#mehr.

i think i've finally figured out the look you gave me. for the longest time i tried to figure out what it was. it wasn't sad or happy or something i'd seen often from you. i'm pretty sure it can be summed up in one word: vulnerability. i don't know. but. it was the only thing i could think of.

staying positive is really difficult when you can't exactly have a way of "measuring" your progress. when you clean your room or you get better grades or make more money, you can see the progress. but something like this takes alot of time and alot of effort and you don't even know how its really coming along.

i kinda want to make lists of movies and tv shows i want to see, then books i want to read. then maybe i'll move on to things like places i'd like to go. i need to work on WHO i am as well as what i want to do with my life.

i now have a book i want to read and now i'm trying to decide on a song i want to learn. i'm trying to find things that'll actually be good for me instead of sitting around watching re-runs of the same shows and playing video games all the time (its good to do sometimes, but i want to do other things too :D)