#mcspock

sometimes i think about how my nonbinary friends prefer being misgendered the way thats not their originally assigned pronouns. because at least its a different sort of wrong than the one they’ve been stuck with every day before finding themselves.

right now im thinking about how spock just wants something different, hes too vulcan for humans and hes too human for vulcans but hes been too human for vulcans his whole life and by being a green-blooded, pointy-eared alien on a ship, surrounded by humans and even openly racist humans who call him slurs-AHEM AHEM mccoy looking at you COUGH COUGH— at least his vulcan side is being acknowledged and belittled instead of his human side.

sometimes i think spock intentionally eggs mccoy on at times, his usage of logic that makes mccoy feel small, although i dont think spock means to make mccoy feel small i do think that he recognizes certain actions trigger mccoy’s hatred for vulcans. i think it does something for spock. hed rather be a vulcan and deemed cold and logical and unfeeling and called slurs by humans than be viewed a human by vulcans and deemed emotional and weak because thats what his whole life has been spent experiencing.

i think kirk plays a beautiful role in his complicated feelings about his heritage. kirk is accepting of spock and how his brain works and his half-human and half-vulcan ness in ways nobody else on the enterprise is. you see kirk in a lot of ways not categorize spock into a species binary the same way others do, you see him know that spock is emotional, and know that spocks logic and cold clinical demeanor is a mask, and even play with it at times, smiling when the mask falters.

yet simultaneously kirk is gentle with him, he doesnt push spock when it matters. when he knows it would be too far in any manner. sure, kirk is human and gets angry at spock’s detached nature- but i think that that anger is just as much about kirk knowing its a mask that hurts spock, a mask that spock refuses to let go, as it is about the behavior itself. kirk allows spock to be spock, human and vulcan, and doesnt point out or make jabs at him like mccoy does, he smiles and asks teasing questions to try and tell spock “you’re safe with me.”

you even see when spocks parents come on board and disrespect spock, kirk stands up for him without even knowing those are spocks parents, he talks back when they dare insult his *first officer* because how dare they? that science officer is my malewife ill have you know, you stuck up vulcan guests.

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SHIPS MENTIONED:

AziraCrow - Good Omens

Klance - Voltron Legendary Defender

JayVik - Arcane: League of Legends

Lokius - Marvel's Loki Series

IronStrange - Marvel Cinematic Universe

CaitVi - Arcane: League of Legends

Mellora - Arcane: League of Legends

Polytrix - Kpop Demon Hunters

SakuAoi - Danganronpa: Trigger Happy Havoc

Ishimondo - Danganronpa: Trigger Happy Havoc

Trobed - Community

DaiSuga - Haikyuu!!

BokuAka - Haikyuu!!

GhostWidow - Marvel Cinematic Universe

McSpock - Star Trek: The Original Series

SamFro - The Lord of the Rings

GentleBeard - Our Flag Means Death

It is a desperate need and I can't really search for anything where it happens since it's usually untagged, I'm not sure there even is a tag for it, but I want something where James or McCoy kiss Spock using their hands and it's Spock's preferred method to kiss with their hands it's just so romantic and good you don't get it :']