#meggan java

Cinnamon got nervous when his boss locked the apartment door, but assumed because it was night, obviously he wouldn't want it unlocked so intruders couldn't get inside. But it also meant Cinnamon couldn't escape when he needed to. He became more uncomfortable the closer his boss got to him, continuing to say things about how good he was doing and that he wished that he had met him sooner. Cinnamon started trying to put space between them when he saw him reaching into his pockets for something, and that's when his boss grabbed him. Cinnamon bit, kicked, clawed, whatever he could, but when he found his voice to scream, his boss him in the face with the knife he had been pulling out, and told him to be quiet and make it easier for both of them, holding the blade near Cinnamon's throat. So, he shut up, trembling, but he shut his mouth. And that caused the existence of his son, who the hospital coincidentally named Spice, the name of Cinnamon's father. He didn't get to hold him, or see him, or name him himself since there was no 'man' in the family and they didn't want him getting attached. He was left pleading for hours until they eventually kicked him out. He kicked himself for even trusting the hospital, but also told himself he would've been a terrible parent anyways. And he would also expand that to not being a worthy or good enough partner. He would go on to have sexual flicks with people as a small sidejob, who he couldn't understand why they wanted him that bad anyways, especially after transitioning, but he'd get paid so he didn't care, even if it made him uncomfortable and sometimes scared. Though, eventually, he met someone at the bar (not the same one his old boss was from) who was happy just talking with him, which was Brandie. It confused Cinnamon, and even incited a fear deep inside of him from previous events. He figured people were only nice if they wanted something, that's how it had been in his experience the past few years. But Brandie just talked his head off about random things- partially from being drunk and just flapping his lips, but because he also wanted to know Cinnamon, since he was just sitting alone before he came to talk to him. Better explained here So things lead to another, and they end up having an unofficial wedding just between the two of them, very quietly. Cinnamon settles into his job as a conservationist and as a way to have closure, he decides the last time he would have sex, would be so he and Brandie could have their daughter, Meggan, so that she's a good thing coming from a fear. Cinnamon eventually meets his son, and after breaking down a bit, tells him that if he needs somewhere safe to stay, he's always welcome.