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after getting out of jail, she finally decided to make her move and kidnapped her children. after successfully kidnapping both of them, she brought them to their old house and talked/'relived' [old] memories with them. and i just felt so bad for her, since the kids didn't believe she was their mother and were being like doubtful and the mother actually was being really nice and was really trying to be a good mother - and it wasn't even her fault/she wasn't even aware/notified that her kids were going to be taken away from her. she loved her kids so much - she did everything she could for them, would never hurt them, everything - she even wrote to them while she was in prison, in hopes of still staying connected with them; but the social service judgeperson didn't pass them on. it wasn't HER fault that this happened, and i just felt so bad for her - all she wanted was to have her kids back, to live her life the way she dreamed of it being, to go back to how things used to be. i would blame her too bad for trying to retaliate by using drugs; after all, her husband had died like a year before or something like that.

and i just felt soo bad for her, since she really was trying/acting like a good mom. she was genuinely worried about her kids, would never hurt them, always wanted them to be happy, everything. and i just felt so bad for her since her kids acted like they didn't appreciate that, always saying that they wanted to go home to THEIR mom and stuff (and i don't blame them for that, but still - it's not like the lady was being mean or unpleasant or anything [like that]). and then later, when the mom was being taken away and the girl was reunited with her parents, first - the girl like ran into her parents' arms so happily and joyfully and i just felt SO bad for the mom, since she had to see that and see how happy her children were without her and with some other parent/weren't with her. and at one point, the mom had showed one of the children a dog from their childhood that she had played with, saying that she kept the dog when she was [away?] in prison and that [[everytime she saw it[?]]] it reminded/she thought of her. and when the child was being reunited with her adoptive parents, the officer saw the dog on the floor and picked it up and gave it to the child, which she accepted smiling and gladly and happily/cheerily, while the mom looked on. and i felt so bad for the mom, since that dog was the stuffed animal that reminded her of her child, which made getting through prison easier, and now her happy child's going to have it and she's not going to be with her. and now she won't even have that stuffed animal to remind her of her child/help her get through everything and just like ugh asjdklf;ajdslf. but at least the adoptive parents offered to give the mother like updates and pictures and stuff of her child, but i think that's also worse in some cases since she'll always be teased and stuff about news of her/the child that she'll never have and just like UGH ASDJFK;LASJDF.

omg jadklfjdfasljfd why did momo end with kiley omg jadkljdsalfjd she should've ended up with toji! they were so cute together and omg jadfklfjladsf. and like stupid sae omg. without her toji and momo would've never broken up. and i appreciate her like trying to get toji and momo back together near the end, but that was just her messing with momo (since she was technically with kiley thenn) and by then it was too late, since momo already developed feelings for kiley. 

ugghh momo should've been with toji. likee they mutually liked eachother since jr high and he's so sweet and was ALWAYS protecting her and ALWAYS liked her, and the only reason he broke up with her and turned her away was to protect her from sae, since she blackmailed him into breaking up with momo and going out with her. and for the time kiley and momo were dating, although he claimed that he loved her, he really loved misao more all that time, whereas toji ALWAYS had her as his number one. and kiley only 'loved' momo since she reminded her of misao, and he shouldn't have kissed misao when he was going out with momo and he even left momo when they were supposed to meet up. and although i kinda feel bad for kiley since a lot of the reason why momo went to toji was because of misunderstandings, i don't feel bad for him because it was the same thing with toji. toji only shunned momo and did what he did because he wanted to protect her.

and momo and kiley just don't seem right together. momo really looks better with toji and when they're together it's just so much cuter than when she's with kiley. but i kinda knew that momo and kiley were going to end up together because it just felt as if the author was trying to refrain momo and toji from getting too close. but omg still stupid sae again she faked that message from kiley to momo saying that he would commit suicide, and momo panicked, causing toji to be unhappy and saying that if she was going to go after him, she'd have to break up with him first. LIKE WHY DID HE SAY THAT. if the situation was reversed and toji was the one threatening suicide, i bet momo would try to go to his rescue too, since even if they aren't dating and even if she doesn't love him anymore, she once did and they were close, so it would be reasonable for her to want to save whoever. 

AND it was pretty much kiley's fault that toji and momo broke up. because like although it was sae's fault, it was kiley's fault in the long run, since after sae did that plot with momo and gigolo, it was kiley who proposed that they get revenge the way they did, which caused sae to become furious and take those pictures that she used to blackmail toji into breaking up with momo. 

and kiley is so selfish too. he couldn't accept that momo wanted to be with toji and practically begged her to be with him, whereas toji - although he also really wanted to be with momo since he loved her - mainly just wanted momo to be happy and respected her feelings.

and it really pisses me off how in 'sae's story', toji didn't even make an appearance. they mentioned him going to a good college by himself, but that was it. jfklajdflajdfkfjdalsfdjla.

and likee after that incident with gigolo, momo was like 'i don't want to live anymore if you leave me' or something like that, and toji was willing to die with her, which i think is a big feat.

and also when toji and momo worked the store together after getting together with kiley, momo was swept away which shows that she like fell in love with him again, which should count for something, right?

and also when they went on that trip to the mountains and she got burned, toji was going to go and help her but stupid kiley had to get to her first and then they kissed under the cherry blossom tree when she got lost later on which was like pretty much the start to their relationship djfkalfsjfsld if only toji was the one to find her -_______-

and i feel like a large part of why she went back to kiley was because she felt bad for him dajfkadjflas.

and toji was the type to only be dedicated for momo while kiley was like a former player so why would momo end up with kiley at the end ajdkdaljdlksaf.

and i felt so bad for toji for momo to leave on their trip together and go to kiley, although it was a little ironic kinda since he went on the trip meant for momo and kiley hahah.

but omg jdkflajdlfdjdsfjaklfsdjad i wanted momo and toji to end up together soo bad :c they were supposed to end up together and she and kiley are like ewh but she and toji are so cute together :c  omg uggghh why did sae have to interfere ajdskfldajdfs i want momo and toji together :( i like almost literally cried yesterday after finishing reading it ugh dafjkadljfs and toji shaved his head in the beginning of the book too and then when they got together at the end he even did the sign they made for 'i love you' when they use to go out too D: and they knew eachother much longer and they had mutual feelings for eachother since junior high and toji was like the only person who understood momo and that she wasn't a 'beach bunny' and he's so sweet in sae's story, it showed that he even took notes for momo and like said that she was 'really sweet and straightforward' omg ajdfklajldf :c