#maytreya

Like a song on replay.

I can’t get out of my head

I can’t control this miss.

White noise clears my mind

Ou my of the fog that clouded my sight.

Yet I still can’t see

What path is in front of me.

I need guidance

Love seems to escape through my eyes

Fear is invading me, controlling every cell of me.

My body doesn’t feel mine.

Nothing feels real

I look at my hands, I can see them moving overt the keyboard

Making up words as my mind rushes through those dark thoughts.

Yet I can’t seem to understand who i am.

I never did. And I might never will.

I could tear my body apart just to feel alive

But will that ever happen?

Will I ever feel something?

My brain is paralysed now,

My eyes can’t focus

My fingers type through the motions.

Who are we?

Do we really exist?

Who cares about the body?

But no one’s born with power to see souls

We can only perceive the liveliness inside of a body.

Can we ever truly see someone?

We’re ethereal.

We’re everything.

We’re nothing at all.

 Rules: Tag nine users you want to get to know better

1.How old are you? 30.

2. Current Job? Técnico de soporte que escribe manuales de esos que la gente no se lee y testea cosas amateurísticamente. Un poc de tot.

3. Dream job? Lo mismo que me dedico a hacer, la mitad de tiempo, cobrando el doble (jaJAJa).

4 . What are you talented at? Se me da excepcionalmente bien dibujar chorradas grandes como un piano.

5. What is a big goal you are working towards/ have already achieved?

He alcanzado El Chabolo y La Labor, for now. Mi siguiente meta es que Todo Puede Mejorar. También, no hay que olvidar que Yo Me Estaba Sacando El Carné De Conducir.

6. What’s your aesthetic?

Oscila entre “voy al trabajo, soy medio normal y paso desapercibida” y “mira qué CAMISETA FRIKI me he comprado”. Necesito más helegansia.

7. Do you collect anything? Creo que ya no, CREO, BUT tengo mala memoria.

8. What is a topic you always bring up in a conversation? Diría que de un tiempo a esta parte se me nota feminista.

9. What’s a pet peeve of yours? Psss yo qué sé. A veces lo que molesta es la insistencia.

(Y a veces lo que me molesta es no tener el controooollllll...).

10. Good advice to give? A menudo está bien hacer una pausa antes de preguntar, reaccionar o hablar. Muchas veces encontrarás respuestas tú mismo sin necesidad de pronunciar palabra.

Also: un pensamiento genera una emoción, una emoción genera una conducta. Cuida lo que piensas de ti.

11. Recommend three songs:

Uy lo que m’ha disho.

bôa - Older

Crystal Castles - Baptism

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That insane moment of courage

That burst of happiness that arises from the bottom of your heart

Exploding, freeing you

Making you feel you’re not alone

Making you feel you’re strong enough

To overcome whatever challenge that challenges you

That haunts you over the nights

I want to say goodbye, to those moments of irreverent stupidity

I want to say goodbye to the past

Free myself from the chains of fear that tangled me over the years

I haven’t still found myself, but I know I will

My will is my power, it is what makes us move on

That insane moment of courage to fight yourself 

Fight your mirror self, that puppet, that lie that you’re supposed to be. 

That moving machinery that is not you, it’s only a face, a body, but you’re something else. 

You are human, you are a universe collapsing and expanding inside your veins. Searching in the darkness of the abyss for more space. 

Not scared to face the unknown. 

Not scared to face what you already know.

That insane moment of courage that leads you to a better place, a better self. 

Never to lose the faith, never to lose your wit 

Maytreya - Jo Blankenburg