#meeeeehhhh

I think I’ve come to decision that I’m going to take a gap year, take a year off of school. I barely got through this year, my brother was supposed to come with me but that plan changed, and I’m running on fumes right now. 

I haven’t attended one class of carpentry class. :/ I’ve been staying up all night and sleeping all day. Dx So I feel really horrible and guilty. XD

Plus, I can’t leave my brothers with my mom for another year again. My younger brother graduates next year, so hopefully he leaves and goes to school.

My older brother, though, can’t leave until I become his guardian and it sucks.

We’re just getting tired of my mom’s constant drinking and her placing her friends above us. It honestly feels like she cares more about her friends than her own kids. :/

My mental health isn’t even going to change, the only difference will be is that I won’t be as stressed as I am right now. 

Not so fun fact, somewhere in that time and I hope it was not during that time then rather when I was riding my bike home, my pants spilt. And I didn’t notice until I was at my parents place.

Which means I went home on my bike got into the car, drove to my parents so I can water the plants and at the moment where o was walking form the car to the flat I really felt and saw it.