Fuck Pulcinella, I was a traumatized kid who just went through actual hell and the last thing I needed was to be dragged to the fatui, I needed therapy, not to be a child soldier, I didn't need you to hold my family over my head like blackmail to make me your obediant fucking attack dog.
I needed a hug and therapy, not to be used as a machine soley meant to kill, I was a kid who wasn't even 13 yet, I was a harbinger before 17, I needed to be held and told it was okay and that things would get better.
Fuck you too, Zhongli, for lying to me, using me up and tossing me to the side when I no longer was of use, fuck you for treating me like a disposable toy.
The only harbingers who recognized that, y'know, making a child soldier into a harbinger was bad, was somehow fucking La Signora and Pantalone, Pantalone openly didn't want me to be a harbinger because he knew it would only break me further.
I watched my entire squad be slaughtered at the hands of Diluc, I had to live with two dead visions and a dead delusion in my top left dresser drawer, a reminder I wasn't allowed to have nice things.
-Ajax, tag as fictive, #meanlikeabaddog
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