#mayitbeso

I feel like I’m talking to you somehow. If only I had you next to me. The man in my dreams. Never have I ever been plagued by a person in my sleep. I’ve had many premonitions, but never seemed to have a life with one specific person. Not just anyone either. It’s the man who stared me in the eyes when I caught him looking, and made me his in a simple glance. The man who stood before me a couple times. The man who smells like heaven and could drag me in his arms simply by his eyes.

I hope he realizes with him I feel like everything around me just disappears. All I see is him. Nobody else matters. It’s as if we transcend into another universe. More than anything I feel like we were made for each other. Kindred spirits. Old souls. Who chose to come back time and time again to live together into eternity. They intertwined because the love was so powerful and so true that they couldn’t bare losing one another. I know this because I feel these feelings boiling inside me, plus my intuition and the universe is trying to tell me something, but I’ve been trying to hide because I’m scared.

Idk what to do with these feelings. When I look at you I see a man I’d love to marry and give him a family. I see a man who could be the father of our child-or children, and I see a man I would love to make a father of. I see a man I’d be so happy in the arms of. I see someone I could finally be safe with. I see my home in your eyes and I feel it from the energy you give me. I can feel what you feel for me. Energy doesn’t lie. Humans lie.

Yet I am so nervous because I get blinded by love, it’s my only weakened, I’m a caring person and feel so tenderly for everyone that everyone uses it against me. I’ve tried to hide and block everyone from me. These things inflicting me are so severe some days. I go through highs and lows. Most days I stay positive but some days I’m so sad and right now…during this time of year I’m so very sad. Omg it actually hurts inside. I chose to feel all this and I will succeed on this path.

I just feel like I’m missing an extremely important part of my journey. The key to my happiness. I really need the man who owns my heart. I really love him, and I really really need him right now. Badly. Keep your life, and just spend some time on me. That’s it. I need to bathe in your vibes and love baby.

I want to have his baby so bad. He’s the only man I’ve ever wanted a life with. How can I possibly explain what I feel for him. I need to show him. Once he’s in my arms he won’t be able to deny this energy because it’ll be something he’s never felt before.

Just maybe I missed my chance though. I’m a realist I’ve realized I could lose him forever and I have to be ok with this because I want him so very happy. I’m so selfish though. I need him in my life….like ten years ago! They say love is when you can let your love be happy with someone else. I’ve seen him with others for years. It kills me inside and I play like it’s awesome and peachy. Wtf else am I supposed to do. Again, I’m a realist. The possibilities though. 🦋💜🐉🌸⛩🙏🏽💋

He’s my guardian angel…I need my guardian angel forever and always. I need my angel to talk to me directly and show me he loves me.