healing touch
'between certainties and doubts' installment & part of the mean!remus agenda, aka a moment from a terrifyingly convoluted teenage situationship between remus lupin and an unidentified Hogwarts student (x fem!reader) wc: 2k a/n: thereâs a lot of him that needs healing, but remus has got to start somewhere. MDNI! this is very much touchy-feely smut, protected p in v, cockwarming⊠feel free to send requests for them!
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Itâs the sound of the front door rattling off the hinges that wakes Remus from his nap on the couch. Rain is pouring down in heavy sheets outsideâfalling against the downspout like strikes of lightning.
And then youâre coming through the threshold of his house in a vision of white light, backlit with the sounds of roaring thunder. He rubs at his eyes slowly to see a much better ending to the romcom he fell asleep to earlier. Toeing off your rainboots and shaking your umbrella off in the foyer, you see heâs nestled against his motherâs throw pillows with the TV casting a glow over his tired faceâthe only light in the dark room.
âHey,â you coo, shuffling onto the worn carpet that looks like itâs seen better days. Rainwater drips down your face and he blinks up at you because for a moment he finds himself worried that youâre a dream heâs about to wake up from.
âYouâre soaked, lovie,â he slurs, voice scratchy with sleep, âTold you not to come up here in this weather.â But still, he tugs at the denim thatâs stuck to your body like a coat of paint, the damp seeping through the new cracks in his skin thatâs bandaged poorly. It hurts to touch you, but he doesnât falter, not even for a second.
âIt was barely a ten minute walk up the hill, Rem. Wanted to see you,â you mutter, caging your legs over him, afraid of being too much for him to hold onto in his moment of respite, âyour mum feeling better? She upstairs?â
He pulls you onto his lap in an effort to warm you up.Â
âAt work. Been too long without you,â he mumbles, nuzzling into your touch when you brush his hair out of his eyes.Â
âIt was only three days, baby. Care for a cuddle?âÂ
You press soft kisses along his jaw until his lips chase after yours, lazy but with intention. He mutters against your lips incoherently, half sleep and half desire, âWant more than a cuddle, lovely girl.â
You gasp, pretending to be scandalized, then laughing at the grin that grows on Remusâs face, âBut Iâm all wet!â
âNâthat the point?â
You smack his face lightly and he closes his eyes and massages your hips, trying to memorize every bump and curve. Remus opens them again when you start to stand up.
âGonna change. Iâm stealing your clothes.â
âGonna take âem off anyway, silly thing,â he smiles, throwing an arm over his eyes at the flash of lightning that comes through the window. He hears you scoff, and then youâre on your feet, slinging your bag over your shoulder and walk off. Remus listens to you move through his house like itâs your own. His mind wanders in the short moments that youâre goneâthe sound of a jar hitting the kitchen table, soft pads of your feet going up the stairs, and the creak of his bedroom door. The familiarity you have with his home is as close as it gets to the real thing, he thinks.
And without meaning to, he basks in it, just for a short while.
Trying not to doze off, his brain spirals into thoughts of youâhow thisâŠthing would be if it were anymore real than this. The idea is fleeting, but like chasing smoke it comes and goes, without his permission. All he can do is lay there and take the blow. Blinking at the shifting weight on the couch, youâve come back down the steps in a ratty t-shirt of his and not much else. He smiles, looking surprised even though he was already expecting you.
Remus groans as you settle upon his lap and every bone in his body is aching right now---but he won't dare push you away. He'll gladly carry the weight, and he does, his fingers grasping as much skin of yours that he canâthumbing through the softest parts of your thighs and traveling up past the seat of your underwear, squeezing the flesh of your ass and tugging you where he aches most, now hard and filled with the need for you to kiss him better.
âSo now youâre awake, huh?â
âSâlike being brought back to life. Câmere,â the sound of his voice comes out muffled as heâs plopped his face between your clothed tits and takes a deep breath of you through worn cotton.
âYou sure about this?â
A small foil wrapper is dangling between your fingertips like a prize, swinging in his view like a pendulum of pent up desireâhe kisses the hand that holds it, and then nods, âThink it might cure me, actually.â Thereâs a mischievous grin on your boyâs face nowârevitalized just by having you here and your heart skips an extra beat.
Looking at him closely, thereâs a new scratch on his cheek about the size of your palm. When you graze it, he grimaces.
âWhat happened here?â
Remus is already pushing down his joggers and shrugs his shoulders like it doesnât matter to him anymore. His cock is standing upright, a single bead of precum leaking onto the shaft and trailing down the vein that covers it. Thereâs much more interest in how heavy it feels resting against your stomach and the idea of fitting so snugly within you is on the forefront of his mind.
âNicked myself with mumâs garden shears. Tried to fix the trellis out back while she was sick,â Remus mutters. His thick lashes hide the green of his eyes that look anywhere other than your face right now, bandaged hands scrunching up the shirt that adorns your body, to focus on now instead of his few days without you.
