuuuuper careful, though. It was kind of hard to drive because I was so short and the seat wasn't high enough and the gas and breaks had a weird kind of resistance, but I got us home safe and sound. He told me I was a really cautious driver LOOOOL can't say I disagree, though.

Taylor is coming over in less than 2 hours and then in less than 3 hours movie night is gonna commence!! 

I'm SO excited(: I haven't seen these guys (Other than Taylor) in too long and I've really missed them.

LOL The other day my mom realized that none of my regular movie night buddies even go to school with me anymore and she told me to get new friends. But NOOOOO (:

My non regulars are my school friends who see me too much<3

But I did watch the play....does that count?

Well I didn't watch it with any of the people I watch movies with sooooooooo

I'm going to go 14 days without seeing some of my movie night regulars =[

IT'S SO WEIRD

Let's not do this again, guys. Let's just all finally and publicly agree right now that unless we all agree to temporary change, that we, quoting Taylor, "...all agree to not have lives so we can have this movie night"

Another super fun movie night.

This weekly tradition is seriously something that I hella look forward to, nowadays.

Chai and Brian came early and while he did homework, we did our nails. And then we tried to cover Dare You to Move, but then everyone else came and it didn't happen. LOL SOOOOOON

Watched Lion King and this was the first time in my entire life that I did not cry. I felt so heartless, but in all honesty, it was because everyone who watched with me was so funny and happy that I wasn't even focused on the movie.

Chai cried a little bit, though. I don't know how she was concentrated enough on it to cry but she did.

Halfway through Chai left D:

And then after Lion King, Michelle and Brendan both had to go.

So we popped in Aladdin and Brian secured permission to stay, and then instead of watching it, we all went to In N Out LOL

And then we all went home and just jammed and hung out and it was really fun(:

And as everyone left, they kept coming back to retrieve forgotten stuff and I found it so funny hahaha.

But yeah, good night.