there’s a term for this, but i forget- it’s the way we tend to hate any recorded versions of ourselves. the way my voice doesn’t sound like mine when i hear it in a video. the way we shift away from our reflections. i imagine this might be related to why we tend to hate people who are similar to ourselves.
anyways. i hate my writing style. it’s repetitive. flowy. dreamy. it doesn’t sound like it’s hitting any reality, much less speaking the truth. there is something dishonest about the way i write, and it frustrates me. of course my writing would include excessive description, of course it would feature a lack of brevity and a love of commas.
but. it is my voice. and although i hate the way my voice sounds when it’s recorded, i sing anyways.
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i don't know any other way | trami n.
