#medication t

and this time im just straight up not filling them out because they’re uh Inaccurate and hard for someone who has emotional impermanence (i forget every emotion except the one that im feeling at the time basically) and also??? im not going in for anxiety/depression??? i want some kind of mood stabalizer for my BPD mood swings??? like the way im suicidal or shit is not the same as if i were to have only depression or only anxiety.

it can definitely impact your libido, i’m not sure if it could cause the disorder as a whole but again i’m not a doctor and if anyone has any resources on this feel free to link them!

i applied to a job at an archival company, i dunno if i’ll get it but my mom is friends with one of the employees and she helped me with my resume and cover letter so even if i don’t get it my resume is super beefy now 

i’ve started posting more art (mostly on furaffinity aha) and have gotten a couple of commissions; it’s not something i think i can make a career from but people paying money for my art is a good feeling. i’m also working more on developing my own characters (i have a fursona now. they’re a hyena. g is insisting everyone in the system should have a fursona)

i’m hopefully gonna be getting my driving permit in the next few weeks; hanging with ari irl made me realize how Freeing being able to drive is and i really want that freedom because frankly public transport in my city is terrible. 

i’m gonna be moving to a bigger apartment soon and there’s one i’m really hoping i get; it’s in a part of the city i like, right near the lgbt coffee shop. there’s a bedroom in the back of the house that the apartment is in that looks out on the backyard and that’s where i’d be living if we get it

adderall is helping with basic life functioning but tbh so is weed; ptsd is going to be a qualifying condition for medical in the state of ny soon so i’m gonna get a card hopefully once that happens