âAnd this?â
Your hips are moving slowly over his cock, moisture from your underwear slicking up the sides and he shudders, eyes fluttering back open when you grasp his chin. Your other hand is holding his poorly bandaged one, pressing soft lips against his injured skin.
âUhâŠHad aâŠâ he swallows dryly, âduel against a carrot for the stew a few nights ago. Got me good.â
âWho won?âÂ
The deadpan expression he gives you is your answer, and he reaches around to smack your ass.
âClumsy boy. Mustâve been a nightmare growing up.â
Remus laughs stiffly, only remembering how to breathe after he feels your fingers roll the condom onto his cock. Your movements are languid like falling sand in an hourglass. Pulling your panties aside, your eyes lock onto his, shifting slowly like you have all the time in the worldâeverything else doesnât matter when youâre here. Not the full moon, not the uncertain future; he has you in his hold and Remus doesnât feel so empty for once. Sinking onto him, neither do youâthe friction beckons him to fill you up in the way that only he can, in the way that only he has.
You are his.Â
This is a fact that neither of you want to admit, for very different reasonsâbut as you begin to rock back and forth on his length, bucking your hips to feel all of him, it feels like an unspoken agreement. It doesnât need words, though if you could find them, they come out in hushed sighs and tender touches. A caress of your breast, and you leaning down to let him cage yourself against his chest. You kiss it through his shirt, damp with sweat as he hugs you close.Â
His heartbeat pulses under the touch of your lips. This isnât lust anymore, this isâŠ
âMy loveâŠmy lovely girlâŠâ he gasps, finding the strength to plant his feet onto the couch cushion that is swallowing you both the more you move.
âRemâŠmmh! Yes!â
Heâs thrusting up into your sopping hole, the squelch proving to be music to his ears. Youâre gripping onto his biceps, leaving marks of your own on his skin, the ones left by the moon long forgotten.
âSo good to meâŠWant to be with you all the time.â
Remus is needier than usual, more candid in the way the words slip off his tongue. You groan into his neck, hips stuttering over his and the discord of your effortsâthe feeling of you both crashing into that crest has your eyes rolling to the back of your head.
âYou like it when I take care of you?âÂ
The words come out in a whine, sending shockwaves to his brain and he canât do anything but hang on to the base of your scalp to see your face. He canât do without looking at you anymoreâcanât forget you now that he has you. Thereâs a white hot sensation that runs through his core the more he buries himself into you, and it almost feels like he could walk to the ends of the earth despite it being a day after the full moon.
Remus would do anythingâespecially since you feel this good.
âThatâs my girl, thatâs itâŠâ he huffs, rubbing your back as you convulse. Your pussy tightens dramatically as you come down from the high; watching your pleasure makes him spill into the condom with a final groan.
Life resumes again when you open your eyes and push up on his chest.
âFeel better?â
The both of you start laughing like this is normalâperhaps for the both of you it is. Propping yourself onto your knees, you almost topple back onto him when he doesnât let go of your waist.
âWaitâŠâ he whispers, closing his eyes. Birds chirp outside the window and you notice the rain finally stopped. âYou okay? Too much?â
Itâs inexplicable to him how happy heâs been since you came into his life this summer and much more confusing to him that you havenât left. Here you are, sat on his softening cock, and still looking at him with such care that canât be labelled. Itâd be a dishonor to you if he gets it wrong, he thinks, and this canât last forever, but for nowâŠ
âStay a bit longer.â
His hands press down on your back so you can lay on his chest, and with it comes a kiss that fills you with something much deeper than how he is now. You want to hold onto this and everything that comes with Remus Lupin for as long as you can.
Later, Mrs. Lupin opens the door to see you both asleep on the couch and tucked under a blanket. The sound of an opening window makes you stir.
âSorry to wake you dear, want to stay for dinner?â
Nodding sleepily, you get up from the couch with a smile. She recognizes her sonâs joggers tied tight around your hips and the t shirt he got from when she dragged him to volunteer at church.
âGlad youâre feeling better! Left some tiger balm on the kitchen table for you to not feel sore,â you say through a yawn. Squeezing you into a hug, she tosses a throw pillow at her son, who groans and rubs at his eyes. When youâre in the bathroom, they speak in hushed tones.
âRemus John, I swear to God if you get her pregnantââ
âMam! No, notââ he pinches the bridge of his nose, âWeâreâŠsafe.â The look of relief on the older womanâs face is her response. Turning to pull ingredients from the fridge, she continues, âIs she your girlfriend now?â
Her son shrugs, taking a seat at the kitchen table, âSomething like that. Probably a bad idea,â he mumbles. Hope hits him with a towel, the thwack against his arm making him wince, âAnd why is that? I like her for you!â The sound of the toilet flushing down the hall makes them pause, and Remusâs fists clench uncomfortably. The reality is that he doesnât have to say anything for his mother to understand, and thereâs a weight in the silence that follows.Â
Remus grabs the tin of salve you left on the table and opens it with care. Thereâs a lot of him that needs healing.
He has to start somewhere.
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