Finally worked up the nerve to contact my university about the possibility of setting up accommodations for take-home exams. Namely, making them *not* take-home and instead taken at a scheduled time at the testing center under supervision, please. It’ll be more complicated than that, but I offered some suggestions that are hopefully reasonable!
I don’t even know if it’ll be relevant? I might not end up taking a single other take-home exam before I graduate. I’ve only had like three in the past four and a half years. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
But heck if I’m going to risk going through this on my own again, if I can help it.
Especially when I am apparently at risk of literally forgetting to do the exam when left to my own devices.
I mean seriously, I thought worrying about that possibility was just anxiety blowing what-ifs out of proportion but APPARENTLY NOT
/huffs
Anyway. If it was just the forgetting thing I might have brushed it off, I’m sure that’s happened to other folk.
But it’s also that talking myself into doing (long-answer) take home exams is like pulling teeth, forcing myself to keep working on them once I’ve started is also like pulling teeth, and even when I am somehow focusing I spend way more time and effort on my answers than I suspect (hope) the professors ever intended. Plus the fact that I feel 10 times more anxious about the whole thing than I ever feel about regular exams, because it feels too much like writing a paper and writing papers has gotten Bad these days.
....mmmyes.
Anyway.
That’s tonight’s vent / celebration of my choice to finally ask for help. :’)
